DESTINED MATE : SWEET ALPHA PHEROMONE
Chapter 53

Chapter 53: Chapter 53

I opened my eyes and found a room I didn’t recognize for the umpteenth time. The same thing repeating itself, why am I always in this position? How many times have I woken up and had no idea where I was? My eyes were stinging, my whole body felt so painful and I couldn’t move freely, everything felt so stiff. When I turned my head there was the person I saw before. Yes, Gruvv’s Omega father. The man was asleep on the sofa, his large body covered by a blanket that didn’t manage to cover his entire body.

Our eyes met when he finally woke up, he blinked a few times before finally rushing out and bringing a doctor inside. His eyes looked so worried that was not much different from Gruvv’s.

The doctor examined me with the nurse, he talked to Gruvv’s father and then left the room. The big tall man approached me slowly and showed a big smile, he introduced himself as Ian.

Ian said, I’ve already passed a crucial time but I didn’t wake up until two weeks ago. Doctors are already trying to find out what’s going on. So seeing me now awake, he said that he was relieved. He didn’t say anything other than I had to do therapy after I woke up.

I felt like I was back to square one. When Gruvv saved me back then, I had also fallen asleep for so long and my recovery had taken a long time, and now I was repeating myself. After waking up from that long sleep, I wasn’t able to speak normally, and it took three days for my voice to finally return.

A few days later I was surprised because of Joshua’s visit, he still looked creepy from the first time we met, "You cut your hair.." I said while pointing to his hair which now looked so short. He glanced at me and I averted my eyes. I spoke in a whisper, but apparently he heard it clearly because I was also pointing my finger to him. Uh..

That day he came and just kept me company in the room, he ordered food and ate it in the room. He lay down on the sofa and then fell asleep, he woke up and started eating chocolates while offering one to me. I rejected it.

"It won’t make you die, this is the safe one. But, I think you’ll die from diabetes if you eat a lot." He said.

I don’t know if it was a joke or not but I took the chocolate from his hand and put it in the drawer. Joshua came here more often when Ian couldn’t accompany me. A couple of days ago Joshua came with a lot of files, he opened his laptop and looked so busy, I peeked a little, he was working on his paperwork.

His appearance didn’t look like he was serious about studying.

"What about Gruvv?" I asked Ian one evening, when he was just coming back from work.

I wanted to ask this from the first day I opened my eyes and the days after that. But looking at their act, I couldn’t even ask. If Gruvv was fine, that man would have been beside me when I woke up.

Ian took off his glasses, he had just sat on the sofa and taken off his suit when I asked him. He didn’t look surprised.

Is he also waiting for me to ask?

"Gruvv is on another floor of this hospital."

I frowned.

"Why? Is he okay?"

Ian folded his jacket, the more I looked at Ian I thought Gruvv was really like him. The man is big and looks tough yet so gentle, yes, just like Gruvv.

Ian came closer to me.

"I heard, you haven’t experienced HEAT for so long?"

I was surprised to hear that question. I turned my eyes to him, trying to act casual. But I couldn’t, the question shocked me so much that I was sure he could realize it just by looking into my eyes.

"Elina told me..." He said.

I paused for a moment, then nodded slowly. Sooner or later they’ll find out that I haven’t experienced HEAT for so long and there’s a possibility of becoming an Omega Recessive.

"Shiloh, did it happen after you gave birth?"

I shouldn’t be surprised anymore. This family wasn’t just any family, my father had borrowed money from them and they were looking for him. They know me as his guarantor and they must have found out about my background.

But why am I still shaking?

"Shiloh, I’m sorry if I startled you. We didn’t intend to find out about your background, oh no, we did find out about your background but we didn’t know about the details. We found out about this because you lost a lot of blood when you came here, the doctor explained about your medical history." Ian explained to me.

I tried to control my expression, I should have just acted normal. What am I afraid of?

Ian seemed to understand why I was reacting like this. He asked permission to hold my hand, I slowly nodded. When our hands held each other I felt a warmth that made me so comfortable.

"I have a son, his name is Seth." I started talking, even though my sentence was stopped several times because it was stuck in my throat. But the warmth could make me tell everything.

I couldn’t look him in the eyes and I even kept my head down when I told him about this, I didn’t know what I was afraid of, why I was acting like this. But what I know, I want Gruvv to know it from me. I don’t want him to know from other people.

"So you’re saying..your son...?"

I blinked a few times before raising my head to look at Ian. Our eyes met, I found something there, all the emotions I didn’t recognize.

Oh, the pheromone scent.... He’s... Worried?

"My son...he was taken by the Elnathan family..."

I continued with my story, explaining every detail of what happened. There was nothing to hide, the fact that I was pregnant and gave birth to Seth was true even though it was all from IVF. After all, Seth is my son, my baby.

My desire to have Seth for myself was getting bigger every day, but I understood that even if I had an income and had a better life that child would never come back to me. After all, the signature on the agreement was mine even if my father forged it.

"I’ll never be able to see him again, nor will he ever recognize me. That’s how it was for me after my mom left and I stayed with my dad." I said.

Suddenly I was brought into a warm and tight hug, an embrace that made the tears I had been holding back come out unexpectedly. Starting from a trickle, I sobbed and then began to roar. I cried in Ian’s arms, a loud cry, the pain in my chest came out along with the cry. The tears that I had been holding back for several years were finally released.

This was what I needed all along, a hug that strengthened me, a hug that understood that I needed it. All the pain I went through after mom left made me unable to vent my emotions even if I wanted to. Dad always disliked it when I cried, he thinked I was too weak when I cried.

I was weak, I couldn’t withstand all the treatment he gave me. If he was going to make me like this, why did he make me act like a prince in the house when mother was still alive? Why did he give me a life that I thought would last forever? When everything disappeared, he sold me and made me part of his money-making machine.

He used me and didn’t think about how it all affected me, he locked me up and made me almost take my own life, even when he found me in such a state he scolded me, he called me stupid and all the swear words I had never even heard before.

He didn’t want to understand and didn’t want to know why I was doing that, he was destroying my life that had just reached adulthood. He cut me off from social relationships and got angry when I spoke with a stammer, everything he did badly to me, came back to me if I made a mistake.

I, who was used to suppressing all those emotions, was brought by Gruvv to a place where people could accept me well even though I knew maybe they were forced to do that just because of Gruvv. But, I don’t want to think further or even feel disappointed. Because I need it.

Ah, if the day I hung myself from the ceiling had happened, I would never have found this warmth. The warmth that I had been looking for but couldn’t find anywhere. The warmth that I longed for, the pheromones that smelled soothing.

Mom, I miss you.