SILVER-HEART
Chapter 127: Anger With a Mix Of Desire

Chapter 127: Anger With a Mix Of Desire

Is it possible to feel something so deep and crazy along the lines of anger and desire? Like a storm brewing your insides and then... it explodes and you do the complete opposite. Every muscle aches, but not the same ache as your heart does, that is more profound, every beat is like a loud beat of a drum. And don’t get me started with the heat... it burns... the tempest of anger and the chaotic sensual feeling that makes your insides twist.

It felt like a dream... my lips on his and I cannot stop myself, I haven’t realized how much I missed the feel of it until now... how much every cell in my body awakens, it felt too good... I want to be angry, I want to put a stop to this and push him off but at the same time I didn’t want the connection to end. What made it far more intense was when he kissed me back with just the right amount of passion and I began to breathe... my heart is slamming loudly more than ever.

The intensity with which he kissed me was so potent and with every movement I wanted to melt, there was just so much longing and emotion... emotions I cannot keep up with. His tongue worked like magic in my mouth bringing more further to a mouth-watering kiss.

I want it to last forever.

But with my eyes closed all I could think about was that memory, it kept intruding on everything... the same scene, the same image I want to just forget and let it all be damn... but I cannot, it was like that very day it was branded to haunt me until the end, and the more I thought about it... the more the pain came until it eventually swallow me whole and the darkness came forth.

I was already pulling away from him, from his lips, touch, and everything that will rid me of him. I need to use my brain and not my weak heart, it’s too faint to hold anything. So I remained still keeping my eyes leveled with our breaths echoing in the chambers, nothing said... no words and I preferred it.

"Ava"

gods his voice... I don’t want to hear it because it struck me too much to my body and make me want to hear more, not hearing it for a month made it feel like I would lose my mind.

Even now I go crazy just by hearing it, my body goes crazy and my heart goes crazy too.

It’s all crazy!

"Look at me"

It wasn’t a command, it sounded like a plea.

"Please, my sweet"

I shivered, swallowing a lump in my throat as I raised my gaze to his lips but not his eyes, I didn’t want to look at them, for I knew when I did I would drown in it and forget everything... it will just be like a dream and all reality is gone.

My pain will be gone

Reality is everything... We need that pain because that is what makes it complete, if I don’t feel it I will be telling myself a lie... a lie that will break me and I will fall apart and crumble into dust, into an empty vase of space will nothing holding me... just the ground.

I shuddered when I felt his thumb wipe the tears I shed silently. I promised myself I will not cry but it just comes with every pain.

"If you don’t talk to me..." his breath turned shaky. "Then tell me how I will resolve this. How will I gain your affection back?"

My lips trembled.

"I’m trying Ava... but..." he paused. "The migraine it’s..."

I raised my gaze until I held his staring at me like he wanted to fall apart.

William Basker Darkmore looks at me like his world will crumble at any minute and I mirrored his expression, I feel like pulverizing.

"It hurts..." My voice breaks. "I try to sleep and yet I go back to that memory, I see you walk away leaving me in the pouring rain" I drew sharply. "Tell me Will... what could possibly be your reason for that? Is my destiny that much of a big deal that you had to do it? I don’t understand" I sobbed and looked to the side, the tears just won’t stop anymore.

My chest can’t stop squeezing.

"...’ You shall know the consequences of what you did’..." he recited. "... ’What they will do to you... I will have no control over it, this is now your fate for I warned you. You took what was theirs... ’And they will bring their wrath!’..."

"W-Whose words are that?"

"Basker’s"

"Basker?" the first avatar of the library?

"There is no spell that can break this memory block, it may be Basker’s doing or it may not... but there is one last retort but I’m not sure"

"What’s your last retort?"

He leaned away from me and stretched his hand out for me to take, I leveled my gaze to it.

"There’s something I will show you too... earlier you said you do not know what you are or who you are..."

I directed my gaze back to his.

"I think I might know... but I wanted to be sure without giving incorrect answers"

"Show me," I said without hesitation, I didn’t care if he was not certain I needed to know anything at all.

It was better than being lost.

So I took his hand and he gripped it firmly and I ignored the spark I felt... he led me out of the chambers. I could only hear the sound of my heartbeat as he led me back to the library, but we kept walking through the passage of trillions of shelves, even walking to some path I have never even dreamed of going through.

It was harder to see but with William leading the way I didn’t worry too much. We finally came to a stop at a giant door, it was bigger than any I have ever seen, with a strange lock at the center. What key could possibly open this?

"The Heart of the Library"