Mrs Fox Heinous Revenge: Can You Love A Villainess like Me?
Chapter 104: After it Ends

Chapter 104: After it Ends

—Music recommendation: wildflower— Billie eilish—

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A tripod and a camera greeted her eyes first.

AiLin had took off her leather jacket and was dressed in a white blouse and a leather black pants. Her long hair had been tied into a ponytail and her face was brightened with enough makeup that just enhanced her appearance but not so much that it would give her life. The simple white blouse and black pants with no accessories had given the impression of someone who was much too uncaring of how she looked as long as she could move on with another day.

But this was something she never thought to do because she wanted to appear perfect in the audition, in fact, it was simply how she had been all this years. It wasn’t that she didn’t care how she looked like, she never pay too much attention to bring herself to look happy and wear whatever that could make her easy to the eyes.

Director Chu wondered if she had donned herself in such a state on purpose but seeing her chapped lips, he wondered that perhaps this was how AiLin had always been.

He looked at the papers regarding her which didn’t even have a picture of herself, only her name written brusquely and the reason for her act being nothing than "I wanted to try it". Simple, concise, but somehow extremely detached.

AiLin found a mirror behind her that was wide enough to cover her entire body but she had to turn her back to it and sat on a chair right in front of the camera.

She didn’t realize that Li JingYi was there as she kept her gaze on the camera. For some reason ever since she read the lines she was supposed to act, her heart felt so numb that her body moved like a doll. Her head was high in the clouds and although she was still reasonable, she didn’t feel as energized as ever. In fact, she didn’t even want to try to feel energized.

Director Chu looked at her, almost questioning if she even came here prepared, "Name?" He asked, curt tone as he had always been. He never thought to be nice to others unless they were someone who had impressed him.

"AiLin," she responded blankly as she could see her own face on the camera’s reflection. She finally moved her eyes from the camera to look at Director Chu who had questioned her first. Dressed in brown suit, a man in his fifties with a big frame. Glasses rested on is eyes, his hands holding a thick script that was written "Death By Your Hands" on it.

"Do you know the story of the novel or are you only familiar with the script?"

"I have read the novel before. Around four years ago," she answered to his question in a robotic tone.

Director Chu hummed, "And how did you find the story?"

How did she find the story?

"Relatable."

Director Chu looked up at her, a little alarmed as he rechecked her answer, "You have read the story and you thought that it is relatable?"

"Indeed."

"Even after the sad ending?"

"It’s realistic," AiLin answered in an even tone, "That’s the most realistic ending I have ever read."

"Let’s watch her perform," said Director Gu from the side as he could see AiLin seemed to be in a sort of trance, or perhaps she has always been such a person. Just based off the look, AiLin had it all. A foxy eyes that seemed so lively yet defeated, her face was also particularly beautiful, her skin polished, and though her lips chapped, it wasn’t because she hadn’t took care of it, she had a bad case of habit in biting her own lips when she was thinking.

"Let’s go by the script as per mentioned," Director Chu said, "Do you need to read from the script?"

She shook her head.

"Alright, we will be giving you the time you need," Director Chu then turned to the male writer who had annoyed him earlier, "Read the line for her, Writer Xue."

Writer Xue sighed. He saw when AiLin entered and knew that this actress was one who always calculate her every move by making herself looked so pathetic. Though when she entered, Writer Xue had thought "woah she might be able to get this role" he brushed off the thoughts and hid it as he needed to be partial to Mei Hua.

He cleared his throat and read the lines, the one he knew he wasn’t supposed to, "XinYi, do you even understand what pain is? You lived your life in wealth! You lived well in privilege because of them!"

AiLin recalled once that someone had said those words. It was the time when the main character had met her best friend who was infuriated that the main character had told her that she understood her pain after her best friend had lost her family due to the main character’s family.

Her reaction was exactly the same as "XinYi" the main character of the book.

She responded to that person as XinYi had done, "Privileged?"

"Privileged! I’m alone now, unlike you!" the male writer accused.

"Is it a privilege when I had to bear scars of their physical abuse to my body?" AiLin looked back at the writer, her eyes simply staring at the soul as she didn’t control her facial muscles. But it seemed something on her face had made them chill. "Or the time when I had to suffer cold on my own, being locked outside the house on a snowy day until I coughed out blood? Or was it the time when they didn’t want to celebrate my birthday and instead threw all my birthday gifts to the pond for me to pick it up for myself when I was ill with asthma? Or how they had told me to die right in front of my face while telling me to jump off the house’s balcony so they wouldn’t have to kill me?"

"I don’t like showing my scars, Ru Xuan," AiLin answered again and she smiled a small smile, "That’s why you can still think that I’m a beautiful young lady from a wealthy family. I gave you the illusion that I had lived a great life but deep down I’m broken and torn."

"But I don’t feel pain anymore. I can’t feel them. I have no more hope for anything. "

AiLin didn’t know what she had said but she recalled XinYi in the book had said these words firmly, "You asked me before of what I would do after everything has ended. As someone who had been in that family, and someone who had unknowingly became related to the death of your family, I know I have to pay for my mistakes."

"What are you saying.." the male writer unknowingly uttered the words from the script in a real surprise and fear. The blood on his face had disappeared upon seeing AiLin’s wide smile.

"Ru Xuan," AiLin spoke as one line of tears dripped from her left eye but it seemed as though AiLin didn’t realize the tears, "Do you think that once I die, there will be anyone who would cry for me?"

She whispered in a small voice but it echoed in the silenced room,

"But I guess that won’t matter anymore when I’m gone."

"When it all ends, I want to leave this world."