SILVER-HEART
Chapter 36: Busy Or Avoiding

Chapter 36: Busy Or Avoiding

William did that... for me? That means it wasn’t about selfish reasons he told me I shouldn’t speak to anyone else but him. He was secretly casting a spell to seal the power in my voice? So that I could speak to the others?

"What’s wrong young miss?" Severus asked. He must have noticed my sudden down mood.

"N-Nothing... I-I’m fine," I said with a forced smile. I was surprised too, because the William I thought might not have feelings might actually have one, or was it his way of trying to understand me like a book again?

"Then shall we young miss, starting from today I shall assist you with your studies and every book you need to know for your knowledge"

"B-But I thought Will- I-I mean Master is my mentor"

He chuckled. "Well you see young miss, the Master’s busy and he doesn’t wish to be disturbed"

Busy? I frowned, why do I feel like he’s avoiding me? Ever since that night he talked about consummation. I haven’t seen him and now he doesn’t have time to tutor me anymore? Did I say something wrong that night? I only spoke of my feelings.

"You may not know but keeping the Holy library balance in this dimension as well as keeping check of all the new knowledge that appears is a very tiring job, one the Master is only capable of handling as its arbiter"

"New knowledge appears?"

"Yes" he nodded looking up and I did too, I gasped when I saw it. It was random but there were glittering golden lights of random books appearing on the shelves even to the tallest of them all.

"As you can see Knowledge is something that never ends or stops and the Holy library is the very foundation, without it... knowledge will cease to exist and that will be chaos for the mortal realm and any other realms"

My eyes trembled at his words but I was unable to push the feeling about him avoiding me.

"Shall we young miss?"

I struck a nod as he led me and explained about other things along the way, it was nice conversing with Severus, he worships the library just as he does William. Any questions I had concerning what I needed to learn he happily provided them... but I was missing a certain soothing voice that taught me words, call me foolish but it’s true.

Severus, of course, is a gentleman and helped me with everything I needed to know but I can’t get Williams’s gentle voice out of my head. It was getting slightly frustrating for me, so I buried myself more in the books Severus offered.

And just like that the day ended and It was dinner. I sat alone once again with William out of sight, I was seriously convinced he was avoiding me now and I can’t seem to find the reason why. I was even back to sleeping in my chambers but I wasn’t as comfortable as I was back in his, why? I had no idea or maybe it was his scent that kept messing with my brain, the earthly fragrance like fresh wild and it reminded me when I sneak into the woods back at the orphanage, to get away from people cursing me and calling me a witch.

How I would talk to flowers and just lay on the grass and watch the skies, it didn’t last long, it never did for I had to go back before they started looking for me, but that small hour of peace was magical to me, it was funny I got the same feeling from William’s bed.

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I sighed, turning to the next page in the book I was reading. For the past few days now I could proudly say I wasn’t an illiterate like I was when I first came here, I could easily read through a book smoothly. I could even finish 2 a day without getting tired, the urge to learn more was just too overwhelming and I rarely think about my cruel past now, it was like a distant memory. It’s funny how other things you stay focused on let you find peace and set a goal for yourself.

A smile was on my lips as I shut the book I finished reading and rose to my feet. I hummed to myself as I walked to the shelf and placed the book back in the exact same spot and searched for another.

"What should I read now?" I said to myself, lining my fingers on them and trying to choose. Along the way as I searched, I caught something silver from the corner of my eyes and I halted my action. Is that William? Just the mere thought of him caused me to automatically move even though I knew I shouldn’t.

I peeked from behind a shelf and at a distance I saw William, there was a pile of floating books behind him, arranging themselves like he wields them to... recently, there were a lot of flying books and I was already accustomed to this type of view.

He paused for a minute and checked a book on the shelves. I noticed a long scroll with a quill following behind him as he told it what to write, it was like the pen has a mind of its own and it was quite interesting to see.

What captivated me the most and took my breath away was when William ran his hands through his silver hair, the mere action mesmerized me and got my eyes trembling. Seeing his hands going through such beautiful hair got me greedy and jealous, I wanted to be the one running my hands through them.

I gasped at my own thoughts and quickly shook my head to get rid of it, but a shameless thought like that wouldn’t come off that easily, I went as far as picturing it now.

Why am I seeing images of me combing his hair?

"Ava?"

My body automatically freezes. My trembling gaze darted to him, he had his back facing me now and I pondered how he was able to know it was me.

"There’s no need to spy I can feel you"

Huh?

He turns to me and I never thought I would actually feel alive by having him focus on me.

He raised his hand and his index finger moved back and forth. "Come closer"