Why must the devil be Defeated?
Chapter 392: I am Lilith.

Chapter 392: I am Lilith.

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This was a domain no one could reach.

This was a world no one could enter.

In this domain, this world, only Jade wandered alone like a soul body.

For this was inside Evil God Lilith, the interior of the Goddess, the depth of consciousness, or perhaps it could be said to be the "soul" itself.

And here, Jade felt herself becoming increasingly hazy, her very existence extremely unstable.

"I’m dissolving."

"I’m collapsing."

"I’m vanishing."

"I can’t hold on any longer."

Despite not feeling any discomfort, thoughts like these continuously surfaced in Jade’s mind, making it clear how dire her state was.

It was like being immersed in poison but having lost the sense of pain, not only making it not okay but even more dangerous.

This was what Jade was feeling now.

Beneath this sensation, Jade started to trace back through her memories.

She couldn’t speak.

Nor was she considered mature.

Even though she had lived for nearly ten thousand years, in terms of personality and rationality, Jade had grown, but in a somewhat troubling direction.

She wanted to enhance her reason, to strengthen her personality power to combat the repulsion of her main body. But the chaotic attributes ruled by the main body continued to suppress Jade’s personality and rational growth, causing her rationality and even her intelligence to develop in a slightly peculiar direction.

In certain domains, she was knowledgeable and understanding, appearing more worldly and experienced than an old man who has lived for a century, truly transcendental.

But in other areas, she was half-understood or utterly ignorant, worse than a child.

Such a contradictory and distorted ideology had persisted for nearly ten thousand years. It sometimes made Jade anxious, sometimes on the brink of collapse, pushing her to her limits.

She didn’t know how to blame the heavens or others, didn’t know how to complain about why fate treated her this way; therefore, to relieve this anxiety and sense of collapse, she ceaselessly wandered and wandered and wandered.

In Jade’s memory, that was all there was.

After all, from the moment of her birth as a rational half body, she was excluded from her main body. Soon after the main body caused a great disaster and got sealed, her incredibly long journey of wandering began.

During this journey, she encountered those who pitied her and took her in.

During this journey, she also met those with malicious intent, wanting to do something to her.

She tried to live with the former but found they had their own families, their own daily life, with no place for her, and even basic communication was a problem, leading to great barriers; hence, she eventually chose to leave.

She was also carried away by the latter, sold as merchandise. Even when they intended unspeakable acts upon her, she did not choose to resist. Luckily, no matter what, she was the ruler of darkness and chaos. Even as a powerless rational half body, those filled with dark and evil negative emotions that touched her, even planning to harm her, in the end, all fell into madness and died on the spot.

For nearly ten thousand years, this was how Jade had lived—either being accepted then feeling alienated and leaving or attracting those evil beings, leading them to their death.

So, from beginning to end, Jade was always alone.

People called her "the Resentful Spirit seeking happiness," but in truth, she didn’t even know what "happiness" was.

She didn’t even know what "misfortune" was.

Otherwise, when the Old Demon Clan Faction destroyed a spatial node and invaded the Sacred Temple of the present world, taking her away, she wouldn’t have resisted.

That incident, for Jade, was just another insignificant experience in her endless journey.

The only difference was that since someone had set their sights on releasing her main body from the sealing, Jade had an idea at that moment.

That was, to take this journey as a final endpoint.

She no longer wanted to continue like this.

She no longer wanted to wander like this.

Thus, even knowing that the end result would likely be annihilation, she prepared to return to her main body after this opportunity.

Until she met That Person.

"Hello there."

Those were the first words he said when he saw her.

Utterly ordinary, utterly mundane, a greeting without any highlights or uniqueness.

At that time, Jade did not feel she would be greatly entangled with him.

Just another like those from the past, who met her, became involved with her, and in the end, either she would leave on her own, or they would die suddenly, like those before. That was all.

But for some reason, his gaze at that moment left a deep impression on Jade.

It was as if looking at a huge problem, not wanting to make contact, but his body and heart acted against his will, compelling him to engage, filled with conflict.

That gaze caught Jade’s attention.

Previously, those who met Jade either looked upon her with sympathy and pity or with desire and darkness. She had never before seen such a peculiar person.

