SILVER-HEART
Chapter 82: Confinement

Chapter 82: Confinement

It’s been three days and it has been nothing but repeat... Eat, bathe, and bed.

I can’t walk properly, so there was a bathtub that was brought in and kept at the corner of the room... one enough to size me in, and Elvenia would gently scrub my body even though I made attempts to stop her. But I couldn’t do it without my constantly shaking body.

But I cannot let her feed me too... so like a routine, I would waste food instead of getting it into my stomach. At least I would be able to do something other than be a doll.

Because that was what I felt like, like a glass ready to break...

I tried asking questions but Elvenia wouldn’t let me speak, constantly telling me my voice needs to heal.

Everything was difficult

My mind was a haze

My thoughts are a mess

I just tried to focus on my body but I can’t...

I just stared at the ceiling once again, in bed. Thinking about the horrific encounter I went through, the harder I thought about it the more I felt like I was being eaten alive, figuratively and literally.

But in spite of all of this, my pain and quivering body, all I could think about was William.

I can’t remember clearly what happened after that day but I was certain William saved my life, if it wasn’t for him I would be dead.

I want to see him... but he hasn’t come. I tried asking Elvenia who was the only person I have set my eyes on for three days but my cracking voice won’t let me, it took so much of my power just to speak.

And just like that a month passed...

A repeat of eating, sleeping, and bathing. At least now I can hold my sponge properly without it falling off my hand from my vigorous shaking, I can take more steps without panting. Elvenia was helpful, I would do a little exercise where she would tell me to walk to a point in the room without stopping.

At least now I was able to do so without tripping.

I was able to eat and hold my spoon without wasting food, its progress... but my body didn’t stop the quivering ticks.

Elvenia told me my muscles and bones were healing, that in due time I would be fine, and that I would retrain my steps and hand to get my body working properly.

And my voice? I could make sentences quite well, so it was time to ask my questions without hesitation and the first word that came to my mouth was...

"William"

Elvenia halted her actions instantly and faced me with her usual stern expression, but I could feel an understanding.

"He saved me?"

"Yes, young miss"

"M-My body..." I shivered. "It was..."

"He healed you"

"H-How?"

She was silent and I bit my bottom lip.

"How long will I stay here?"

"Until you heal"

"B-But I feel fine now and-"

She shook her head, cutting me off. "I have specific instructions to care for you until you’re fully well"

So confinement?

"This is his chambers... and yet" I couldn’t even stop my voice from breaking and I didn’t mind, I was sad and hurt that I hadn’t seen him. "... and he hasn’t come"

She looked to the side and I took my time to study her features. She looked tired and there were bags under her eyes. I wonder when was the last time she slept.

Elvenia has taken care of me in the past month, there with me every minute of the day. The little thing I had to do she was there to help, I know she didn’t like me and it was her duty but...

"Young miss?"

I sniffed as the tears fell nonstop before I could control them.

"T-Thank you"

I noticed she froze and her eyes went wide.

"Y-You have been here for me, thank you"

I pulled my knees to my chest and allowed myself to cry, I needed a release because it was all pent up. Over the month I was so focused on getting my body to heal that I neglected my own emotions and now it came off like a wave.

My cries weren’t one of pain but of relief.

"The master..."

I heard her and I raised my teary eyes to her orbs. They were sad and it caught me off guard, this was the first time I have seen her look worried.

"He’s..." she stopped herself again and her lips pressed in a thin line.

"Get some rest Young miss, good night," she said so quickly and turned on her heels the doors slamming shut behind her leaving me alone in solitude again.

I wasn’t so sure how much solitude I can take, I might lose my mind.

So I swung my legs off the bed and slowly walked to the door. I took sharp breaths and grabbed the door knob but it didn’t budge.

I was locked in

Confinement

Left to heal

I turned my back on the door and leaned against it before sliding down to sit on my butt. How long will I stay here?

Will I see Severus or Sophia again? gods I miss them and more importantly... I miss William so bad that my heart ached.

A part of me wants to be mad at him for not coming to see me for a whole month, but another part of him doesn’t know how to face him. I broke his promise and wandered alone and got myself in a horrifying incident. I have never stopped blaming myself since the day I woke up, constantly telling myself if I had stayed with William’s head on my lap running my hands in his wonderful hair I wouldn’t be in this condition.

I hate myself

I blame myself

gods I miss him... why haven’t he come to see me? Why can’t I go to him?

I remembered Elvenia’s expression when I asked about William and I could feel it, something was wrong.

In a contender of my mind and regret I darted my eyes to a curtain and I blinked as realization struck me.

There’s a door behind that curtain...