Yarra’s Adventure Notes
Chapter 1512 - 298 This Is the Last Time

Chapter 1512: Chapter 298 This Is the Last Time

"Is this your wish now?" Pannis listened silently to Nellie’s relentless discourse until she finally fell silent, staring at him without uttering another word, only then did he bitterly say, "Over a century has passed, yet you haven’t changed at all. No matter when or where, you only think of others. For others, as long as you think it’s right, you’re willing to sacrifice not just your own interests, but even your life. Ever since I first met you, I had a premonition that a fool like you would eventually lose your life over someone else’s issues."

"The first time we met, you were actually stealing my food, not what you’re saying now." Unfortunately, the knight’s attempt to lighten the mood failed. Seeing that Pannis’s expression hadn’t changed, she could only sheepishly smile, and said softly, "Kyle, you don’t need to say that about me, because actually we’re the same kind of people; otherwise, we wouldn’t have ended up together. Do you really think you wouldn’t have done the same?"

"Of course it’s different. I’m fake, you’re real," Pannis shook his head, "I forced myself to become this type of person to make myself perfect, but you’re different. You are inherently like this. What you do comes completely from your heart."

"Do you really think that?" Nellie asked with a laugh, "Self-deception isn’t a good habit, Kyle. Or do you think you can fool my eyes? Sure, you used to forcibly believe you were a perfect saint and forcibly change your own cognition, bringing about many hidden problems, but that definitely didn’t include this point. Admit it, you are inherently no different from me. Faced with someone needing help, even if I rush forward first, you would undoubtedly be the second one up, and even over those hundred years, you haven’t changed in this respect at all. You’re still that Kyle who would risk everything for others’ lives, still the man I deeply love. Otherwise, you wouldn’t be here now, right? After all, back then you didn’t know the person controlling this body was me. You’d rather kill my body yourself, and what for? Ultimately, wasn’t it for the safety of the whole world, for the people you have no connection with? So, if our positions were reversed, you’d want me to do the same, wouldn’t you?"

"Discussing this now is pointless, just a mere waste of time." Pannis, taken aback by Nellie’s words, then spoke in frustration, "Yes, if it were me, maybe I’d hope you’d do the same, but that’s another matter. Moreover, my presence here isn’t for anyone else’s safety. I came to fulfill your final wish, to help you resolve a problem you can no longer solve. No, that’s not what I mean, what I mean is..."

"Heh, you’re right though; this is my final wish, conveniently needing you to help me solve it." Seeing her lover perturbed for her safety to the point of losing his usual calm, a wave of emotion rose in Nellie’s heart. Though she was supposed to feel sad, she couldn’t help but smile warmly, caressing Pannis’s face, "Don’t be like that, Kyle. It’s just death, there’s nothing to be afraid of. After all these years, I’ve long been prepared to face it. Both life and death are phases every soul inevitably goes through, moments every one of us must face no matter how reluctant. And actually, our time of departure came a hundred years ago, so being able to reunite today is already the luckiest thing in the world. Being too greedy isn’t a good habit, my dear. Do you really want to extend this luck further?"

"Can’t I?" Pannis held Nellie’s hand, which was caressing his face. In his own realm, he had wanted countless times to hold these hands, yet he could only grasp at air. Now that he could finally hold them again, his heart was filled with anguish and repression, even more so than every time he had grasped at nothing in his realm. Pannis clenched his teeth tightly, greedily savoring the warmth from her palm, and moaned, "I know, being able to see you again is already the greatest grace from Lord Yarra, but I don’t want to leave you, no matter what."

"But that’s just a wishful thinking, my dear." Nellie responded, "Even if you’re reluctant, even if you bet the whole world to keep me going under Danacus’s shadow, what good would it do? Let me hold on for ten more days? A month? Or a year? When Danacus fully awakens, we still have to face the separation. To exchange these brief moments for the future of the entire world, do you also think it doesn’t matter?" Nellie countered, "Sure, you can stay by my side until I can no longer suppress Danacus, until I lose control of my body, until there is no more hope, and then kill me, but have you thought about this? If you can’t make your move now, will you suddenly be able to later? Now I control the body, I give you the time to hesitate, but would Danacus give you this time? I don’t think so."

"Facing you and facing Danacus are naturally different," Pannis closed his eyes, refusing to look into Nellie’s eyes, and said weakly, "Facing Danacus is for avenging you, but what does facing you count as?"

"It counts as indulging my capricious demands." Nellie said with a smile, "During the years we were together, I always made some capricious demands, and didn’t you still indulge them every time? Hehe, it’s the same this time, and I promise, this will be the last time."

"You always say that." The familiar dialogue slipped out subconsciously, yet dazed Pannis once more. Thinking about it, if he indulged his lover’s whims, this would indeed be the last time; the ecstasy of having retrieved what was once lost and then the shadow of losing it again nearly suffocated Pannis. For a fleeting moment, he wished he had never seen through Nellie’s plan; perhaps then it would have been easier on his heart. Of course, this thought merely flickered through his mind before Pannis thoroughly discarded it. Having the opportunity to reunite was the greatest happiness for both Nellie and himself, even if this happiness was so fleeting, it was worth exchanging for endless pain.

"Hehe, I didn’t lie to you this time, right? It truly is the last time," Nellie teased with a playful laugh, hard to imagine she could still smile so brightly facing death. "Also, in a way, killing me doesn’t signify a separation."