The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 445: Pain before reward

Chapter 445: Pain before reward

Alanis

Another week passes by and the pain is even worse. I have been trying to stay strong because I know how much this is affecting Beau. He has been all over the place because of this. He hasn’t been able to focus on the pack, he hasn’t been able to focus on anything but me. I see it in his eyes, the fear, and the worry.

It’s hard for me to stand there and watch him like this.

I wish I was able to control it. I wish I was able to stay strong for him but it feels like my insides are being ripped out. "Hey,’’ he caresses my hair as I take deep breaths to control my sudden urge to vomit.

He has been by my side the entire day, I have a feeling he won’t leave until this is over. I wish he would because it hurts him to see me like that and I just want it to end because I want him to stop worrying, I want this to just be over with.

He kisses my forehead and I close my eyes as I lay down on the bed. We are in the infirmary. Alby thought it would be best to keep me here because according to him, I am close.

I don’t know how this is going to happen. I still don’t understand the biological aspects of the problem, but with every jolt in pain, I feel like my bones are breaking. There is no space inside my body for them anymore, I feel them piercing into my lungs. I can’t breathe properly. It seems like all my organs are being crushed inside my body.

I am scared.

"I am here,’’ Beau says and wipes my hair out of my face. ’’ I know this is hard for you. I wish I could take the pain away from you.’’ he kisses my forehead and the pain comes back worse than ever. I feel like I am suffocating. I can’t get enough air to fill my lungs. I can’t take this anymore. I can’t take the pain. I can’t, I just can’t.

’’ I can’t do this,’’ I say and hold my stomach. My body is shaking and everything is getting blurry. I feel like I am dying. I can’t take this. I see Beau’s face, he is uncertain. I know he wants to leave me and go get help but he never lets go of me. The door opens and Ogma walks in with a worried expression on her face "You are not in labor, the babies are just growing too fast,’’ she tells us as she examines my body.

’"How long is it going to take to get the babies out, I don’t think he can hold out much longer,’’ Beau asks her, his voice shaking.

"I am sorry, but I can’t tell you how long because this is new to me. Those babies are not ready yet. We can’t bring them out until they are.

I shake my head because this is too much for me. I want to be strong and brave, I signed up for this but the pain is excruciating. It is a lot more than I signed up for. A lot more than I can handle. I am scared. I have never been this scared before.

Beau puts his hand on my cheek and looks into my eyes, his eyes have water in them. I am tearing up too. I know he is scared too but he is trying to be strong for me.

"Alby is working on something to help you with the pain, he will be here in a couple of minutes. You just have to hold on and be strong,’’ she tries to encourage me but it is not working.

The pain is too much. ’’I am scared,’’ I admit and tears stream down my face.

"I know,’’ he says as he pulls me closer to me. His hand is on my stomach, and somehow it makes it a little better.

"Beau,’’ I say and look into his eyes.

"Yes baby,’’ he says, wiping my tears away.

"I am scared,’’ I tell him and he wipes my tears and kisses my forehead.

"I know baby, I am too but it’s going to be okay. We are going to have babies and everything is going to be fine,’’ he says, trying to convince himself more than me. Ogma walks out of the room and leaves me alone with him.

I close my eyes because I don’t even have the strength to keep them open anymore. I am breathing heavily as I try to control the pain. I think about the reward for all this pain, I think about all the good that will come out of this. Their faces are engraved in my memory. The bond I have with them. The future in my dreams. It will all make this worth it.

I have to keep being strong because the family that I would have with him will be worth it. We will be a family and that is all that matters.

"Alby is here,’’ I hear Beau say. I open my eyes and see Alby standing next to him. I look at him.

"I need to give you something to make the pain go away,’’ he tells me and I nod my head because I am unable to say anything. He walks over to me and looks at Beau. ’’I want you to hold her hand and don’t let go.’’

I hold his hand and he strokes my stomach. ’’We are going to do this together okay,’’ I nod my head.

Alby hands me a shot and then he injects my stomach. ’’This is going to hurt really badly, but it is only temporary. It will give you a chance to breathe and rest from the pain. You will be asleep, but it won’t last long, maybe an hour or two.’’

I don’t even know what pain is worse, the babies or whatever the fuck he just gave me. Beau holds me tightly because I almost want an escape but before I can even react to it, I feel the light slipping from my eyes as I fall into a numb sleep.