DESTINED MATE : SWEET ALPHA PHEROMONE
Chapter 22

Chapter 22: Chapter 22

I think I was too comfortable with Gruvv, living with him for almost four months made me forget that I was not accepted by anyone in this world. From the moment Gruvv saved me and then took care of me to find my father, I almost forgot that this was only for him.

Although sometimes the thought crossed my mind and Gruvv always assured me that he would pay me for helping him in his therapy. However I myself don’t know if it helps him, he still can’t control his pheromones until now.

The fact Joshua came yesterday made me realize and start thinking what I should do for Gruvv. I’m sure his family is not happy with me being here wandering around like nothing happened, after all my father ran away with their money.

"Mr. Shiloh?" The psychiatrist’s voice in front of me woke me up while I daydreaming.

The woman was a Beta, she was one of the people doctor Edward had recommended for me. I heard that Gruvv asked for an Omega so that I wouldn’t react badly, but Doctor Edward replaced it with a Beta so that it wouldn’t have any bad effect on Gruvv as well.

"Ah, sorry, where was I?"

The woman named Elina smiled slightly, "Did the medicine from doctor Andrew have any effect on you?"

I nodded slowly, "The depressant doctor Andrew gave me surely help."

Elina scribbled something in the book she was holding.

"So, how about starts telling me your own story?" She asked in a low, soft voice.

I stroked my arms and the back of my neck, I was getting a little nervous when it came to telling what I had been through. Aside from the fact that the memories were painful, I was afraid that my story would make other people uncomfortable.

My story life wasn’t that beautiful after mom died. I was completely get used by my father for money, I don’t know what my father did all this time, but the money he got from selling me always ran out so he ended up selling me to Madam Rose.

After that I don’t even know if he was alive or not. But seeing the Dhurudatta family hunting him down, I’m sure he’s alive somewhere.

"So I can conclude the pheromone disorder that triggered the seizure and panic attack was due to what happened during the brothel." She said while jotting down something in her book again.

I nodded, "Is that called, trauma?" I asked curiously.

"That’s right, what happened to Mr. Shiloh at the brothel left a bad memory so the trauma appeared. Seeing you trembling while telling me this I’m sure the trauma is still quite lingering." She said while pointing at my hand which was shaking.

I picked up the glass on the table and downed it.

"Then, is there a reason why I can only smell Gruvv’s pheromones?" I asked after finishing the water in the glass.

Elina flipped her notes to another sheet, she tilted her head slightly and fiddled with the pen in her hand before answering, "There are several reasons. But there are only two reasons that sound makes sense. Like, because your body thinks that Mr. Dhurudatta is your ’savior’. Or because he is your destined mate."

I frowned, not understanding what Elina was saying, "A destined mate?"

She nodded and smiled widely, "Only one percent in the world, Omega and Alpha become a destined mate. Even if they are far away, they will find each other. Their seeking instinct to find their mate is so strong especially since they can smell each other."

I couldn’t respond to anything, my head was still trying to get it Elina’s explanation about this destined mate things.

"Can you smell any other scent of Mr. Dhurudatta’s pheromones?"

I turned to her, "Other scents?"

"Like fruits or floral scents?"

My body shuddered at her question.

"I-is that one of the signs of a destined mate?"

"That’s right, both of them can smell things that other Omegas or Alphas can’t smell. Usually the scent is sweet like fruits and fresh like the scent of flowers."

Elina’s explanation left me speechless. For some reason an uncomfortable feeling spread inside my chest, there was a feeling of guilt towards Gruvv if indeed I am the destined mate for him. I was incompetent as a partner. What’s more, I was already so filthy.

But, I never heard Gruvv say anything about my pheromones. That meant there was a possibility that I was the only one who could smell his sweet pheromones. Right, it’s not that we’re a destined mate anyway.

"What about HEAT? Has Mr. Shiloh been getting it lately?" Elina asked again, I returned my attention to her after monologuing inside my own head.

I shook my head, I never got HEAT again after my father did something to me back then. Something that made me feel like I was losing my world. Again, that thing left me with big trauma.

"How long has it been?"

I paused, "Almost three years."

Elina gasped at my answer, she excused herself to call Andrew. She said she would come back for another session after confirming something, I agreed to that and then went back to my own room.

The session with Elina was just questioning, answering and storytelling, but it felt so exhausting. I laid my body down on the bed. By the way, since Joshua’s arrival, the house has also been filled with many guards. Gruvv asked his secretary to hire a lot of guards at home.

Because some of them are an Alpha sometimes I can’t go out freely. I wanted to get used to the pheromones as soon as possible, even ordinary Alpha pheromones could make me have a panic attack.

I coughed again and the flower petals were still coming out from inside my mouth, my cough didn’t just go away even though doctor Andrew gave a good medicine. It’s just that my coughing to be less frequent and it’s not just me throwing up flower petals.

I wiped my mouth after coughing a few times, collected the petals and wrapped them in a tissue before throwing them in the trash.

"What made you have this disease?" Doctor Andrew asked me when he last came to check on me.

I’m playing with my fingertips, feeling nervous just to answer. I knew he was asking out of therapeutic necessity.

"I got this disease after breaking up with my ex-boyfriend."

Doctor Andrew looked at me, "Didn’t that happen a long time ago? You know this disease arises from unrequited love, deep longing and loss. You will only kill yourself if you continue to hold those feelings." He said.

I know. The petals was like a warning for me to stop the feeling and moving on. But, something prevented me. What father did three years ago made me unable to let go of this feeling, this sense of unrequited love, this sense of longing and loss I increasingly wanted to hold tightly and kill me.

If I have to die, I just want to die from this disease. It’s like my own punishment.

I got out of bed.

I can’t stay at my room alone, my head gets noisy when I’m alone and not doing anything. I picked up a book from the nightstand, today I’ll probably read one book and take a nap. It’s still 2PM, I’m going to rest for a while.