The Ger's Contract Marriage [BL]
Chapter 389: But, What? How?

Chapter 389: But, What? How?

Even if they couldn’t get along like they do now, they couldn’t become enemies. Would his heart let him become enemies with the other man? It was unlikely, he really did like Xu Hu Zhe a lot.

Too much.

There were also Da Long and Xiao Long to consider. Xu Zeng wanted as many good things and people for his nephews.

Xu Hu Zhe was a good person, and he was very loving when it came to the two eggs. Plus, he was sure he couldn’t start and run the successful business that Xu Feng wanted without the snake in front of him.

When did Xu Hu Zhe become a snake? Right then and there!

Maybe it wasn’t a fair assumption, but Xu Zeng believed only a snake could be so sneaky. Returning all his affection, but at the same time able to reject him so clearly. He wouldn’t even admit their kisses made him feel good!

A certain silver haired man seemed to forget he wasn’t even aware of said ’feelings’ until a few heartbeats ago—Not even an hour ago. His short term memory loss was growing very strong.

"Bai Mo said he would come over for dinner and the two cubs should awaken soon." Xu Zeng said with an even tone.

He’d spouted some bitter words in his mind about snakes, and even dragged Xuan Yang in the mud for teaching Xu Hu Zhe incorrectly, but in his words, he would be as civil as possible.

There was no space for anything else in their lives right now. They had both had gone through so much—no it went beyond the two of them. And even if he was feeling bad, Xu Zeng wasn’t a confrontational person.

He stood up in a clean motion, his long legs only a little numb and tingly from all it had been through recently. Instead of the invisible dust that he would normally dust off in a moment like this, Xu Zeng had hay and dirt from the stable and water barrel vicinity to dust off.

Xu Hu Zhe watched the silver haired man in front of him rise with shaky legs and a straight, almost impassive face. The face he was making wasn’t at Xuan Yang or even Xuan Jian’s level of unreadable.

Even Xu Feng’s ’young mistress face’ was more unreadable.

Was it because they had shared a few intimate moments together or because Xu Zeng was clearly upset? Was that why he could see the small pout in the façade of calm indifference?

Maybe it was because they did spend a large amount of time together in the last two months. Or it could be because he spent so much time looking at Xu Zeng’s face.

Xu Hu Zhe was confused, and he likely wasn’t going to figure everything out in this single moment. Still, he slowly came back to life, like a robot who’s on button had been switched on.

His body seemed to creak as he flexed his joints, the used blue cloth clenched in his hands. "I—" He began, but was quickly cut off by Xu Zeng.

"I’m very sorry for pushing my feelings on you. I will keep them in check in the future, and I will not start any inappropriate touching again." All of a sudden, he smiled. It wasn’t a fake smile, but the look in his eyes made Xu Hu Zhe frown.

It was hollow, but not uncommon.

Xu Zeng took his mind on a journey to distract him from this moment. He thought of the silly little Si Gou who was with his brothers and sisters in Budding Courtyard guarding the napping children.

He did like animals a bit. He had never ever owned a village mutt when he lived in Sun Village, and now Xu Feng had married so well. In only a few months, their life in this world had been changed irrevocably.

It was all good things.

He would spend some time with Si Gou. The puppy was another gift his brother gave him without knowing.

When Bai Mo came over, there would be more people to interact with, so he could keep his mind busy. They could talk more about the strange words Xu Feng had taught Bia Mo. This was Xu Zeng’s favorite thing to do with the ger from the Bai Mansion.

He had so many funny stories to share about his brother and Xu Zeng wanted to hear them all, and remember them all.

The sad look in his eyes began to fade and Xu Hu Zhe was even more confused. He started again, "I—," but Xu Zeng cut him off once more.

"I’m not certain if Bai Mo will stay overnight, but afterward I need to have a conversation with Xuan Jian." Xu Zeng clenched his hands involuntarily, and even this small action caught Xu Hu Zhe’s eyes. "I actually came to tell you beforehand, to see if you would accompany me..."

"But, I’ll go with whoever Xuan Jian can spare. It would be best for you to stay and protect Da Long and Xiao Long. I’ll go to Sun Village and return—" It was now Xu Hu Zhe’s turn to interrupt the other man.

"This is only the second time we’ve helped each other out," Even in his urgency, Xu Hu Zhe’s face reddened as he spoke, "I was the one who initiated it. I’m to blame, I’m sorry, but that’s no reason for you to leave our home!"

He wasn’t done, not even a little bit. Xu Hu Zhe felt like fire was coursing through his veins. He’d never been so riled up before, ashamed yes, but this wasn’t shame, it wasn’t just frustration either.

"Sun Village isn’t your home. I see the way you look when you talk about your life there, and now you’re going back to that life because of me?! I’m just an orphan and a slave, someone who is unwanted and unloved.

You and your brother like to see things that aren’t there. How can I be worth so much? How can I be worth anything at all? And we’re both men! How? How?"