DESTINED MATE : SWEET ALPHA PHEROMONE
Chapter 62 - GRUVV’s POV

Chapter 62: Chapter 62 - GRUVV’s POV

Today, I accompanied Shiloh to meet Elina. She came in with a big smile as she saw the two of us sitting side by side holding hands.

"You guys look good together." Her babble made Shiloh realize that I had been holding his hand, his face turning red as he tried to let go my hand. Of course, I didn’t let go even though his face already looked like a boiled crab.

Elina laughed and said that she had no problem seeing that.

Maria, one of my maids brought a tray with a glass of apple cider and placed it on the table. The glass was oozing dew from the ice cubes inside. It was already winter but Elina always asked for a glass of cold water when she came.

Elina opened the session with a question she’s often asked when she comes in.

"How was your day?"

Shiloh took a sip of the hot tea in the cup, he started talking about his day at home. He told Elina a lot of things, starting from the fact that he was reading a new book. Then he told half the contents of the book to Elina who listened carefully, then he told her how his daily life was in the house. He took a walk in the garden with Ave, then watered and took care of the flowers in the greenhouse. He recounted how he and the gardener had cut some white roses and wrapped them, and the gardener had come up with the idea of selling them.

I could see his rich expressions when he told her these things. He looked happy.

"Aren’t you curious how those white roses are selling at the flower shop?" Elina asked Shiloh who blinked his eyes. Questions that Shiloh might not have thought of before would be asked by the woman.

"I...." He paused his sentence, his head slightly lowered and his hands clutching the pants he was wearing.

Elina did not interrupt Shiloh who was trying to answer her question, but five minutes passed and he did not say anything more. I could feel his palms sweating.

"Mr. Shiloh, it is fine if you are not ready to go out yet. I can understand your fears. But, the therapy for Alpha pheromones must still be done for the healing process. It may be uncomfortable and painful, but we must continue so that Mr. Shiloh can recover soon."

Shiloh nodded stiffly after Elina said so. He looked down and I could feel his hands trembling. Ah, I can’t see how he’s still scared by the smell of Alpha’s pheromones.

The session went a little awkwardly after Elina told him about Alpha pheromones, then she ended the session, asking Shiloh to change into more comfortable clothes to start another session. When Shiloh left to go to his room, it was just me and Elina.

"What about Mr. Shiloh HEAT?" Without further ado, she asked me directly.

I turned my head and our eyes met, "He hasn’t gotten HEAT again this week, the last time his HEAT happened was two weeks ago."

Elina wrote something on the notebook that had been perched on her knee, she sat down while crossing her legs.

"Is that something bad?" I asked, Elina looked so serious.

She raised her head and nodded slightly, "You both HEAT and RUT are still overlapping each other and don’t have a regular timing yet, this could be serious. Sorry, but Mr. Shiloh doesn’t take birth control pills, right?"

"The last time he took it, he had a seizure." I said.

"His body is in distress after taking large doses of sleeping pills over the past few years, possibly any drugs are no longer working in his body. This is what keeps everything we want to try on him on hold."

I frowned, "Then, what should I do?"

She played with the pen between her fingers, twirling it skillfully.

"Besides using protection, I think you should take the initiative to use birth control pills for a while. Otherwise, Shiloh will get pregnant. The last test showed that his fertility rate was so high during the HEAT period. Mr. Dhurudatta, have you done the marking?"

I was silent for a moment before finally shaking my head softly. I hadn’t marked Shiloh yet. It’s not that I don’t want to, but Shiloh’s condition is unstable. After I did the knotting accidentally when we were in the hospital, he was going an unconscious state fo a day long.

Knotting is painful and the body reacts to it negatively. Then, what about marking? It was even more painful, I had to bite down on the nape of his neck, sinking my fangs in deep and leaving bite marks there.

"Mr. Dhurudatta, in my opinion, marking is the only way for Mr. Shiloh to be free from his trauma." Elina’s words left me speechless for a moment.

She explained how Shiloh’s traumatized body came from his own head, he felt unsafe from smelling other Alpha’s scent so the brain signaled the body to overreact. Elina said that the only way is to make Shiloh feel safe smelling other Alpha pheromones by marking.

"As we know, marking has zero effect on Omega even if he smells another Alpha’s pheromone scent. As for the other Alphas smelling Mr Shiloh’s pheromone scent also has zero effect for them, it also helps that when his unstable HEAT appears, his pheromone does not make other Alphas to do something to him." Elina explained once more, trying to remind me what marking was as if this was the first time I had heard of it.

I ruffled my hair, leaned my body against the sofa and looked up at the ceiling. I wanted to make Shiloh free from his trauma of smelling another Alpha’s pheromones, but on the other hand his helpless body kept haunting my mind.

"I don’t want to hurt him more than this." I muttered.

Elina caught my mumbling, she then closed her notebook and now looked at me seriously.

"The pain of knotting and marking is only momentary, if done properly it doesn’t even feel painful at all. Usually Alphas have to release their pheromones more when knotting and marking so that the Omega’s pain is somewhat reduced." She said, I could see her leaning slightly closer to the table while clenching her fists, "If you are serious about Mr. Shiloh, you can do the marking and free him from this interference forever. That will greatly help Mr. Shiloh recover faster."

After saying that she left the room where we were talking, she went to another room and started the session with that artificial Alpha pheromone smell. I had to come into the room and spread my pheromones so that Shiloh wouldn’t have a seizure, but even my body couldn’t move.

I forced myself to get up and leave the room to go to another room that had been designed for Shiloh’s therapy session, I stood between the metal dividers in the room. I was also trying to control my pheromones, a little at a time I was able to do so even though I struggled at first.

Alpha dominants can hide their own pheromone and that’s what I’m learning again.

Elina sprayed that Alpha pheromone fragrance, Shiloh removed the face cover and started to react. I could see how beads of sweat came out so big, he bit his lip and his face slowly paled, I could see he was trembling. I couldn’t think straight immediately I ran over, opened our dividing door and hugged him tightly. I released a lot of my pheromones before he lost consciousness.

What Elina said ringing in my head.

"If you are serious about Mr. Shiloh, you can do the marking and free him from this interference forever. That will greatly help Mr. Shiloh recover faster."

I don’t want to see this happen again, the seizure and fainting that happened to him because of the scent of another Alpha’s pheromones is painful for me. Don’t I want to give him a better life?

But then another thought popped into my head. To be honest, I was afraid that Shiloh would refuse to let me mark him. I mean, I know he likes me too, our feelings are the same. But is living with me what he wants?

After Gil’s arrest and everything is over, does he still want to be with me?

Those thoughts were swarming in my head like ants swarming some candies, I couldn’t even remember how I carried Shiloh out of that room and going to my room. I could hear Elina and the maids calling out to me, trying to stop me, but I locked the room, hugging Shiloh so deeply, my fear of losing him rising again. Ah, no, I wasn’t having a panic attack.

I was having trouble breathing not because of the attack, my body was heating up, I could feel Shiloh’s pheromone scent changing. A scent that we knew what it signaled. I kissed his cheeks, I kissed every curve of his body, he moaned. His body heated up, his face flushed.

Ah shit.