Because she was curious about that gaze, that night, Jade snuck into his blanket, wanting to take a good look at those eyes. However, his embrace was so reassuring that she inadvertently fell asleep.

Jade did not understand why she felt warmth and safety from him.

She was also unaware that Shane carried the Blessing of the Supreme God. Otherwise, she might have understood that it was because Shane, carrying the essence of the Mother of the Divine Race, made her, also of the Divine Race, feel the security of being in her parents’ arms.

And what truly changed Jade’s state of mind was the event that occurred on the second day.

"Little one, do you want to go with me?"

When That Person looked straight at her and uttered such a sentence, Jade felt quite incredulous.

It wasn’t because no one had ever said this to her before.

In the past, those who had taken her in, who had adopted her, had said these words.

But their gazes were entirely different from That Person’s gaze.

Those who had planned to take her in and adopt her in the past only saw her as an abandoned child of unknown origin, out of pity, compassion, and affection, they had planned to incorporate her into their lives.

But This Person was different.

This Person’s gaze was not about taking her to his side; instead, he planned to enter her world, to get involved in her life, her existence.

They were two completely different matters.

The former meant abandoning one’s past to live with them, but Jade couldn’t do that, which is why she left.

The latter, however, meant confronting her own problems, where the other person would intervene and interfere, facing them together with her.

Particularly, the emotions that occasionally surfaced in the other person as if looking at someone who shared a mutual plight deeply touched Jade in a way she hadn’t felt with others she had met before.

Maybe even That Person didn’t realize they had shown such emotions?

So, at that moment, Jade nodded.

It wasn’t a choice made by drifting along with the current, but for the first time in history, based on her own thoughts, faithful to her heart, she made that nod.

From that moment, everything was destined to be changed.

Later, Jade discovered that he was the Hero, he possessed the Holy Sword, not only capable of helping her break the Sealing, returning to her true form but also able to weaken her true form’s power, increasing her chances of returning.

"Don’t worry, I will help you."

That Person was clearly not someone who would speak such kind words, yet when facing her, he naturally uttered them.

"Don’t forget, it was I who gave you the choice to follow me or not, and I who told you to speak up if you have any problems, claiming I’d help you. Since you’ve made your choice, I will definitely see you through to the end."

For such reasons, That Person recklessly broke the Sealing, or perhaps, knowing the trouble it could cause, still chose to do so, which was impulsive and rash.

But...

"Don’t rush, we still have time, let’s think it over slowly, what we should do."

"Is that okay?"

Those words at that moment astonishingly soothed the restlessness and the impending collapse in Jade’s heart, giving rise to a thought in her still incomplete rationality.

That was, she shouldn’t just give up and charge towards death.

Indeed.

Before this, Jade’s concept of returning was nothing more than giving up on herself.

What she pursued was not success but the intent to end everything.

That is to say, in the end, whether she succeeded or failed didn’t matter to her.

She merely didn’t want to continue on like this.

Only then did Jade for the first time entertain the notion of wanting success.

Even if the hope was still faint, for the very nature of the existence of the Evil God Lillith to acquire the necessary rationality and intellect was an exceedingly difficult and problematic task. Yet, Jade still wanted to give it her all.

If she failed, then so be it.

But if she succeeded, this time, she would thoroughly remove the barriers she had felt before, enter into someone else’s life, and allow her rationality to genuinely grow.

Of course, right now, Jade only wanted to enter one person’s life.

And that was him—

"My name is Shane, what’s yours?"

This was also what That Person had said when they first met.

At that time, her response was—"Jade".

But this time, she wanted to answer like this.

"I am Lillith."

"Returned from darkness, born from chaos, with the Hero’s help, successfully attaining reason."

"Evil God?"

"No, not at all."

"I am a Goddess, Goddess Lillith."

And so, the girl’s wavering, fragile soul body, as if on the verge of collapse at any moment, quickly stabilized.

...

"Rumble rumble..."

This was the roar of the sky.

This was the tremble of the earth.

Above Cosmos, that bright light source, a dazzling brilliance like sunlight penetrating the darkness, pierced through, illuminating the surroundings.