SILVER-HEART
Chapter 95: What My Heart Bear For You {1}

Chapter 95: What My Heart Bear For You {1}

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I came back to the library exhausted from playing with Sophia, she was nifty and energetic but I wasn’t, as much as I wanted to play with her all she wants I needed to catch my breath, and my body still needed not to be driven by something intense or else it would get me quivering too much.

On my way back I spotted William staring at a shelf lost in thoughts. A peculiar position I have never seen him in, whenever he was in the library he was always engaged with something... but just standing there almost like he would freeze the shelf itself into a box of ice with his mere gaze, got me worried.

My features instantly turned into concern, he looked so zoned out that I didn’t come close, so instead I stood behind a shelf observing... most especially checking if his eyes were void again but they were their usual crystal green color and I sighed in relief.

Suddenly a smile stretched on his lips and I tensed when he turned his attention to me. Once again it felt like I was lost in time staring into his eyes. Even as we talked I couldn’t look away other than him, he was just too captivating and I was in love with him.

"In all my life Ava I have never cared for someone, I only cared about the benefit, and uses, nothing measured except that"

The moment he uttered such words I felt a deep tug in my heart and the chances of telling him how I felt suddenly ran slim... He probably doesn’t feel the same way as I do because he was a godly man assigned to care for nothing but the library and its well-being and not take anything else as important. The people around him were only good for his use.

I was only good for my use, and nothing more.

"You care only for my use," I said in a heavy tone, it hurts so much to speak now and I couldn’t even meet his eyes because I was afraid of what I might see... I would see a man who doesn’t love me and regards me less.

A man who only cares about his Library more than anything.

"I once did"

His words caused me to freeze and I raised my confused gaze back to him.

"This is not about uses anymore, Ava,"

My heart slammed a loud beat especially when he took loud steps towards me and I just stood frozen in spot watching his every move until he stood before me.

"You’re more than just ’use’..."

Am I dreaming again?

"I have never wanted someone so much in my entire life... Emotions were never in factor in my life not until you"

Please tell me this is not a dream!

He placed his hand on my cheek and stroked it gently, and it was enough to tell me I wasn’t dreaming and I wasn’t hearing things, this was actually happening and he was saying such heart-stopping words to me like he was baring his entire feelings to me.

"A feeling that transcends any wants or needs, affections and anything possibly related to powerful emotions... then yes Ava, this is not just about ’use’ but an underlying devotion that I cannot control... my incessant need and thirst for you, the need to see you smile always, to wipe your tears away... this is not ’use’..."

What could I possibly say? Words that I have never heard before were being said to me like it was one last breath... like if he doesn’t say it right now the mere world would end.

All I do was let the tears building up in my eyes fall freely as I took in everything he offered, words spoken with such heavy emotions that even I can’t comprehend, the color of his eyes brighter than it has been, something clustering them and also speaking wordless words to me, countless, not even I could count and contain.

I was too caught up in all the emotions until I realized he had knelt on one knee before me, his ardent gaze on me like I was the only being breathing and the only one he sees instead of the world itself.

What’s happening?!

"I know I’m not the easiest to understand, I’m difficult even for you... I can’t process emotions as you do, but if you let me, I will show you what my heart holds for you"

I opened my mouth but words couldn’t come off, it was just hung off and hurled away, I was utterly mute and hung off to the point all my body trembled under his hold.

Stupid Ava, say something!

"I want you to promise me, Ava" he began once again leaning close to me until our lips were almost touching. "Promise me you will stay by my side forever if that is what you want"

He gently wiped the tears silently streaming down my cheeks with his thumb. "I don’t care what you are... as long as you tell me yes right now" he mumbled more to himself but I heard everything.

"Be here... in all adversity that may come, in any sickness and health, be here, with me, here" he placed a palm on my chest, I swear my heart was almost beating out of my very chest.

William’s proposing to me!

The first time he told me I was his bride, it was just a whim, an order without my say in the matter, and being in a confused state I accepted it like an obligation for a man who gave me what no one has ever had.

But right now... he’s doing it officially, he’s offering his feelings to me.

"Tell me Ava... do you want me as much as I do? Do you want to be by my side forever just as much as I do?" he leaned further, ghost kissing my lips. "Tell me..."

My breath trembled, my chest rose and fell, my head in a spin, my features covered in shock.

"Be my wife... My sweet Ava"