Cunning General Si Ning
Chapter 265: Cry Out

Chapter 265: Cry Out

"I do not know, maybe dead, scattered and alive, I am not so sure." Song Feng admitted. "I was able to escape with you amidst the confusion, do you remember how you fought before they rained those poisonous arrows, your men protected you but an arrow pierced your hand and I was also hit, it was the pills you gave me that I kept in my waist pouch that saved us as your men helped us crawled out of the pit."

So it was Ah Dai’s pill that saved them.

Surprisingly Si Ning could think upright, he remembered watching the arrows raining down and how he summoned all his strength and stood up to cut down all the arrows directed at him because he couldn’t lie there and do nothing, he remembered how Song Feng ran to him desperately asking if his head that was bleeding was okay, how his wounded men crawled, jumped to covered him while they told him to escape as their enemies shoot arrows on them yet his men also attack their attackers with bows and arrows, some threw some daggers, swords hitting their targets, the confusions of a large number of the Xilie troops falling into the pit after a hit, Song Feng and Si Ning had to escape but after sustaining an injury from the arrows that were dipped in the same poison he suffered at the hands of Yang Sheng, he collapsed, that was all he could remember.

Si Ning closed his eyes in pain. "I have to kill him, that bastard Ge Liang and Qiu Bai." He announced as he coughed but his eyes were blazing with so much willpower that Song Feng even first leaned back. "Where is the map, where... is.." He struggled to his feet and stood up as he staggered yet he took another step forward.

"Stop this madness you have to go meet the rest at the end of the Blossoms trees remember?" Song Feng said quickly as he caught Si Ning that was about to fall.

Si Ning’s hair at some part was stained with blood and stuck together due to the blood, his amour was gone, his cloth was stained, his face pale, his mouth was stained with traces of dark foul blood and he looked so tired that anyone could tell he wasn’t looking well and wasn’t in a position to fight because his appearance could tell that he could barely hold a sword.

Si Ning doesn’t understand what Song Feng was saying, was Song Feng telling him to forgive them? To give up on his revenge? The pain in his heart, his heart that was hurting so much couldn’t just get well by giving up, he couldn’t turn back time to correct everything he accepted his reality yet Song Feng just told him to run with his tails between his legs to the end of the Blossom trees and show his defeated face to the survivors of his army, what was even the probability that they were alive as far as it seems they might all be facing some dangers too so he couldn’t waste time waiting for them before heading for Ge Liang, he was the great General Si Ning and the Empress of Xiu yet Ge Liang and Qiu Bai toyed with him, reducing him to a pathetic version of himself he never knew existed.

"No, I am going to me..et Qiu Bai and Liang! I must kill them!" Si Ning said firmly to show he was going to stand by his word as he started looking around with a confused expression his eyes fell on Song Feng’s hands hoping to see a map and that was when he noticed Song Feng was holding his sword, the sword scabbard must have been lost because his sword was bare, stained with little blood due to the blood that was unable to slide off the stainless steel.

That would do.

Si Ning might not have his bow anymore but his sword would do, he raised his hand as a gesture for Song Feng to hand the sword over to him immediately, he could almost see himself cutting off Ge Liang and Qiu Bai’s heads with his sword.

"Look at me, Si Ning! Look at me!" Song Feng yelled, he placed the sword on the floor far from Si Ning’s reach and held Si Ning’s shoulder, he shook him a little just to force Si Ning to divert his gaze from looking at the sword to him. "Look at me, you have to stop, your men lost their lives for us to escape, you can’t throw it away, I am wounded and still losing blood, you are wounded and I have not been able to treat you properly and you might have also suffered a concussion to the head, your rage, your anger, let it sink and rest to plan for another time after meeting the others at the end of the Blossom trees."

Si Ning had no intention of going to the end of the Blossoms trees, he made sure to let it sink in Jiang ChenMu and Shang Jin’s heads for them to meet at the end of the day yet he was going against his words. "No!" He yelled and coughed some more, his voice was terribly raspy. He started shaking all over like ice water was suddenly poured on him.

"They... Xilie killed my mother, the...y the..y they dis..played her head.." He explained with desperation for Song Feng to understand why he must kill the two men and why he couldn’t go to regroup because as they were talking his enemy might be getting away. His eyes were hollow and empty as he stared at Song Feng hoping he got him.

"I know." Song Feng replied as he guided Si Ning to kneel because Si Ning was breathing hard almost panting with sweat sliding over his face and when Si Ning finally fell to the ground, Song Feng knelt in front of him.

"Th..ey atta..ck my home, killed.. my.. men.. the p..it.. my mother.. Yanyu.every.one... dea..d in.. th..e house" Si Ning stuttered, his hands shaking as he raised his head just to demonstrate how he met corpses in the Si residence, his mouth quivering. "I... ha..ve to ki..ll them... I...Song Feng.. I..."

Song Feng grabbed Si Ning’s shaky hands and held them tightly, his eyes filled with pain as he watched how Si Ning was struggling to keep his emotions in check. "Shiiiiii...." He hushed as he drew Si Ning close to hold his quivering body.

Si Ning tried to get away from Song Feng’s hold but this time around he was too weak and couldn’t get free. "Get off Song Feng! You dare..." He started shaking as he coughed even spitting out blood.

"You can’t hold it in any longer, you have to cry Si Ning, it is me here, just me." Song Feng said as he drew back to look deep into Si Ning’s eyes.

"No!" Si Ning hit Song Feng’s chest but his blow was weak like it was a year old child punching someone.

Song Feng grabbed Si Ning’s hand to make him to stay still. "Yes Si Ning, crying is not a sign of weakness, you need to cry sometimes because keeping the pain in and bottling it up is never an option, it breaks your body from within so when you are sad it is okay to cry." Song Feng told Si Ning. "You are strong, you are the strongest person I ever know but you cannot be strong all the time like cases like this, if you haven’t been hit by the arrow you would have fought to your last breath but I didn’t allow that, I took you and ran so the least I can do is to offer you a shoulder to cry on."

Just like a wounded lion, Si Ning started to break bit by bit, his face showing a series of sad expressions, his eyes so sad like a man that just lost everything, his shoulders hung down like a defeated lion and he finally crumbled as he cried out like he was finally letting out all the pain. Song Feng held his head and drew Si Ning close, letting Si Ning cry on his chest and at that moment Si Ning let out all the pain, the agony he had been suppressing of losing his mother, losing his sanity that led to his men’s death, he wailed loudly as tears ran down his face and he cried for a very long time, he cried like he had never cried before that Song Feng even joined him at some point but he only let his tears to fall silently.

"I love you." Song Feng said as he drew back to see Si Ning’s face that was stained with tears, he doesn’t look like a person with power, he looked just like a child in pain and he wanted to take all the pain away, he doesn’t like how he looked dead, how he looked like he was about to fall and turn to dust and at that moment Song Feng leaned forward and his lips met Si Ning’s lips.