World After Worlds
Chapter 348 - 348: § MY KARMA §

To make Kraig fall in love. Yanarym had to always be there for him. That lonely boy needed to feel that he had to be dependent on someone. That someone should be her, of course, it depends on the time to consider what type of person Kraig needed. For example, at this period, although it was not so necessary, he needed someone who could give him a fresh and free of worries with his academics. He did not need high grades however, he was required to do things at the academy to graduate. Yanarym's purpose here was to make him think, 'Oh! Yanarym's here, I don't need to worry about school stuff'.

Even if their relationship had no love, even if he could not be able to fall in love with her…

She had already taken one portion of his life into her hands. Not to mention, she is his girlfriend, who provides him satisfaction in bed. Although he could still have this service once he found another person to be in a relationship with, it was different with her. She had executed everything in her chores, perfectly. He would not find someone as good as her, she cannot be compared with Tiana's ability.

It was similar to a table or a chair. There are feet or the foundation for it to be able to stand, she became one of the foundations of Kraig's life, and once she was gone, he would not be able to operate like he used to be. As she mentioned, she could be replaced. But it would take time. Plus, things would never be the same.

Kraig was the type of person who was firmly held in the past. That was why he took revenge for his mother's death. Meaning that she is his past and makes a strong impression on his life, Kraig would often be nostalgic. No matter how good and great the replacement, there would always be a missing piece in the future.

That was the 'possible outcome' of her current work in Kraig.

Guide-sama: "Is that how you are going to break his heart? Do you think it will make him cry?"

No, of course not. I prepared something much more interesting to break his heart in the future. It would be good if I really made him think he fell in love with me. Nothing hurts much more than the first heartbreak from the love you thought was real.

Guide-sama: "Being that said, Lyndon is thinking a lot about you, especially earlier when he saw you with Kraig. Though I could not really say how he felt, I guess, because he was thinking more of you than in recent times."

Kraig was willingly taking everything I offered, with that said, he's doomed.

Lyndon was not willing to take anything I brought, even so, he's also doomed.

They were both taking different routes, however, the destination was not different. I intend to starve both of them. Kraig, who was well-fed, would be staved off once the privilege was taken, and would end up desperate. Lyndon was constantly starving and would binge.

Guide-sama: "What about Matteo? He is crying, does that mean his heart is already broken by you?"

I don't know about Matteo, he is unpredictable. How could he love the original this much and abandon her in the end? Was his favor for Azkin greater than this?

Guide-sama: "You don't know why he cried?"

My intention earlier is for him to be anxious, I did not expect that he would cry just because I glared at him.

Guide-sama: "...then, what was your plan to break his heart before this?"

Since he can't be fooled like Kraig and he is not as negative as Lyndon. I thought acting hot and cold towards him could cause his mind to be in chaos.

Guide-sama: "Hot and cold?"

You know, one moment I love him, one moment I don't care about him at all.

Guide-sama: "..."

Who knew breaking his heart was as easy as this?

Guide-sama: "Does he deserve this?"

Yanarym paused. Doesn't he?

Guide-sama: "He is treating you good, except for the time he tried forcing you. Everything he does was according to your liking. I don't understand why you want to hurt everyone in this world so bad."

Are you concerned with Matteo, Guide-sama?

Guide-sama: "I don't know, however, I don't get why you are trying to break his heart when he has done nothing to offend you."

Hmm, how could I explain this? The more I got to attach myself to Matteo, the more I felt the repulsion deep within me. Whether it was the original or me who did not like him, I can't say. Or maybe I adapted Kraig's sadistic nature and just wanted to see anyone who was related to the original suffer before I leave here.

Guide-sama: "If that was the case why suddenly become harsh with Matteo?"

When I thought that he let the original die, I was so annoyed. Yanarym tapped and rubbed Matteo's back to soothe him. He cries like a bullied kid but she was not guilty at all. A notion popped up in her head: if they really become husband and wife in heaven, would Matteo become her battered husband? Not, physically because she had no such fetish for seeing bruises however, she really was developing this habit of tormenting him emotionally.

Oddly enough, she felt such satisfaction hearing him sob.

Guide-sama: "Kraig is not a good influence on you." Without a sound, Yanarym agreed to Guide-sama. Since she felt like she was a natural villain, hanging around with people who have dark-gray nature was giving the infection to her tainted mind.

People should really do their best to pick the person they would associate with. Those men who think they were taking advantage of her, soon would regret exposing their terrible attitude to her. They are bad, alright? But I think I am the worst.

Guide-sama: "Yanarym,"

Yes?

Guide-sama: "Because you believed in karma and you acted as their karma… who do you think would become your karma?"

My karma?

Guide-sama: "Yes."

Karma is not limited to the form of humans. Although I might be wrong, I don't think my karma would be a person. Wait, are you hoping for me to be in love and be broken-hearted?

Guide-sama: "I am not hoping for that, like I said, all I want for you is to be happy."

That's a very vague wish you have for me. For example, I am having fun right now, and fun is associated with happiness. That means, your wish for me is already fulfilled. Aside from fun-happy, there are rare cases where happiness was disguised as sadness.

Guide-sama: "...you're right. So… what's my purpose?"

Don't ask me, I don't even know mine.

Guide-sama: "..."

Don't have such an identity crisis all of sudden. Anyways, my karma will come someday, or what's happening to me right now is karma.

Guide-sama: "What do you mean?"

Well, I'm not so sure as well, but why am I doing all these things? Right? Completing these tasks that the original left for me? Will every person who died become like me? I've read books that have a transmigrating concept, there were systems. Clearly, you are not a system. And I have not encountered anyone yet. You don't even know where you came from and your source of knowledge is limited as well. Have you met some other Guides, Guide-sama?

Guide-sama: "No, you are the only one I could talk to."

…in that case, I really felt like you were just a fragment of my imagination. Am I living in some asylum somewhere and thinking this is all real?

Guide-sama: "I… am just a fragment of your imagination?"

Well, don't you think so?

Guide-sama: "I don't know about anything but I felt hurt. Why am I just a fragment? You think I am not real?"

Woah, are you offended?

Guide-sama: "I think so. My existence suddenly became an illusion of yours. I've been with you all my life and my memories were authentic. But I am not real? How could you say that? Why are you being a bitch again?"

Calm down, Guide-sama. Don't curse me. Yanarym cackled. I, myself might not even be real.

Guide-sama: "Why are you becoming philosophical? If we are not real, are we fakes?"

Let's not talk about this, hahaha. You are so triggered.

Guide-sama: "Shut up." Yanarym bit her lips to hold her laughter. She had a knack for making these celestial beings become emotional. Matteo stopped crying but remained unmoved from embracing her. He was not heavy, he seemed to be mindful of entrapping her between his massive body.

She brushed his hair and listened to his stable breathing. The constant wind blowing on the field and the gentle aroma of the flowers. It was very tranquilizing. The past of the original. Matteo's connection to the main leads. The complex emotions. This was a vacation but she had no way of resting.

Sighing, Yanarym thought. Now, what's next?