SILVER-HEART
Chapter 184: Quaking Dread

Chapter 184: Quaking Dread

"Why are you wearing a blindfold?" I suddenly asked. He had worn this very material ever since he came to my rescue, and the way he acted that moment, reading everything with his ears instead of his eyes was very strange.

Even now he felt my lips like he was trying to imprint the size of it in his head and his face wasn’t exactly looking directly at me, but an inch apart from it.

Almost like he’s...

I gasped sitting up instantly.

"Ava" he began still holding me close but I placed a hand on his chest to keep some space.

It wasn’t... right?

I opened my mouth to speak but William placed a finger on my lips to stop me.

"Estel" he smiled. "She misses you"

Just at his words, I heard her cooing sound, and my head automatically turned to a baby crib a few distances away from the bed. My body moved on its own accord as I stride towards it and placed my shaky hand on the crib and my eyes dropped to the most beautiful baby girl I have ever seen.

Her eyes were half open, her tiny hands and feet dancing back and forth. How she moved when she was in my womb, I remember smiling when she usually does that, and Adina would gasp when she saw the movement from my bump and point to the movement roaming around.

With a trembling breath, I cradled her into my arms and I suddenly wanted to just cry again.

The water just won’t give me my ease, because in this moment just holding her without fear was the greatest thing I could ever ask for. I still can’t believe she is here too, in my arms just like I have always wished for, ever since I had her in me it was a constant fear that I might never get to hold her.

I felt William wrap his arms around my waist from behind and bury his face in my neck, he trailed soft kisses to it. And I bit my bottom lip to keep a moan from slipping from my lips. His touch was electrifying and it felt like I was a newborn to it.

"She has your eyes"

"You did say you wanted a little girl with my eyes" I forced a smile.

"I did" and then he stiffened against me. "I wasn’t there... I should have been there"

Making sure Estel was back to sleep I placed her back on the crib and covered her with a blanket until she was tucked in properly and I turned to William.

"Av-"

I didn’t let him finish as I placed a hand on his chest and backed him all the way to the bed, with a light push he sat against it.

"Can we not grieve about what should have been and not?"

He held my waist tightly and I noticed he was quivering once again, his nerves were all over the place and I could feel it. He holds me like I would just disappear from his hold, I could feel the dread slipping off him.

"I do not want to dwell on it" I cupped his cheeks. "Now I will ask again... why do you wear this blindfold?" I asked to reach for it but he suddenly held my wrist to stop me.

"William"

"I cannot erase it, Ava," he began with clenched teeth. "I cannot erase the fact I stayed in this fucking wall of a place while you suffer... no matter how much I want redemption for being useless I can never have that, because I failed you"

"You did not fail me"

"I should have held onto you more tightly, I should have never let you fall back into his hand"

"I was the one who left you" I shook my head. "It was never your fault"

"It still doesn’t change the fact you were condemned to that fate"

"A fate you saved me from and-"

I was cut off when he suddenly hugged me and buried his face in my tummy.

"I-I should have been there for you and Estel"

I dug my hands in his hair... loving as they felt so wonderful on my fingertip but I was too focused on trying to calm my handsome fox who looked like he would crack any minute. "You’re here now... that is all that matters"

"I remember everything"

I smiled, parting from him and cupping his cheeks. "I do too... you have always protected me, William. I’m sorry I blamed you for abandoning me, you never did, you sacrificed so much to protect me"

"I will do it all over again"

My breath shuddered. "I was the one who left, thinking my destiny was laid with Aldon, but I was wrong... because the moment I felt Estel within me I knew our destinies were intertwined more than ever and it was meant to be. You complete William... because without you I was so lost, I even thought of dying because I thought I would never see you again, I almost lost hope William, but you came in spite of being bound to this place. And here I am right here and I’m not going anywhere"

My trembling hand wiped the tears that slid from under his blindfold and then I kissed him... an action which he accepted as I was pulled down to his lap and our kiss only deepened into something hot and passionate bliss.

His tongue slid into my mouth and marked every inch of it, this was pure bliss, his mouth on mine, hot, meaningful with a lot of accumulated feelings we have both stuck in.

I moaned when I felt his firmness right down me and pressing against me, on impulse I grind against it and his chest vibrated from a groan before he pulled away leaving me panting for breath.

I parted some strands of his silver hair covering his face. "I want you to talk to me, William... please" I begged, feeling the blindfold around his eyes by the corners.

He was stalling and didn’t want to talk about it but I truly need to know, I truly need to know why I can’t see his crystal green eyes I miss so much.

And I pray it isn’t what I think it is.

"I made a deal with the god of the Underworld"

My heart momentarily stopped.