A Crazy Love Proposal
Chapter 249 - 249 132 Crossing Boundaries to Show Love -

Chapter 249: Chapter 132 Crossing Boundaries to Show Love – Part 2 Chapter 249: Chapter 132 Crossing Boundaries to Show Love – Part 2 She looked at the man who had been whispering sweet nothings to her just a short time ago, unable to believe her eyes.

She had only exaggerated her words on purpose to hear the answer, forcing him to reveal his true thoughts, never expecting him to respond without hesitation.

The cool night breeze made her feel like a butterfly with a lifespan of just one month, which after that time would no longer be able to flap its wings. The beautiful flight had its limit, and once the time was up, it was time to wake up from the beautiful dream.

Her voice was trembling:

“Why can Zhou Fei, and not I?”

He finally looked at her steadily, his eyes unfathomably deep, “Because I truly love you and do not love her.”

She felt as if she had stepped into an abyss, her tears seeming to have nowhere to land, “What kind of logic is that? Isn’t marriage about two people in love being together? Why can you marry someone you don’t love but not me?”

Faced with her tears, for the first time, he did not come forward to comfort her, the interval between his breaths seeming to bring pain.

He finally gave the reason, “I can bear her betraying me, but I can’t bear you betraying me.”

She challenged, “How can you be so sure that I would betray you?”

He merely looked at her in the wind, “Perhaps it’s not betrayal. I’ve tried, but I realized that even the slightest lack of devotion I cannot accept. I probably can no longer accept intimate relationships. There can’t be another person in the world I care about excessively, especially my wife.”

The tears in her eyes brimmed, “Why can’t you try with me before saying these things?”

Why wasn’t her ample love enough for him to marry her, why did he assume she would definitely betray him?

Looking at her face, he knew that although he had been honest, she had not truly understood his meaning.

His gaze dropped for an instant, a lucid gleam crossing the depths of his eyes, as he helplessly told her the truth:

“If you must hear it, I’ll tell you, I have rigid boundary disorder.”

The moment his voice reached her ears, she did not react.

But in just a short moment, Yun Yuwan, who had read countless psychology and social science books to heal herself, froze in place.

She felt as if she had plunged into hell, staring incredulously at Wen Yangzhi under the shifting light.

Rigid boundary disorder.

In an instant, she understood why he lived alone in Jing Building, why he was distant from his parents, why he always spoke in halves, never opening up to people.

The barrier she thought she had crossed had never truly been surmounted.

A single tear of confusion and panic fell from her eyes.

Wen Yangzhi knew it would be this way, and he smiled bitterly in self-mockery, “Now that I’ve told you, you should understand. I do love you, indeed, but what you want, I most likely can’t provide.”

Yun Yuwan suddenly understood all the points that had been incomprehensible before.

No wonder he, at twenty-eight years old, had never been in any relationship other than with her.

He said he didn’t have the time, but in reality, he didn’t have the capacity to love.

She thought she had crossed the clear line to chase after him.

In fact, it was he who grudgingly endured the boundary crossing, accepting her love.

Yun Yuwan found herself unable to voice the tumultuous emotions of this moment.

Desperately wanting to marry him, but he couldn’t do it.

He might even be unable to consider marrying her in a few years’ time.

Every time she encountered a boundary, he must have felt a burning pain, and yet, she was an NPD with no sense of boundaries.

She smiled bitterly, tears streaming down: “No wonder you started off so passionate and proactive three months ago, and now you’re becoming more and more hot and cold. I thought it was my problem.”

Boundary disorder is a psychological barrier built by oneself after suffering too many betrayals from those closest to them.

Once aware that those close to them will hurt and betray them, they begin to become extremely detached, hiding any affection even for someone they like, and even distancing themselves, building high boundaries to isolate themselves from others.

The colder they act towards someone, the more it proves that their love for that person is deepening.

Scared of falling in, they push their lovers away in this way, afraid of becoming dependent and getting hurt in the future.

He felt that he was falling deeper, that’s why he wasn’t as passionate as he was in the beginning.

His long eyelashes lowered, and the light slid down the bridge of his nose, as if he had no anchor to grasp: “It’s my problem.”

But she suddenly understood, tears falling on her collar: “Do you know I have NPD?”

The corners of his mouth turned bitter, and the wind slightly lifted his ink-black hair: “I know.”

Of course, he would know.

Two people, each with hidden traumas, it was almost like laying all their cards out in front of each other.

Once he mentioned rigid boundary disorder, she knew what it was.

Yun Yuwan’s tears blurred her vision: “Do you think that I can’t stay in a relationship for more than three months, so it doesn’t matter much if you accept me, since we won’t end up together anyway?”

He hadn’t lied at all; at this point, there was no need to lie to her anymore: “In the beginning, yes.”

With tears, she questioned: “And now? I want to get married, I want to be with you, I don’t want us to last just three months.”

His thin lips parted slightly, his deep voice like sharp arrows: “Stay as my girlfriend forever, I won’t have anyone else, or we could get married, but with our personalities, we would gradually stop being lovers.”

She couldn’t accept it, and her tears fell unchecked: “Then why did you quit smoking?”

She thought he wanted to marry her.

Wen Yangzhi’s wide eyes were like the deep ocean: “If that is your wish, even without marriage, we can still have children.”

But this wasn’t what she wanted, and she couldn’t help but retort: “So, an illegitimate child without legal or social recognition? You clearly know how much I long for a family, I have never had one.”

Wen Yangzhi’s eyes were slightly red: “That’s why I said, once I speak out, there would be no going back.”

Yun Yuwan finally realized that what had stood between them for six years was never the distance; it was that no matter how much he loved her, he would never take that step.

The United States and Europe are far apart, but a flight of just over a dozen hours can bring them together; distance was never the reason.

The Raven and the Bai Xian, one thrives in high-latitude inland, the other in subtropical marine forests, are species of different habitats. They might fly over rugged mountains, but not over the lengthy days and years; no matter how they love each other, they can’t live together, they would only hurt each other.

Black, white, divided, clear.

It turns out it had always been black and white, never blending.

The Raven and the Bai Xian, one black and one white, with borders so clear, they can’t even blend into each other.

Even in the Night, that is best for melding together, they can’t merge into one.

It turns out there really was an incompatibility of personalities, to be considered carefully.

Not a single word he told her was a lie, yet she thought she was misjudging their true feelings.