SILVER-HEART
Chapter 96: What My Heart Bear For You {2}

Chapter 96: What My Heart Bear For You {2}

Have you ever been in a state of overwhelming stupefaction to the point you cannot speak? A frosty action that not only numbs your body but your voice too? This shock is not of fear but a state in which you feel you’re in a dream but it’s real as day.

A man I thought a moment ago might not love me as much as I do and regard me less... but it was the very opposite. Even though William did not say those three words it’s like what he said to me exceeds something as feeble as that, making those mere three words meaningless in a matter of seconds. Transforming it into something more extraordinary, saying his entirety in a way that a mere three words were not enough.

Only William Basker Darkmore can do something like that, cause me to go numb and utterly wordless when what I wanted to say at that moment was ’Yes’

But here I am in my chambers, my back against the headboard and my knees to my chest. I got so frozen to the point I cannot even form words, and he told me he would wait for my answer.

He gave me time

I darted my eyes to the window, watching the night scene from this angle. He gave me time to give my answer, he wants me to think about it thoroughly, that is how much he meant every word he said.

Time to think?

I almost laughed at myself... I was the exact same person who mentally told myself I love him, not that I don’t mean it I really do, but this was enough to test how certain I’m to that commitment, to bear your entire self to someone, forever. This wasn’t about second thoughts, this was about being sure of myself.

I want to love him

I want to be by his side

In Sickness and In Health

I truly want to be his wife

I have no doubt and I mean everything, but once again my frozen mind needs to come back in place and my voice needs to lay strong when I tell him. I want to mean every word of it.

I sat there all through the night not having a wink of sleep, sleep was definitely the last in my mind.

I heard Elvenia come in, greeting me and doing one or two things in the room while saying it was time for my bath.

I need someone to talk to... not Sophia who’s a child and not Severus who is a man and might not get me. But a lady like me, Elvenia, although we have an edgy relationship I want it to be better in some way.

"W-William proposed to me" I mentally cursed myself, sounding so faint that I could barely hear myself, but thankfully Elvenia’s pointy ears twitched so I guess she did hear me.

"He asked me officially," I gulped, keeping my eyes on her.

"Hmm," she made a sound. "I guess now I shall call you ’My lady’ when the rites are complete and-"

"I haven’t given him an answer yet"

She paused and blinked, seeming confused. "Why?"

"Stupid me" I mumbled to myself. "It just caught me off guard that’s why and I want to be sure of myself, my feelings" I darted my eyes back to her. "Have you ever been in love?"

A stupid question for me to ask, she has spent years here and-

"Love"

She cut my thoughts off.

"Tell me does love involve having to care for someone unconditionally, wanting to be by their side, wanting to spend your entire life with them and admiring every single thing they do, an utmost devotion to that person?"

My lips parted but no words came from me.

"Then yes, young miss... I had been in love"

"H-Had?"

"Not everyone who loves someone gets to be with them"

"S-Severus?"

She huffed. "I merely tolerate him, he gets on my nerve all the time"

"T-Then-"

"It doesn’t matter who I loved, young miss, what I’m saying is that you have an opportunity to be with the one you love... that answers everything" she shrugs. "You do love the Master do you not?" she added.

"Yes," I answered without any doubt.

And Elvenia did something I never thought she would do, she gave me an honest smile, one that stopped my heartbeat momentarily, it was so gorgeous, it was heavy and I could feel sadness in her eyes and at the same time unpretentious happiness for me.

"There young miss... you have your answer. Love can be painful, full of yearning even when you don’t want it to, but when you have the opportunity to be with the one person who makes you feel like the center of the universe" she blinks as if a realization just hits her. "Then yes... that love is worth any risk" she offered a bow.

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"You want to wear a white gown?" Elvenia asked with puzzled features and I eagerly nodded.

She mumbled an ’Okay’ and complied with my wishes and dressed me in a white empire waist gown, packing my brown hair in a bun in silver pins.

I stood before the mirror admiring myself, the gown was so beautiful and had silver designs. Silver pinup earrings and a tiny necklace... It wasn’t too much but it was perfect.

"You look beautiful, young miss"

I darted my eyes to the mirror and found Elvenia’s gaze on me, even though her features remained stoic as usual I could tell she meant what she said.

"Thank you," I said softly.

"The master is at the garden"

"O-Okay" I suddenly became nervous, but I stilled them by taking a deep breath and walking out the door.

Elvenia followed behind until I got to the garden. I stopped when I laid eyes on William, on the patio with his back facing us.

My hands clenched my gown on both sides as I took a deep breath. I turned to Elvenia who offered me a small smile and then I looked behind to see Severus and Sophia. Severus... grinning ear to ear, giving me a nod and Sophia looked confused.

Three people I considered important to me without even realizing it, it’s more than I could ask for.

I took a step forward.