A Love Reborn: Finding Romance Twice In One Lifetime
Chapter 219: I AM SORRY

Chapter 219: Chapter 219: I AM SORRY

"I know that this might seem as if I am making excuses or trying to cheat you out of something but being totally honest, I never stopped thinking about you!" with a wry smile on his face, Orson continued with his confession, taking a few more steps towards her and Calista remained rooted on the spot, dazed by what was happening.

Hayes, watching the whole thing, narrowed his eyes. In his mind, a great dilemma. Should he stop Orson from his confession or just watch?

Calista came to be when Orson’s hands were holding hers. They felt rough to the touch. She was quite shocked by how much they had changed in the months that they had been apart.

Just what did he go through to suffer like that?

"I am not a good person, Calista. I never claim that I was and one thing is for sure, I will never be a good person. But for the people that I love, I can be that good person. At the same time for them, I can be as ruthless if it means getting what I want.

What I did was wrong, and I shouldn’t have messed with your feelings. I should have come clean from the start, but for the first time in my life, I was afraid. If I came clean, how were you going to respond?

I didn’t know you, at that time judging from what happened when we first met ....." he didn’t finish that part as he looked at her.

Calista’s mind also thought of what she did when she saw him lying bleeding against the shield. She liked his face and wanted to take him as hers. However, his face bothered her so much, she slashed it without flinching. She only treated it after he was with her for a while and made it look like she was doing him a favor.

If he was awake at that time, and knew what had happened, if it was her, she wouldn’t come clean as well.

What if she gets killed?

Calista smiled wryly as she listened to that. The hands which were being held no longer struggled.

Hayes, on the other side, was even more curious. What truly happened between the two for Calista to react in that manner? Did she do something hilarious and unspeakable?

Thinking about the memories and moments these two shared, whether good or bad, he felt envious.

"That really scared me. I knew that any silly action would not bring me any results. Besides, I knew that whatever I wanted was from you and from the second you used that medicine, I knew that I came to the right person.

But if I were to tell you that I wanted the medicine and then leave, would you have given it to me?

For the girls, I was willing to be as ruthless as I could be, even if it meant ripping your heart apart. I don’t want to defend myself or something, but it really pained me so much to leave you. When I left, I didn’t dare write a letter. I was afraid that you might track me or I might waver.

If I wavered, then what about the girls? I might be ruthless, but my daughters are innocent and so are you. When I returned, I thought to myself, as long as I forget, then everything would be okay, but I never expected that fate was going to play a cruel joke on me.

When I heard that, I would be returning to your side, all sorts of mixed emotions filled me. Nervousness, anxiety, guilt, happiness and relief.

I was nervous and afraid of how you were going to view me when you saw me. I felt guilty because I knew I had to be shameless towards you if I wanted to save the girls, and relieved that it was you who could do that.

I could see you again, solve all my lingering emotions, and come clean to you. With me appearing with the girls, even if I didn’t want to confess, I would be forced to do as well. If you could accept me and the girls, as well as my background, then we could be a big family.

However, I never expected to hear the news that you had annulled our marriage and you were pregnant. I never doubted your loyalty when I heard of the pregnancy. I knew right then that the child was mine. I was so thrilled. Not only for myself but for you.

I knew how much you wanted to have a child of your own, and being able to be part of that made me feel like I had done at least one thing right with you.

However, the anger I felt when I heard that you annulled our marriage was that high. I wondered if the moments we spent together, regardless of how we started, meant less to you.

Even though I understood the reason why you did so, it still hurt me as a man. My pride just couldn’t accept it and when I learnt that you were with Hayes, I just couldn’t contain it!" he confessed, as he looked at Hayes with a complicated gaze at the thought of the crazy thoughts he had back then.

At that time, he didn’t know that the two weren’t intimate in that way but more of siblings. He simply thought that she had moved on so fast, despite carrying his child. How could she be so fickle?

As a result, when he arrived, the anger hadn’t vanished yet, and he just had to come across Hayes being intimate with Calista in public. How could he accept that?

In the end, they quarreled, and his thoughts were jumbled.

"It took me until recently to fully understand what was at stake and how wrong I was in this matter. I might have wanted to blame you for everything, but if I didn’t want that, I would have taken what I wanted and left.

However, for the first time, ever since Mia died, it was the first time that I felt such strong emotions and desire for another woman.

From day one, I knew you were special to me and it made me feel scared. I was afraid to forget the girls and Mia, who had done so much for me. So, I became a bit selfish. And I later got punished for that!" he sighed heavily as he looked at her.