Hiding the Alpha's Twins: His Wolfless Luna
Chapter 75

Chapter 75: Chapter 75

[ALPHA KILLIAN’s Point of View]

Goddess, help me! I panicked after I saw Samantha in front of the door of my room, petrified and confused. I couldn’t understand why she suddenly thought about looking for me in the pack house after days of not talking.

But then when I checked my phone, I saw her caller ID on the missed call register, and I thought I must have clicked it mistakenly after I hesitated about calling one of my pack council members and informing them I had already agreed with their suggestion with Brianne.

But it wasn’t as easy as I thought it was.

It was just s*x. I kept on reminding myself when I saw Brianne enter the main door of the pack house wearing only a thin white clothing with her n*pples apparent from the sheer fabric. I had known Brianne since we were teens.

She was introduced to me by my parents after the coven of witches made a pact with us to occupy the southern part of the Moonstone territory in exchange for using their abilities for the benefit of the pack.

It was one of the things that Moonstone was not proud of since witches were hated all around the continent.

But my father, the former Alpha of the pack, took this as an advantage to use their power in exchange for their safety. And since then, their coven and Moonstone have done their best to live in harmony, especially when the growing numbers of hybrids posed threats to all of us.

And Brianne—she was beautiful. The prettiest among the women in her coven, who was chosen to do the ritual with me. If only I were some kind of guy who would enjoy such an opportunity, I would have done it already with her and taken her virginity. But I wouldn’t do such a thing if someone had already captured my heart.

After I did everything and proved to Samantha that I was better than the man who only did was to hurt her, it still wasn’t enough. And as much as I hated to hear her reason it out, she was right. She was fated to Dominic, blessed by the Moon Goddess. And whatever I do, no matter how hard I try just to make her feelings change, I’ll fail. Because the two fated people only belonged to each other and no one can alter it—unless their partner rejects them.

So that only meant I only had to wait for Dominic to change his mind.

It was a lame hope, but it was better than nothing.

Despite my efforts to convince myself that Sam would return to me and that her decision to choose Dominic was a grave mistake she would later regret, the sound of his name as she uttered it on her lips, it still felt like a cold knife stabbing me rapidly and hard on the chest. I never thought I would love a woman like I loved Samantha, but it was something I had to endure, or it would destroy me from the inside.

Perhaps it was something Dominic had hoped for—to watch me slowly deteriorate while he had the woman of my dreams. Perhaps it was his plan to take Samantha and the kids away so I would succumb to melancholia to destroy me and the Moonstone pack.

So after what happened in Samantha’s office, after she told me her decisions, choosing Dominic and moving to Silver Crescent, I did my best not to burst into a ball of rage. I refused to go to the office for a few days, hoping not to see her while I was still hurting. I tried to drown my rage with booze; I went to the bar with some friends just to keep my mind busy and not think of her. But as the problem at the border territories arose, and the hybrids became the number one concern for the pack’s security, I thought maybe Brianne could be a blessing in disguise to help me forget Samantha.

I saw her in front of my door and I felt nothing. Plain nothing.

Brianne knew it was a duty she needed to fulfill since she was trained for it her whole life as part of the agreement with her coven for the pack. There was no hint of fear or anxiousness in her eyes. Her lack of expectations greatly favored me, as I was unsure of how to reassure her about the outcome and its likelihood of success. All I knew was that she was ready. And she didn’t hesitate to come into my bedroom and remove her clothes with her eyes staring at me lusciously.

Samantha suddenly appeared at my door with shocked eyes, and for the first time, I didn’t know what to do.

While we were there in the middle of the grand staircase, talking and breaking our hearts again and again, I couldn’t believe I begged for her to change her mind for the third time, only to be rejected again. I had never been so desperate like this and it felt as if the whole sky had fallen upon my shoulder, burying me deep as the earth swallowed me whole.

And as we cried together with her arms around me, I couldn’t help but savor the moment and held her tight—as if it was the last time I would ever hold her again. I never thought loving someone could be this painful. And I wondered if I would ever recover again after this—after suffering this level of agony of loving the woman I knew would never be mine.

“I’m sorry I disturbed something important.” Samantha sniffed and pulled away from me gently. Her eyes and nose were red and her face was stained with tears. “I think you should go back to her, Killian. There’s no reason for me to stay here.”

“I don’t want you to go, Sam.” The words came out of my lips on their own as if my mind and my heart had agreed to this feeling and convinced my lips to utter them. “I don’t know if I can take it. I don’t know what to feel if I ever see that house again without you and the twins.”

A tear ran down her cheek again, but she wiped it quickly with the back of her hand and stared at the ceiling. Her lips trembled and her fingers were shaking. Her breath was uneven as she fumbled for words but couldn’t say them. It was as if she was scared her voice would break if she ever spoke a word to me.

We spent another minute calming ourselves down, and Samantha finally got the courage to speak. “You know you can still see the twins, Killian. Devon and Diana love you as a father figure to them. We can stay as friends—”

“Just like you told me before, Sam, these feelings are something you can’t control,” I told her, reminding her of the words she used against me before. “It’s something I have no power over, Sam. I don’t know how I could recover from it, but I’ll try. Because you know that all I want is for you to be happy. Although I wish it were me, I understand, Sam. I just have to f*cking deal with this.” I rasped and ran both my hands against my unruly dark hair.

Samantha looked helpless when she saw me angry at myself, but I couldn’t help it. Perhaps she saw that it was the only way I could cope with the situation and just let me say whatever I wanted and tolerated it.

“I’ve been here in the Moonstone Pack for six years. I saw how you worked hard for your people, Killian. But I won’t tell you what you should prioritize first because I know you are hurting. And it was all my fault. But you can’t let the situation ruin you and your duties to the pack, Killian. If you hate me for choosing Dominic, then hate me. You are right. No one, not even you, can control these emotions, but as someone who cares for you, you have to snap out of it and put the pack first.”

“Don’t make me fall for you with your smart, powerful words again, Samantha. You know that’s one of the things I like most about you.” I frowned at her with sarcasm just to make her think I was finally feeling okay, and even though she felt I still wasn’t and I was trying to pretend it, she managed a small smile on her face.

“My bad. It’s just me," she chuckled, before standing up and brushing off the invisible dust on the bottom of her pants. “She’s waiting for you, Killian.”

I looked up and saw Brianne watching from the mezzanine floor. My werewolf eyes were sharp enough to see how annoyed she was to see us chuckling about something, and it was pure hate in her eyes that made me frown.

“Dominic and I talked already about this,” Samantha said, which caught my attention back to her. “I agreed to move to Silver Crescent next week and I have already started preparing for it. I am just looking for a good chance to tell the kids and...” she paused and then looked at me with a firm look on her face, “And your permission for me to leave the Moonstone pack to start a new life there.”

Just as I expected.

I looked down and sighed. “If this will make you happy, Samantha,” I looked into her ocean blue eyes and wondered if I could still stare at them like this after this moment. “I, the Alpha of the Moonstone Pack, now release you from your bond as a member and as my second hand to allow you to join another pack to seek happiness and growth, which you have always been wishing for.”

And as the words broke the pack’s bind on Samantha’s soul, I saw her glow for the very first time since I first laid eyes upon her.

She was happy. That’s all that mattered to me.

My face fell into my hands after I watched her step out of the door of the manor.