BLOOD LEGACIES
Chapter 95: Emotions

Chapter 95: Emotions

"There’s nothing to talk about mom," I said, using the other towel to dry my hair and walking to the other corner of the room.

"Really?" she began hands on her waist. "You come home covered in blood and you expect me to think ’nothing’ to talk about?"

"I was hunting" I clarified placing my hand on the wall and a space opened revealing my walk-in closet. I really don’t wanna talk with anyone right now, I didn’t feel like it, staying alone with my thoughts was what I needed, but my mom never seemed to understand that fact, she will push through in her motherly way to get answers, answers I don’t think I can give and words I don’t think I commune.

"In an unrefined way, Dace, which could only mean something is bothering you"

I noticed her shifted tone which made me flinch, but I chose to ignore it, I really didn’t want to talk. Maybe my silence will push her away, she should give up, but trust my mom to always surge through.

"I’m worried about you okay, I have never seen you like this before,"

She was right I have never been like this before, I don’t let things bother me, neither do I need to worry, I lived a life of solemnity, I could already tell the kind of people anyone was with just a scent so I need not engage in any talk, I can have what I want, be with whom I wanted, but right now the strong feeling of vulnerability was breaking that fact about myself.

"Is this because of the human girl?"

I stepped out wearing just loose white sweatpants, our gazes locked, I hated when that happened, she always seemed to see right through me whenever that occurred and it made me vulnerable, I hated feeling that way, well that was all I feel right now.

I looked away sitting on my bed, my gaze to the floor, I heard her sigh before taking a seat beside me.

"Cub?"

She wasn’t having it that I wanted to be alone, it will always be the same.

"It’s always about her", a truth and a fact I have come to realize ever since I met Emma, my eyes back to her. "I don’t think I can let her go"

What I saw back at her place was breaking me, it was hurting me but I chose to conceal it, but I don’t think I can hide it from my mom.

She narrowed her eyes like she was trying to make sense of what I just said. "You have to, she’s not the one for you" she shook her head.

They all kept saying that, and it made my body explode within me.

"When you find your female, your lioness, then all this will fade. I understand you, Dace, you feel something for her but don’t you think when the time comes and you have to really let go..." she paused. "You will shatter the poor girl because you have given her false hope"

I shook my head because no matter how much her words communed in and gave me that hasty reminder of the reality of our relationship, it was hard to accept, when I find my female, will it all be gone? Will I no longer feel anything for her? The touch, her scent, her looks, her voice, her sweet sounds, will all that be directed to another woman?

"Your dad understands this too, which is why he never accepted this"

"If she wasn’t human none of you would be saying this right now, if she bears my..." I paused, she was reaching for me but I was up on my feet.

"But she does not, we cannot constantly remind you of this, cub"

I shifted my gaze to her, it was prolonged and she stared into my very soul with it.

"No matter how much I wanna shock a ’Yes’ to that I can’t find the right way to do that" I began. "Whenever I’m around her I feel consumed, I feel something spark within me, I feel like I’m in a reach of something extraordinary, just a mere distance away I feel like I may lose my mind or my senses because I seek that closure, and if I can’t have it I don’t know what will become of me"

She takes in my words not uttering one word with her widened eyes directed at me. I’m very certain she could understand the honesty in my words.

"I’m possessive, I’m wild when it comes to her, and I’m at my brawl if I can’t have her"

She opened her mouth to speak but I was fast.

"My female or not I know what I feel and it’s hard to ignore because my life until now has been a dream... she’s the one who makes it real"

Those were purely my affections for Emma, I have only known her for a few months but It felt like a lifetime and it also felt like a reality washed upon me. I have never desired someone like this before, not until I met her.

"This is a mistake"

I backed her. "I know"

"Do you intend to disobey your father? Do you intend to destroy the chance of finding your female, your future, for her?"

"I know she deserves better and not someone like me..." I pictured our last encounter, and for me to be in all honesty right now, she will always be scared of me deep within even though she doesn’t show it.

She was young, young to choose from what she wants and young to let go of what she wants and I wasn’t an exception.

I heard my mom approach me from behind.

"If you know that I’m certain you will come to a decision" I heard her retreating footsteps and then the slam of my door.

My mind was messed up, so many thoughts swirling in my head, how can I think of what’s best when I wasn’t even in the right state of mind?