Tangled Hearts - The Alpha's Baby Mama
Chapter 99: Office of the Luna...

Chapter 99: Office of the Luna...

Selene POV

This was the longest and most peaceful I’ve slept since I married Noah.

Maybe the thing they say about intimacy putting you in a good mood wasn’t a fallacy after all. Stretching like a cat, I slowly opened my eyes, through my eyelids, I spied a face hovering over me. When I looked properly, it was Noah’s face. His lips were smiling but his green eyes were filled with a desperate vulnerability that seemed to pull me into their depths.

"Hey," He murmured, reaching out to brush a few stray curls from my cheeks and eyes affectionately. "Did you sleep well?"

"Better than ever," I gave him a bright smile and began to stretch languidly again. But Noah caught my hand and brought it to his lips, his lips brushing ever so gently against my knuckles sending a delicious shiver down my spine. I inhaled deeply as I readied myself for a kiss, Last night was the best night I’ve ever had and I didn’t want it to change.

"Selene," he said in a reverent tone, gently caressing my hand as his eyes searched mine "I realized last night that I love you much more than you can ever comprehend even more than I let on. Last night..." he trailed off with a deep inhale "after everything I realized I can’t keep going like this. I can’t keep letting things spiral out of control. I love you and I want to fight for our union because you mean everything to me,".

My breath hitched at the desperateness in his voice as I stared at him, not knowing what to say. He leans in closer, and cradles my face in his hands, staring at me solemnly

"I thought long and hard about it throughout the night and it doesn’t make sense for us to be taking breaks when we’ve only been married for a few months. So, this is me telling you that we cannot separate, Selene... I cannot be limited from having access to you at any time I want and this doesn’t have to do with the intimate part... No!" he shook his head "It has to do with me putting my foot down and fighting for my marriage ... for the woman I love,".

Part of my heart melted at his ardent declaration while the other part wanted to laugh out loud and remind him what happened the last time a man told me these same words. The same man who happened to be his nephew. But this was the Noah that had fallen so hard with me.

The one who had stayed up with me when the girls were ill all night, damping on their hot foreheads to bring their temperature down. The one that in three years of living with him, he made me appreciate myself so much and build my value. Never did he try to make passes at me or make ridiculous demands... The Noah that was kind and attentive...

But the same Noah that had suddenly changed into a monster that takes me against my will. I felt my heart tighten coldly at the way he bared his soul for me to see. I wanted to be swayed for a moment but slowly I shook my head...

Not now... not at this critical point where the plans I’ve been setting in motion for months were about to be actualized. So, I couldn’t be swayed by Noah’s confession. I needed the time apart. Separation was the only excuse I could use to leave the pack house and return as I liked.

"Noah!" I started, my voice catching slightly "You know I care about you and you’ve been nothing more than a wonderful man to both me and the girls but we simply cannot go back to how things were. We cannot manage these pent-up emotions in the bid to save our marriage. We can save our marriage when we stay apart and try to work things out,".

"Don’t be like this, Selene," He sighed "Last night was amazing... the best night I’ve had with you since we married. Don’t you think it’s a sign for us not to go through with this separation things? Believe it or not... the way your body responded against mine and...".

"Sex is not love!" I stopped him mid-sentence cringing at his intentions to describe our night together. "Sex only provides temporary solutions; it will not fix anything and before you get started on if this is about Xavier... like I said earlier. He did ask me to leave you but this has nothing to do with him. After all, it’s not like he lives with us and yet we still had all those bunch of issues,".

Hurt flashed through his eyes but in the next second it was replaced with a stubborn determination "Then we’ll seek help. Counselling, therapy... whatever it takes for this to work but I am not going to be separated from you anymore. Do you realize what you’re asking me to do?" he shook his head, in incredulity "I won’t give up on this, Selene... I love you,".

"Of course, therapy, counselling ... is good and what’s a healing marriage without that but we don’t need to be together. I’ll be around of course...in the pack and all but I need to stay on my own. I don’t want you to...".

"You’re not trying to fight for this, Selene," he bellowed rising from the bed in his naked form. He strode to the robe hanger and fished out a deep blue robe from it, tying it around him and securing the knot firmly before he turned to look at me. "I’m trying to keep us together and you want to stay apart. Does that even make sense?"

"And that’s exactly why I need to stay away from you, Noah," I threw my hands in the air and scrambled to the edge of the bed, sliding down "You cannot always force your wishes on me. since we married, I’ve only done what you wanted and how you wanted it done. Maybe for once in your life, you could listen to me and hear me speaking. You listen but you don’t hear me!" I yelled.

I was getting agitated now and I wasn’t faking it. Although in the grand scheme of things, my emotion towards everything was supposed to be plastic but not with the attitude Noah keeps giving me.

"That’s not true, Selene," he huffed staring at me with disbelief "Everything I’ve tried to do is always with your permission and decision. Fine, mention the times when I forced my opinions on you,".

I scoffed staring at him. Without saying a word, I stalked to the bathroom. I wasn’t in the mood to recount his shortcomings, and neither did I keep scores. He followed me to the bathroom and kept demanding I tell him where and when he forced his decisions on me.

Ignoring him, I picked up my electric toothbrush and turned it on to the highest, loving the way the twirling sound muffled his voice, even though not completely but at least, I didn’t have to put up with his whining.

I was trying to gather my emotions as I brushed my teeth, looking for the best ways to get him to agree to our separation. When I finished brushing, he was standing silently at the doorway, his eyes pleading.

As soon as our gaze met, he came closer and whispered "I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to lose control like that, I swear. I didn’t want this to be an argument but if you can just listen and see things from my perspective. A separation would tear us apart completely... contrary to what people think... separation is as good as divorce and I don’t want that, please... Selene,".

My resolve wavered as I stared into his earnest eyes. Part of me ached to simply throw myself into his arms and drown in his warmth but I knew I couldn’t afford to become derailed, not when I was so close. The fate of my children and women like me rested on my shoulders.

If I keep arguing with him, he’ll keep cornering me and I might blurt out what I have no intention of saying. Reaching up, I cupped his jaw, giving him a tender stare. "Fine, we won’t be separated as agreed previously and I will try to fix this marriage just like you want and also take whatever path that will help us actualize it,".

"Oh, Selene!" he sighed in relief and pulled me into his arms, "I’m so grateful,".

"But..." I pushed away from him, so I’ll gaze will be on each other. "We cannot become intimate again. At least, until we have made more progress," My voice was soft and left no room for argument "I cannot afford to let my judgment become, clouded again,".

A muscled ticked in his jaw but he gave me a solemn nod "It’ll not be easy but I will do what you want. Only, don’t shut me out entirely and please... don’t..." he swallowed hard as if the words were heavy for him to say.

"Don’t do what?" I arched my brows.

"Don’t hang around, Xavier whether in close or in open spaces. I’m so scared that I might hurt him whenever you’re together. I’m just jealous, he sighed,".

I chuckled "Don’t worry darling, that’s not up for discussion I will limit my meetings with Xavier but I have a tiny request to make,".

"Anything," he turned to me eagerly.

"Can you recognize the office of the Luna as an executive arm?"