It's Just A Picture (BL)
Chapter 37: It seems I’ve been neglecting you, huh, Lily?

Chapter 37: It seems I’ve been neglecting you, huh, Lily?

"And why is that, Hyung?" Seojin asked, suddenly taking hold of my chin and lifting my head to meet his gaze. "We’re men, you’re supposed to feel disgusted."

His gaze this time felt like he was trying to call me out for what I was. I gulped. Was this perhaps a test? Were they trying to find out if I was gay?

Why, though? And why with this method? Wait, why was I reading too much meaning to it?

I had a feeling that they were only doing this because they didn’t want me to feel disgusted by their actions. Honestly, I would never. Rather, I was the one scared that they would find me repulsive.

"I... Can’t." I said. "I can’t feel disgusted. Even if I do feel disgusted by any other person, not you two. You two are..." The sincerity in my gaze was seeping out and I was scared.

I lowered my head, afraid to say more. These two were the pillars on which I was still standing. If not for them, I would’ve given up a long time ago.

Even if I wasn’t gay, I would never feel disgusted by them.

"I understand." Seojin said with a smile of relief on his face.

"Then Hyung, we’ll take our leave for today. Make sure to eat before going to bed." Seojun said, slowly taking his hands off me.

Both twins smiled at me and just like that, they left. It was a bit all of a sudden like they were trying to hide something so they left quickly.

Once they were gone, I felt the empty space of my house and was a bit lonely.

What in the world was I thinking?

I began to regret the words I said to the twins after they left.

I clearly wanted to draw a line and stay away so why did I make it seem like I wanted them near me? Ugh, I was always contradicting myself with my actions.

Well, at least they won’t entertain any thoughts of me thinking they were disgusting. Negative thoughts were the worst, honestly.

Seriously, who would think those two were disgusting? Even their actions were bright. They were handsome and charming and...

They didn’t know and I tried not to show it but sandwiched between them, I could feel both of them down there. That must be their usual size but it was... Huge.

My face burned up. They were so huge down there that if I didn’t know any better, I would’ve assumed they were hard for me.

Nah, that was impossible.

The only reason I could even feel them was because they were pressed against me so tight so it was inevitable.

Ugh, stop thinking about it. Stop thinking about it.

I’ll never get a chance to see it so stop thinking about it.

But more importantly, it looked like they were more worried about me hating them than I was about them hating me. They came out with the thought that was plaguing them but I could never do that.

They can never know the sort of desires I harbored concerning them.

And on that note... A thought came to mind.

Could they have been worried that I would be disgusted by the things they did simply because they were ’his’ sons?

I wondered.

Their father was such a person so of course they would worry that I would see them like that but I know my cute boys weren’t pedophilic bastards who went around raping young boys for their own satisfaction.

They didn’t have to worry that I’d hate them because I could never.

I came out of the shower, got dressed in my pajamas, and went to prepare my instant noodles.

I told the twins I had food in the fridge but it was clearly a lie. I just didn’t want to spend too much time with them for fear that my resolve would break.

Yet, we went ahead to have such intimate contact with one another. Once again, my collections contradicted my plans.

Lily was curled up on the counter and as I sat to eat, she yawned.

"It seems I’ve been neglecting you, huh, Lily? But don’t worry," I rubbed beneath her ear. "...I’ll get you something that’ll take good care of you from the doctor tomorrow."

Yeah, that’s right. Though I have a lot of cat products, I was still missing a few essentials.

I still have a lot of my money in my account to spare, so I’ll be able to get her something like an automatic feeding machine. I saw it online and it looked awesome.

With that, I didn’t have to worry about leaving Lily at home alone for a whole day.

I thought I wouldn’t be able to sleep because I slept for so long but the moment my head hit the pillow, I dozed off.

Well, I must’ve really been so exhausted that I could still sleep even after hours of sleep.

But strangely, even after sleeping for so long, I didn’t have a single dream. Well, it was better having no dream at all than having a nightmare.

The next day, first thing in the morning, I took Lily to the vet.

"Oh? What a pleasant surprise." Geumtae said with his usual cheerful smile. "I didn’t expect to see you so early in the morning."

"Good morning." I greeted him with an awkward smile. "I didn’t want to leave Lily at home today and since today’s her check-up day, I decided to drop her off. Hope you don’t mind."

"Not at all. It’s just one more company for me and an extra friend for the cats." He said, taking Lily’s bag. He smiled and waved. "Well, I’m sure you’re busy that’s why you came so early but would you like me to buy you coffee?"

"That would be nice but I can’t spend another minute here so I’ll be off." I declined with a polite smile. "But we can still grab one when I come back to get Lily." I said. "And I’ll be buying."

"Hm, is that a thank-you gift?" He asked and I smiled nervously.

"Yeah. I know it’s too little but... Whoa." I blinked, shocked.

He was standing right in front of me and our faces were so close. How did he move so fast?

"Haha, it’s cute." He said and moved back, smiling. "But would you mind if I picked the thank you gift? I’m certain this won’t be the only time you’ll come to me to help you babysit Lily so I’ll just take it as a thank you now and thank you in advance. How about that?"

That was a lot to comprehend but I understood most of it and well, why not? A little thank-you gift wouldn’t hurt a fly. It was the least I could do for someone who would help me take care of Lily in the future too.

"Okay." I said with a friendly smile. "Just let me know when you want me to get it for you and if I can afford it, I’ll do it."

(Edit: Sorry, monmot, cause of a ban I can’t respond to comments. I hope u see this though.And yes, they knew what their psycho dad did. They just didn’t know it left a trauma on our poor boy)