SILVER-HEART
Chapter 106: It’s Not Fair

Chapter 106: It’s Not Fair

I lay against the bed not having the single urge to close my eyes and sleep. Mindlessly playing with the silver ring on my finger. Why isn’t he coming to bed? Is he that busy? It was already too late.

I sighed burying my face on the pillow. I should have said something when I had the chance but yet I kept my mouth shut. I really want to see him, I really want him to come to bed. Not seeing him for hours was too much for my brain to process.

A slight knock came from the door and I quickly sat up. William doesn’t knock so that has to be Elvenia.

"Elvenia?"

"No, my lady, it is I Severus"

"Severus?" I mumbled. That’s strange. I quickly cleared my throat. "Come in"

The giant doors slide open and Severus walked in with a small smile on his lips, He stood just right at the door and bowed.

"Glad to see you’re okay, My lady"

"Yes, I’m sorry I got you worried, it was not my intention"

"Of course" he shrugged. "Well I came bearing news from the master"

I blinked. "News?"

"Yes... he’s buried in work in the library and he cannot come to bed, he said you should have a good night’s sleep"

I didn’t even know when a huff escaped me. "He told you that?"

"Yes, My lady" It was a sad smile on his lips now.

"Well then... tell your master, there is no need to worry, I will have a good night’s sleep WITHOUT him," I said with a forced smile on my lips, but I was storming within me

"O-Of course" he bowed before retreating and a huff came from me when the doors slammed shut.

He’s avoiding me

He sent Severus to tell me he cannot come to bed and I should have a good night’s rest? I felt like crying now but I was mostly focusing on the pain in my chest right now.

It hurts

I couldn’t sleep, I was restless, angry, hurt, and regretful. Regretting leaving him just like that without a word, I knew he was hurt but he cannot punish me like this, it is so unfair.

Daybreak came and I was told to stay here for yet another day, Sophia came with her usual cheerful attitude but I wasn’t in the mood for anything, I was mostly forcing my smile and gestures with stormy thoughts.

Night came again, and then hours, he’s yet to come. The knock on the door made me lose it, the pent-up emotions since last night coming forth like a wave and before I knew it I was already matching to the door and it spread open revealing Severus. He was about to speak but I did not let him, my hands tightly on my nightgown as I stormed towards the library.

I have never been to the library at night and I must say it is even extremely beautiful. I was caught off guard when my gaze darted to the ceiling and a gasp left me, it showed the night skies instead of the usual ceiling and it was so magical, with the millions of stars glittering under the dark blue skies. And the lit candles floating above... illuminating everywhere like daylight.

I would have basked in this view and relished it but I cannot... not when I have a heavy heart and a husband who was avoiding me. So I continued my walk and made it to his office and he was buried in books, making all my anger flood away. His ravishing eyes scanned every book and scroll and marked something with his quill. A repeated action that went on and on.

I silently climbed the stairs but that was when he rose to the feet with a scroll in hand and then his eyes drifted to me and I felt like I was pinned.

"Good evening Husband," I said folding my arms on my chest, I really wanted to sound angry but my voice was more shaky.

"Evening, wife"

I shuddered, just hearing him call me that does things to me and I can’t deny that his eyes dimmed when I called him husband too.

We were both having effects on each other... good.

"Are you avoiding me? You won’t come to bed"

"Even if I tired I won’t last" he clarified as his beautiful orbs went back to the scroll he scanned through.

"So you do intend to avoid me then" I was trying to keep the talk going for I knew he would fall silent again and use his work as an excuse not to talk to me.

He rolled the scroll, placed it back on the table, and his full attention rested on me, watching me closely

"You should go back to bed, you need your rest"

I almost huffed again but I didn’t. "I do not need rest" I began, leveling my gaze and the heavy feeling in my chest came again. "I need you"

I heard him round the table and I faced him.

"I’m sorry for leaving, I..." I trembled.

"Do you know how I felt when I found you gone?"

"I’m sorry" I whispered.

"To find you in the arms of a stranger?"

"What?"

"I was seconds away from ripping his arms off you" he closed the distance between us and I hitched in my breathing, his eyes were storming with emotions but anger covered most of it.

"Even now I restrain from punishing you for leaving me"

Why do I feel aroused by his words?

"Will" I began softly.

"I thought I lost you again" his tone was heavy and the mask on his face broke. I saw the sadness drowning in his eyes and I wanted to plunge into the very earth to get rid of it.

He grabbed my neck, it was a placement but his hold was steel, his gaze heavy with exploding emotions I never thought I could never see all at once.

"Every time I close my eyes you’re gone..." his jaw tightened, our faces inches apart. "It’s not fair"