SILVER-HEART
Chapter 176: You’re Not My Imagination

Chapter 176: You’re Not My Imagination

I felt my heart bucked, my body tingling as our eyes met and I just wanted to dissolve, having his crystal green eyes on me does things to me, things that I even can’t control. The light in his eyes was gone and replaced with a dark vibe and the green color barely swirling around it, they were so hollow and it sent chills down my spine.

"Now I’m seeing things," he said and I shuddered hearing his voice, having the same contrast but deeper... enough to vibrate my body.

I wanted to tell him that I was here and he wasn’t seeing things, but I just couldn’t move at that point, his gaze pinned me down, holding me in place to the point I couldn’t move.

"You must hate me" he rested his head on the shelf keeping his eyes trained on me. "You suffer while I just stay here and do nothing..."

I wanted to tell him it wasn’t like that, I wanted to tell him I was okay, but the response I gave him was my tears, sliding down my cheeks silently.

It just hurts to see him this way, punishing himself knowing he can’t help me.

"Staying here, guiding knowledge, what is the point of it all?"

My lips trembled.

"I can’t even protect you, I can’t even reach you. I’m sorry Ava for I’m so useless"

He faced forward. "I have searched and searched... but it remains the same, I can’t feel you, you’re too far away..." he stared at the ring on his fingers. My ring. "It doesn’t connect to you anymore, I don’t know what to do"

I inhaled sharply as I went on my knees and crawled to him before hugging him tightly, wrapping my arms around his head and burying his face in my chest.

"I will find a way to come back to you I promise... I will stay strong William, and you too, you have to stay strong. I will come back I promise" I sobbed.

I felt his grip on my waist leveling me down so that I sat on his lap, and our eyes met again.

"You’re speaking too much for an imagination"

I giggled, the sound foreign to my ears, I can’t remember the last time I released such a sound, there was only one man who could get that out of me.

"What if I’m not just an imagination?"

He narrowed his eyes. He doesn’t know... he was caught in a hollow state, between what’s real and what is not real, he doesn’t feel me actually but thinks I’m only a fragment of his imagination, but I was here in spirit.

He might not even remember this encounter.

"Y-You’re real?"

I shook my head. "But I’m here right now, speaking to you and you see me and that is all that matters"

He looked at me confused.

"Do not burden yourself, William. There are limits to everything, even the ones with greater power are powerless over some things, not all things can be controlled, William. I know you torment yourself because in spite of having all the knowledge the world holds you still cannot help me. But never once have I ever blamed you"

"Instead I blame myself, for falling into Aldon’s ploy, for dragging you into this and having you cursed. But in spite of all that..." I took his hand and placed his hand on my little bump and his gaze followed and I noticed he suddenly went paler than usual.

I smiled.

"She’s Estel, our daughter and she is the one who will bring us together"

"Y-You’re with child?" he stammered, a state of surprise and worry in his eyes. "How was this possible? You..." he couldn’t finish because the rest of his words hung in his throat and he gulped hard.

"Ye-"

He kissed me before I could speak anymore and my eyes went wide in shock... I squeezed my eyes shut as the texture of his lips cause a fire to burn my insides and my nerves to spike, an uncontrollable feeling storming within me, as I melt in his hold and kiss, I have forgotten the feeling, the feeling of his lips on mine.

It just felt like I had died and come back all again, awakened by his essence... but wait! Physical contact? I could feel it, it was strong and it caused sparks to invade my body. How was this possible? Could it be that William was connecting to my soul more than I thought? The connection is getting stronger.

I think each month as Estel grows within me, our connection is building more. This explains everything.

"You’re not my imagination," William said, our faces inches apart as my chest rose and fell. The joy and adoration in his eyes caused my chest to go warm. "You’re-" he paused because my body started glowing, of all time why now?

I was waking up.

"Ava"

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I gasped awake and sat up quickly, looking around the familiar room I was locked in. I felt my lips and a shudder found my body, I could still feel William’s kiss, the wet imprint. I was right then... our connection was getting stronger because of Estel.

A smile found my lips, and I felt Estel’s aura, she was getting stronger and the stronger she gets the more my soul can connect to William.

The rest of the day I started hatching a plan, but before I can go through with it I have to speak with William again, after several ground-breaking thoughts I found out only my soul can travel to the library because of Aldon’s powers keeping me from physically going to him, which means even if I were to escape I can’t go to the Holy Library.

Estel can do more than connect us spiritually and I don’t want her to do more so that she won’t endanger her life at such an early stage.

She was still fragile, and I was still keeping her going with my aura.