Reincarnated into a Snow Griffin
Chapter 43

Chapter 43: Chapter 43

The memories are still so vivid and yet so far away that the happiness seems fabricated as my mind tries to cope with these emotions and feelings, distancing oneself from the present, trying to move away from the situation, and I let it.

Better feel less, feel nothing at all, than to keep suffering like I’m right now.

I would never let anyone have such a grip on my feelings anymore, it is not only dangerous but... scary too, of losing them in the future too.

I don’t have the luxury of that anymore, at least in the state I am at... on more reason to become strong so I can protect the one’s dearest to me... so I would never have to feel this grief anymore.

I take a deep breath before opening the book up and finding that inside it is mostly intact, so I ask: "Where did you find this?"

"On top of a tree actually, stuck between two branches, it seems expensive so I brought it back, never expected to be writing in the old way so I don’t think I will have much luck selling it. But of course, such beauty as yourself can have it with you want, on the house!"

"...Like I said, stop calling me beauty, my name is Seraph." I say without even lifting my eyes from the book for I’ve asked the same thing many times before already.

"...Then... beautiful Seraph?" And he always does something like this in the end.

I sigh. "... Do as you please."

Me finally giving up seems to surprise him, and as a smile spreads and curves his eyes I already know nothing good will come out from his head.

"That... that means you are finally accepting me?! Oh joy I-" He starts saying, all excited about something, but as he tries to approach I regret saying anything to stir his mind up.

"Scram!" I say, trying to give him a kick that, with me laying down like I’m should not have been able to hit him but actually does makes contact, which finally makes me frown and look up and away from the book only to find the prick hugging my leg with a silly smile on his face.

I feel a vein pop on my forehead again, and wonder if this can turn into a disease if things keep going on like this, so I smack him with the book hard, making him howl in pain and let go of my leg to pat the wounded area.

"Ouch ouch ouch, such fierce beauty you are."

"Stop calling me beauty!" Smack!

In the end, when I’m finally let it be and go back to the book I cannot help but slowly clean the dirt off of him, almost as if touching something precious and fragile, drawing letters on the cover with my fingers, thinking that, few weeks past, I could not tell what had been written there so mother had to help me out and make sure that it was the real deal we were paying for, golden coins exchanged, yet nothing really...

I sigh once more, but for once my brain is finally catching up with my current situation and that I cannot depend on anyone, or rather, I don’t have anyone to rely on anymore.

And if I had to learn fast before, now... Now I’ve to be ready for the unfamiliar, because there is no way I can be prepare beforehand for all the world there is outside this cave has to offer.

And I would not count myself lucky exactly, but at least I may have found some sort of guide to my magic... and I was already dreading asking where exactly did he find it, perhaps with him guiding me there I could still find the islands, but I knew it was impossible and I regret saying anything to him even before I open my mouth, though I do it nonetheless and end up wanting to throw the book at him once more.

"Why beauty? Are you that interested in the book? Gorgeous, brave and smart, do you want to crush my heart?"

Sigh... What to do, what to do... perhaps I shall start by teaching this devil some lessons! Come here you! I will get you one good smashing once I’m healed, you will see!