Alpha Damon's Greatest Regret
Chapter 62- Atonement

Chapter 62: Chapter 62- Atonement

DAMON~

He remained quiet, his face stoic and expressionless as he let out a puff of smoke, filling the air with its earthy smell, I wondered what was on his mind, he seemed to know everything that had been going on in my life yet I didn’t know shit about him.

"So you wanna be part of the lil man’s life." He finally spoke up.

"Yeah," I replied leaning against one of the many tables that the bushes were placed upon.

"My opinion doesn’t really mean shit, you do what you wanna do, she does what she wanna do, it’s all up to the both of you." He said then fixed his eyes on me.

"I’m really trying to change, you know that right."

"Of course, you won’t be here if you weren’t but that’s not the point." He said calmly, I pushed myself off the table.

"Then what is?"

"What if she doesn’t want you in her life? Have you thought about that, The life of an alpha is dangerous, and bringing her and the boy into that is putting them in danger."

"I’m gonna protect them."

"That’s selfish as fuck."

"I’m not gonna force her."

"No but if you succeed you’re gonna make her leave her life, one she’s comfortable in by the way, and come into something that’ll make her a target for all your enemies."

"That’s not gonna happen," I argued.

"Do you know how found her?"

"No."

"You led me to her, she’d done such a good job of erasing herself and you put her back on the map."

"That’s just you."

"If I could find her, I bet you others can." He replied.

"You mean Simon," I said realizing the source of his worry.

"Of course I do. The one who got you on your tippy toes."

"I can handle him."

"You are underestimating him aren’t you."

"You think I don’t know he’s a threat!" I responded defensively.

"It’s clear he’s s threat you don’t just know what kind of threat he is!" He yelled at me.

"And you tell me the kind of threat he is?"

"I kind of you don’t want to know where she lives."

"I’m being careful."

"You’re not, you’re being selfish and stupid." He replied coldly, my fist tightened, he was infuriating, I wanted to punch him but something in me knew he was right.

"Simon is my problem, and I’ll solve it," I said, he leaned back and his feet tightened as if fighting back something he desperately wanted to say.

"What?"

"He approached me." He said quietly.

"Who?" I asked, already knowing the answer to my question.

"Simon." My heart sank.

"What did he want?"

"He wanted me to hand over control?"

"Did you?"

"I had to."

"Bullshit!"

"I had to! I know you’re ok with taking your people to war but I’m not. I built this place to give a home to people who didn’t have one, if Simon can do the same then I won’t stand in his fucking way."

"Coward." I spat angrily.

"No, I’m a leader, not an Alpha, a leader, I promised to lead them so I will without my judgement getting obscured by pride or prejudice." He explained and I was lost for words.

"I wish I could make that decision too," I said under my breath, he turned his head to me.

"I wish I could fight," Jermaine said, his tone defeated.

"Why? Wars aren’t fun."

"Neither is losing something you built with your own hands. Honestly, I wanted to fight but I couldn’t put my people through that so I gave it up, I ain’t gon let you do the same."

"What do you mean?"

"My people might be with him but like I said I’ll always have your back," Jermaine said, his words still void of emotion.

"Thanks, man." I said quietly as my eyes roamed around the room then back to him "What I did was fucked up, and I don’t have or want to have an excuse."

"What are you talking about?" He asked.

"That night, I was using my age as an excuse but it really isn’t, whether you’re a kid or an adult, a fuck up is a fuck up and I got to own up to mine."

"Words ain’t shit."

"I know." I stepped back and took off my shirt "So lemme atone physically."

"The fuck you mean?"

"You’re still angry, So take it all out on me," I answered.

"Put that shirt back on."

"No, I fucked you over, no matter how many times I apologize it’s not gonna make up for that, But you’re still angry so I need you to take it out, all of it."

"I dont—"

"Let’s squash this beet now Jermaine, no mask be you, be you, be angry." I pushed.

"Anything I do to you is just gonna heal." He yelled

"It won’t, at this point, my healing is a little bit better than humans, a small cut would take days to heal, so do it, let this be the consequence of my actions." He was taken aback before his fist tightened up and he looked at me.

"Are you sure?" He asked.

"Yeah," I answered, he nodded and walked to my front.

"Let it all—" Before I could finish he slammed his fist into my face, I skidded backward, disoriented by the sudden blow.

"Fuck." I said as I wiped away the blood that trickled down the side of my mouth.

"I didn’t—" His fist slammed my jaw sending me crashing against one of the tables, as I tried to stand up he rushed at me and pulled me by my collar then without a shred of mercy he began pounding into my face till he eventually pushed me back but still he didn’t give me space as he stepped towards me and delivered body shot after body shot till I fell to my knees and coughed our an unreasonable amount of my own blood.

"Fuck." I cursed under my breath as I realized he was just getting started.