DESTINED MATE : SWEET ALPHA PHEROMONE
Chapter 16 - GRUVV’s POV

Chapter 16: Chapter 16 - GRUVV’s POV

I throw up until only water that came out from my mouth, my body trembled and I felt so cold, my head ached. I’m sweating. This feeling is so familiar, tightness in my chest like it’ll kill me anytime.

"Gruvv, Gruvv!" Andrew called me, pulled me from the toilet to the bed room. He pulled me hard and let me sit on the floor, I tried to take a breath.

"Damn it! Gruvv! Come back!" Andrew squealed, I looked at him and my body stopped shaking for a while.

"S...Shiloh.." I said in the midst of my breath.

Andrew put the medicine in my mouth, "Swallow it, swallow it!" He begging, I can feel his hands trembling while holding my mouth closed. I tried to swallow it.

My head were so packed and noisy inside, Shiloh’s reflection just coming, his blood-soaked hands were still in my head. I close my eyes, I can feel the tears flowing. It feel like I was in a room without doors and windows, the room was suddenly filled with the water, and it was getting full by now. It was so tight, make me so hard to breathe.

"Gruvv, please, Gruvv!" I can hear Andrew’s voice vaguely.

I opened my eyes and was surprised, the sunlight had turned yellow. It’s already night. I got out of bed and ran out of the room, I went to Shiloh’s room. I can hear the clatter of my own feet running desperately. I begged that nothing would happen. When I opened his room, no one was there.

"Shiloh! Ave! Ave!" I squealed loudly upstairs, I can’t think straight, I want to see Shiloh. I went down the stairs hurriedly when I met Andrew on the second floor.

"Gruvv!"

"Andrew! Shiloh! Shiloh!"

Andrew grabbed my arms, "Calm down, he’s fine. Shiloh, he is safe."

I fell on the steps, my heart is beating fast and my body slowly stopped shaking.

"What happened?" I asked later.

Andrew sighed, he asked me to enter the room on the second floor. They moved Shiloh to another room because his room was full of blood, also because Andrew had monitor him and Shiloh’s body had an overreaction of other Alpha pheromones they delude it. When I came in, the room was like a nest. The bed where Shiloh is now lying, my clothes are stored there, all around him.

"We using your clothes to cover mine and the hospital staffs pheromones. We’re not Dominant Alphas so our pheromones not really strong, we’re doing this because I don’t have much time looking for just Omega. Your clothes are useful for cover our pheromones." He explained.

I walked closer to the bed. Shiloh still closed his eyes, his snow-white skin looked even paler, I held his hand. It’s cold. I remove the blanket that covered his hand, his wrist was already bandaged.

"He tried to end his life, do you know why?" Andrew asked, crossing his arms.

I nodded slowly, "Last night I told him that he was the guarantor of his father’s debt. He had a panic attack but it was much better when I left him alone." I said.

"It looks like he did that because he’s under a lot of stress, the wound wasn’t so deep but he lost a lot of blood. He’s been receiving donors since morning, I hope he’ll be much better tomorrow."

I nodded again, my fingers stroking his face. He looks so weak.

"Gruvv, are you sure you’ll continue to make him part of your therapy?"

I turned to Andrew, "Didn’t you say he was the right person for that?"

Andrew sat a little away from Shiloh’s bed and let out a long sigh, "He is indeed a suitable person for that. But I didn’t know he also had poor mental health, today he triggered your biggest fear. I’m afraid this will make things worse for you."

I didn’t answer right away, I was still staring at Shiloh. I knew he had no place to go. What he does now, he will probably do it again in the future. But, I just need to be by his side, right? Like when I saved him from Madam Rose, I just need to save him again.

I can save him.

"Don’t think you can save him." Andrew interrupted my thoughts.

I let go Shiloh hand, I walked over to Andrew and sat down next to him.

"You read my mind?"

"I can figured it out, it’s obvious on your face. But, please don’t think so. You still need help, too. You can’t save him if you’re still struggle with your own problems." Said Andrew.

His words hit me hard enough. I know very well, Shiloh is very unstable. His body even almost suffered a breakdown due to the sleeping pills that he constantly take, he also had an incurable disease just because he loved someone so deeply. He is so fragile like a glass that it easily breaks into pieces.

"I want Shiloh being part of my therapy, I think only him who can smell my pheromones differently. He said, I smell like Tangerine. Sweet Tangerine. When I told Joshua and Cross, they laughed. But I think what Shiloh said that night were words I’d wanted to hear for a long time."

Andrew turned to me, "The fact that you smell sweet?"

I chuckled softly and shake my head, "Don’t be stupid, I was touched not because he said I smelled sweet, he told me that my pheromone calmed him down."

Among the many of Alpha pheromones that made him get seizure and scared, my pheromone was the only one that calmed him down.

My life should have been over when Ford died in front of me and I could no longer smell the pheromones. My life ended that day and now I’m just living it, but when Shiloh said that I feel like something in my chest.

"Do you think I can be much better, Andrew? I means, do you think I can smell the pheromones again?"

The words made Andrew’s eyes round, I knew he was surprised. He’s been my family doctor for so long, for the last twelve years he’s been following the progress of my illness, this is the first time I have any hope of getting well and getting back to normal.