DESTINED MATE : SWEET ALPHA PHEROMONE
Chapter 63

Chapter 63: Chapter 63

Our life after back from the hospital went on as usual. We returned to Gruvv’s house on the mountain, after we had experienced such a long RUT and HEAT. We experienced RUT and HEAT again simultaneously after that.

A short while later, Gruvv was asked to come to the Dhurudatta family’s main house. I know the Dhurudatta family was so kind to me when Gruvv was going through the interminable RUT, they took care of me and made sure that I was in a safe condition.

I could see Gruvv was so nervous when he was in the dressing room, he stayed in front of the wardrobe just to look at all the suits hanging neatly.

"Don’t know which one to wear?" My question made him turn his head, I could smell his pheromones. Funny, now I can tell what he’s feeling just from his pheromones.

"Yes, this is the annual dinner our family holds, what do you think I should wear?" He asked while crossing his arms over his chest, his eyes still staring at the wardrobe with the translucent glass.

I moved closer to the wardrobe and sorted out some suits, "These always fit when you wear them."

He frowned his forehead, "You’ve seen me wearing these two suits?"

I nodded. He had worn it on business out of town a while ago, but he didn’t seem to remember that. I was always watching his every move, what he wore, what he ate and drank. In an instant his presence in my life just happened and now I’m used to it, if he’s out of sight for a while my heart gets restless.

He took the suit I picked out and put it on, I gave him two thumbs up. He looks handsome and dashing.

I stared at the car leaving the house, hugging myself as the winter wind hit. I wore only a thin cardigan, escorting Gruvv’s departure from the terrace. I quickly went inside.

Strangely, this house doesn’t make me lonely.

There’s a warm feeling inside this house, in a house that once even felt so foreign to me. I lived in this house for almost a year and in that year we went through many things. I didn’t know that Gruvv’s presence beside me could make me this comfortable.

Gruvv said he would try to get Seth back. But, I’m not sure he can do it.

I sat down on one of the couches in the room, Ave greeted me kindly and asked if I would eat my dessert lunch and I nodded. She immediately prepared what I wanted, without speaking Ave already knew what to put in front of me. What I liked and didn’t like, she had memorized it by heart.

"How was the pudding today?" Ave asked, she sat beside me and looked at me with her usual gentle gaze.

I was scooping the pudding into my mouth, "This is delicious, it tastes so fresh." I said, Ave smiled with her whole body.

"Lychee pudding is supposed to be eaten in the summer, but I’m sure Mr. Shiloh would like it even if it’s the middle of winter."

I nodded, I liked many foods that I had never even tried before. During my time in this house, those foods turned into my daily meals.

"What about your HEAT Mr. Shiloh?" Ave asked, taking the empty pudding bowl in my hand and sliding a plate of chocolate cake closer to me.

"I experienced it many times after a long time of not experiencing it, it feels.... weird.."

Ave nodded, she stirred the hot tea that she had just put sugar into. I myself still feel like I’m in a dream, what I experienced a while ago with Gruvv is really like a miracle. After Elina said that I might be transitioning into a recessive Omega, suddenly the RUT that Gruvv experienced also triggered the HEAT inside me.

We had both just experienced them after not having experienced them for a long time. If I can say, after I woke up from what happened, my body felt like it was destroyed. The pain was from my toes to my head.

"Mr. Shiloh had a seizure some time ago..." Ave handed me the cup of tea that she had finished stirring. She looked at me who was chewing a piece of cake in my mouth.

"Seizures?"

"Mr. Shiloh, you can’t take birth control pills, it made Mr. Gruvv lose control for a while when you had a seizures."

I don’t remember it. There were many things that I didn’t realize, or didn’t even remember. Like the wound on my wrist, I repeatedly asked Ave what happened. At first, Ave didn’t want to say anything, but I pressed her.

She said I made a suicide attempt and that morning the one who found me was Gruvv, he had a panic attack and almost lost himself. There were a few more things that happened and I kept making Gruvv lose control of himself.

Sometimes, fear haunts me. I feel like I shouldn’t be here, I shouldn’t be by Gruvv’s side. After all, I’m Gil’s son.

"Mr. Shiloh, I hope you recover soon. Since you’ve been here, Mr. Gruvv is much more gentle." Ave held my hand, rubbing it gently. I could only manage a small smile and nodded although in my heart I wasn’t sure.

I was sitting on the bed in my room, the curtains were open so I could see the snow falling. Gruvv was at his family’s house, I didn’t know what they were talking about there. My fear that his family would reject my presence made me eat up all the negative thoughts.

However, it’s not like they’re rejecting me.

Again, shouldn’t I know myself? I’m Gil’s son.

I watched the snow fall one by one, making white piles on the balcony terrace. This was the first winter I could enjoy without the fear of my father coming and bringing me medicine to drink, I no longer had to worry about cold food that looked more like dog food than human food.

I didn’t need to hear my father cursing at me every day and telling me that I was useless. Mom’s death was like the beginning of hell for me, and now Gruvv freed me from those shackles. He took me out of Madam Rose, he killed that old woman, and now he’s after dad.

Does Gruvv hate me?

I’m Gil’s son, the man who almost destroyed his family’s business. The man who made his family lose so much money. He should hate me, but, he says that he loves me. He said it over and over again at every opportunity, when we were making love, when we were watching television, when we were having a snack, when we were walking in the backyard, or when we were enjoying the flowers in the greenhouse.

He always said that he loved me. I couldn’t help feeling too, I loved him. It was a different kind of love like when I felt it with Mateo. A feeling of love that gives me a sense of security and comfort.

I walked to the window, closed the curtains and now darkness fell. I didn’t turn on the light and sat back on the bed, not hearing any sounds from outside the room. Usually at night there was no one else in the house, but Gruvv had now asked one of the maids to wait for him to back while occasionally checking on me.

I know he’s worried.

I took off my clothes, turned on the light and walked into the wardrobe room, I looked at my naked body. Some of the scars were still visible and didn’t seem to be able to just disappear, I touched Hanahaki’s surgical wound. Finally, I was no longer vomiting flower petals, I don’t have to feel cramped anymore on my chest. I trace the scar from when I gave birth to Seth, a beautiful scar that I will never forget.

"The pheromones you released for Seth were a traumatizing moment for you, hence you have trouble smelling your own pheromones and cannot experience HEAT for a long time."

That sentence rang in my head. I still remember how it felt to hold Seth in my arms, his loud cries and me showering him in my pheromones. I wanted him to remember me, the tears just fell, I sobbed.

I quickly put my clothes back on, this body doesn’t look beautiful, why would Gruvv want to be with me? Does having sex with me make him horny? I don’t look pretty. But, he always call me pretty, beautiful. Weird.

He is weird, but I love him.

I miss him, being alone in this house without him makes me feel empty, I want to hug him, I want to lay my body next to him and look at his face. I miss Gruvv.

A message came in when I had just pulled up the blanket and closed my eyes, it was from Gruvv. A message that made me smile widely.

Dad said you should come to our next family dinner. You’re part of this family.