DESTINED MATE : SWEET ALPHA PHEROMONE
Chapter 35 - GRUVV’s POV

Chapter 35: Chapter 35 - GRUVV’s POV

Huh? I like him? Who? Shiloh?

I thought about the words George said to me before he goes away leaving me zoned out at the door like a fool, it’s still 8 PM and I swear to God Shiloh is still awake, how can I meet him if what I just heard now starting to bother me. I tilted my head, thinking about what he said, do I really like Shiloh?

He’s so attractive I admitted it, I’m being nice to him because I feel sympathy. Right?

I sighed, walked towards the front door. When the front door is open the voice greeted me cheerfully, "Gruvv! Welcome home!" His handsome face, high nose, his lips that looked plumpy, wait,why he looks so glowing tonight?

Why my Heart ... Is Pounding like crazy...?

"I was just about to take this upstairs! I thought you’d be home soon so I wanted to prepare it for us to eat together." He chattered merrily, in his right hand he carried a box of cheesecake, while in the other hand he carried a plastic knife for the cake. He wears grey pajamas, looks good in his pale skin. The hair is beautifully flowing and looks much shinier than usual. "Let’s eat upstair!" He said.

"You want something to drink?" I asked, trying to control all the feelings that suddenly filled my chest.

"I want soda, thank you. You can drink wine or whatever you liked. I think it’ll go well with wine." He said it again, smiling so wide that I really want to squeezed him now.

Oh shit, he looks cute.

He walked first into the elevator. I’m breathe out to make myself calm, I felt like I couldn’t breathe just from seeing him in front of me and talking. Why does he look so much more handsome and sweet than before? Damn it. Is it because of what George said?

Silly! No, I don’t have that kind of feeling for him. I mean, I’m an Alpha after all. Things like that kiss could have zapped my desire, well, although it was kind of disgusting because I’d been without permission dreaming of things like that with Shiloh. I’m sorry.

But that’s only because I’ve been holding it all in for too long! I haven’t had sex for a long time and even come into contact with Omega because I can’t smell them!

Ah shit, do I have to scrapped my hands off with a knife so I can focus better? Or do I have to hit my head with a hammer to get back to my senses?

I took the wine in the storage room and the soda from the refrigerator, I checked myself again at the elevator door. No blood, nothing suspicious. What should I do when I’m alone with Shiloh? There’s no way I could think of anything else like kissing him again, right?

But, Shiloh didn’t say anything about the kiss either. Am I the only one who feels awkward and confused? Does he think it’s nothing? No, it wasn’t his first kiss either.

As I walked out of the elevator, a thought flashed through my mind and made me stop. Right, Shiloh’s been dating since he was in high school with his ex. He still has Hanahaki’s disease which makes him coughing and spitting out all the petals every day, that’s why for him the kiss is nothing.

Yeah. He still loves his ex-boyfriend. Fuck, why am I feel like shit now that I just realized he’s still in love with his ex? There was a strange feeling when I realized that the Hanahaki that Shiloh had was a sign that he still had feelings left behind. And it is a strong one that gives the Hanahaki still growing.

I sighed. Pathetic. I panicked and thought of many things just because of George’s words that were not necessarily true.

I went into his bedroom and found him smiling broadly with the cheese cake that had been served on a plate. He waved to me, hinting to get closer to him.

"Your hair is still wet?" He asked when I walk in to the room, I sat down next to him and nodded. Put a can of soda and also a bottle of wine on a small table near the sofa. He moved from the chair to the small closet near the bed and took something there, I was opening the wine’s lid when I heard a hair dryer buzzing.

"I’ll help you drying your hair." He said with a big smile, shaking the hair dryer in his hand and began to touch my hair.

The hair dryer sound were so soft that the possibility of him hearing the sound of my roaring heartbeat was much more plausible, I fell silent on the spot, not moving at all. I could feel his thin, long fingers begin to comb my hair, and the hot wind coming out of my hair dryer made me feel even hotter.

"Oh? Is it too hot?" He asked confused when my sweat is flowing.

I shook my head silently, I felt nervous just because Shiloh was doing this. I’m sure, I’ve started to go crazy or even get carried away with George’s thoughtless words. I’ve become too aware that what he’s doing now and is making me nervous, he’s making little gestures that I like and I don’t even have a problem with.

He finished drying my hair and now combed it gently.

"You always look younger without hair gel." He say it with a chuckle.

He tidied up the hair dryer and kept it to its original place, I drank wine in a glass. It feels like my heart is a ticking bomb, I swear it’ll burst at anytime. And, did I look old before? Damn it. When George said I was better with a gel hair or slicked back hair, is he lied to me or something? I’m not gonna touch that fucking hair gel again.

He told me how his day was, he told me the book he was reading and how he felt after reading the book. I don’t have any courage to look at his face, my eyes were glued to the television when he spoke, I didn’t know what the announcer was talking about on television, all I heard was his beautiful voice. I didn’t stop downing the wine in the glass. Ah shit, he was moving around babbling about his day, his long hair occasionally hitting my hands, his legs swaying and hitting my feet.

I feel almost crazy.

"I think I’m gonna sleep now.." I said. Interrupting him who was talking.

He looked at me confused and then nodded slowly, "Is my story boring?" He asked then, I immediately turned to him. He looked at me with that fucking puppy eyes. Oh God, hello? Are you seducing me or something?

"Of course not! It’s just that because of the wind from the hairdryer make me sleepy, I finished a bottle of wine in no time too.." I’m looking for an excuse, I don’t care if it makes sense or not, I have to leave here immediately otherwise I’ll do something to him.

"I’ll take care of everything, come on, you should rest too." I offer my hand, he pout and I could tell he was annoyed. He still wanted to talk to me a little longer but I can’t. I just want to save you from my dirty mind, Shiloh..

I walked past his room after go to the kitchen, I walked into his room and sat beside the bed. I had only left him for thirty minutes and now he was asleep. I chuckled, he looked so peaceful while sleeping. He was pouted just because I interrupted him while he was talking, I felt bad but I was sure he had to sleep soon.

Sometimes he acts like a child, but sometimes he acts like an adult. He was stuck alone and didn’t interact with many people for too long.

I watched his sleep face. How long have I been doing this? I loved looking at him when he was asleep, when I first brought him home he slept for a week. In his sleep he was delirious of many things, his body seizured many times, his coughing and vomiting did not stop either. I’m not sure he’ll live.

His condition reminded me of my little brother, Joshua. What happened to Joshua left a clear mark of trauma on me, which is why Father and Cross felt that saving and keeping Shiloh by my side would only worsen my situation. I can’t help it, the closer I get to Shiloh the more I don’t want to lose him.

"Gruvv, stop thinking about anything else and just admit it you like him."

I chuckled, my hands touching his face, running down his cheeks with my fingers.

"That’s right, this is serious problem. I might falling for you, Shiloh. What am I supposed to do? Even I can’t blame the pheromones because it’s not because of it. I falling because it’s you."