Hiding the Alpha's Twins: His Wolfless Luna
Chapter 74

Chapter 74: Chapter 74

[SAMANTHA’s Point of View]

“Let me go, Killian!” I snarled at him; my eyes, which were wide with shock, were now filled with anger. “Let me go or I’ll f*cking scream.”

“Just promise me you will listen, Samantha. This is important to me,” he begged as soon as his hands started to loosen on my arm. “Please let me explain this.”

I shook my head, confused. I would rather not hear anything from him after what I saw, but seeing Killian’s face as he begged made me think twice. I gave him a deadly glare before he let go of me and we stood in the middle of the grand staircase. He was on the higher steps, looking down at me with pleading eyes while I lifted my face and waited to see if he would make a lame excuse for what he was doing.

Goddess, I knew I was a hypocrite, and I had no reason to feel mad after I hurt and rejected Killian. But it was something I couldn’t control as well. He told me he loved me, and it killed me to shatter him after I chose Dominic. But seeing him have another girl just a few days after I tortured myself because of guilt? I was so confused! These feelings didn’t make sense to me. All I knew was that I was angry.

What worsened it was when the dark-haired woman appeared from the top of the staircase with a grin on her face as she glowered at me through her nose. I answered her with a sarcastic smirk and then widened my eyes at Killian, whose green eyes glinted with amusement at the reaction he saw on my annoyed face.

“Brianne, please go back inside the room,” Killian ordered the woman. She seemed graveled, though, but did what Killian told her.

I raised an eyebrow at him. “For the pack?” I asked him. “You are f*cking a d*mned witch for the pack?”

Killian, who was already exasperated, sat on the steps, still half-naked with the blanket covering his lower half. With his body glistening with sweat and his muscles taut, my throat involuntarily swallowed hard and I quickly lowered my gaze, averting my eyes from him uncomfortably, not wanting to look him in the face.

He must have sensed my admiration for his ripped physique after seeing that awkward gesture. He refused to smile, though, as he took the matter seriously, which I was grateful for because I would surely smack him on the face if he ever smirked at me.

“Like I told you, it is not what you think it is, Sam,” his voice sounded apologetic but I could tell there was still a hint of anguish in there. “You’re right. Brianne is a witch living across the borders of this pack. She had been one of the best healers here that people mostly went to. She has the ability I need to protect the pack.”

I shook my head. It still didn’t make sense, but I let him explain.

“Last month, I learned there is a huge threat brewing at the west corner of my turf. My patrolmen told me the number was around four hundred to six hundred hybrid rogues populating that place. And I have to do something to stop them. I discussed this with the pack council and the elders and suggested something to me. They showed Brianne to me—the sole daughter of one of the most powerful witches on the continent. They all asked me to perform this one ritual with her, which I refused to do because I couldn’t do it when I have these huge feelings for you, Samantha.”

I wanted to know the connection of what I saw with the ritual, but I decided to stay patient as I saw he wasn’t done explaining yet. I just stared at him because I knew how terrifying it was to know that there were covens of hybrid rogues dwelling at the outskirts of this city, and I could feel Killian’s concern about it with his shoulders drooped heavily in front of me.

“I can’t ask you to go with me back in my room to see if it was not something you did out of desire for someone else.” Killian tried to sound as convincing as he could because, hell, I would go back to his room with that woman still in there.

“After I realized it wasn’t me who you needed, after you chose Dominic over me and decided to move to Silver Crescent for the twins—I was too devastated to see you or even look into your eyes again and accepted that you will never be mine regardless of what I do, Sam. And out of pain, out of misery, I decided to go whatever the elders and the council wanted me to do for the sake of the pack’s safety.”

Killian’s strong and calloused fingers ran through his dark, unruly hair as he let out a heavy breath. “I asked for them to send Brianne to me so we could be done with this. The ritual is about the exchange of abilities, and Brianne has this power to expel dark and evil auras within ten thousand square miles, which has brought her clan safety and peace for centuries. But to achieve this, I have to take her virginity. In that way, she can transfer a part of her ability to me and make sure those monsters can’t get inside my territory.”

It was the very first time I heard such a thing, and I wasn’t sure if I would believe it—or maybe Killian was just making another excuse to hide that he was just done with me. Perhaps it was for the best, thinking it was something he needed to forget me, but I didn’t understand why I felt betrayed. Was it because Killian had been with me for years, and he was as important to me as I was to him? Perhaps at least he told me about this thing because I did not know that such a problem existed, and he had to deal with it, that involved having a woman in his bed.

It was as if the Moon Goddess dodged me from a massive bullet of agony.

Biting my lower lip—I wasn’t sure what to feel about it, but again, I felt awful that Killian had to do something like this as a responsibility for his pack. I looked into his eyes and I saw the same pain I saw on his face that time when we were in the clinic.

“I’m sorry you have to do this for the pack,” I murmured as I lowered my gaze at him. I decided to sit on the steps as well and exhaustingly slid my back against the railings and joined him with his misery. “I’m sorry I hurt you and I’m sorry I have to move to Silver Crescent pack with the twins, Killian. I have to.”

He didn’t answer, though, as we both stared at nothingness and let the silence fall upon us for minutes. I was scared to look at his face and see how broken he was until I heard him sniff and I thought I was being torn apart.

“So how does it work?” I asked him just to break that awkward silence and somehow ease the tension and sorrow between us. “Do you think this will succeed and drive those hybrids away from Moonstone?”

“I am not really sure about this, Sam but as the Alpha, this has to work,” he answered, uncertain of what he was doing but having faith that it would help the pack. “Brianne and I talked about this and we agreed that there’s no emotion involved in this ritual. She knew it was just a task to be done, though and still I felt bad that I had to do this to her.”

No one wanted this. That’s for sure and I felt stupid and reckless with my behavior. “Yeah. Sounds like it’s very unfair that Brianne has to sacrifice herself for this. She must have prepared herself for this kind of duty.” I commented and sighed heavily. “Do you think it’s a good idea, though? Trusting the witches with this? I heard they are very cunning people. Didn’t they demand anything to agree to this arrangement?”

Killian couldn’t answer for a second but then decided he had to so he uttered anxiously, “Brianne’s parents demanded a huge amount of money for this.”

Goddess, those people basically sold their daughter for this. I suddenly felt bad that I showed Brianne an attitude when she was the real victim here.

“I’m sorry I got upset.” my frown deepened with both guilt and embarrassment as I finally gazed into his green, solemn eyes. “I was just shocked and confused about what was happening. Maybe I should go—”

He grabbed my arm once again, stopping me from getting up and stepping down the stairs. “Wait, Samantha, I just need to know if it’s your final decision.” there was still desperation in Killain’s voice that made my heart shrink.  “Are you really going to leave Moonstone?”

“I have to, Killian. I already decided on it the second I chose Dominic as my mate. It’s for the twin’s safety as well. The council and the Moonstone people will not be pleased to know that I am still staying in your pack when I was connected with the Alpha of the Silver Crescent. That’s straight treachery.” I explained to him.

“Is this the part that you need my permission to let you go?” He asked bitterly with his head hanging low and his dark hair cascaded down, concealing the defeated look on his face. “Is this goodbye, Sam? Is it too late to stop you anymore?”

“Goddess, Killian,” I exhaled raspily as tears poured down my face and moved to wrap my arms around him, not wanting to see him like the world was going to end just because it was time for me to spend another Chapter of my life with the Silver Crescent pack. “You are still my best friend. The man who I will never forget for taking care of me and the twins when we needed most. I wish I could love you the way you do for me, but it doesn’t work that way.”

Killian held me tight and my heart shattered with him once again.