SILVER-HEART
Chapter 51: Purpose

Chapter 51: Purpose

I’m a distraction to William, he was an important figure in history that kept the knowledge of the entire universe balanced... there was so much to be done and yet I was causing a distraction to him?

I pulled my knees to my chest, maybe I am... a distraction to William’s life. He has done so much for me even though he didn’t do them directly sometimes but I could proudly say he has done enough. He sheltered me and he sealed the power of my voice so that I could speak, sealed the power of my eyes so that I would gaze upon him and he also taught me a very important lesson in life. He also saved my life when I thought I would be burnt to death by my own aura... so much and yet...

If only there was something I could do for him too... but I wasn’t so sure there was ANYTHING at all.

I buried my face on my knees feeling downhearted and like a nuisance, it was hard to shrug this feeling off for it hurts but it was nothing but the truth, I was too dumb to see it. All my life I have either been a curse or an omen but now I was a nuisance for something great and yet I was a bride to him.

I raised my head, a bride... I quickly crawled out of bed and rushed to the majestic mirror close to the window. I stared at myself, the last time I let myself gaze upon the mirror and hate what I saw was back in the mortal realm, I was a total skeleton... hair that looked like the skin of a rat, pale skin like I was sickler and my eyes were dull with no life and no feeling to it... but now what I saw was completely different...

I stood with attractive wavy brown hair stopping at waist length, a light brown color, silky and smooth as I ran my hand through it, and flawless, brown eyes full of life, and my skin was not overly pale but had a little color to it. I was purely alive and it has all happened ever since I came here, this place wasn’t my doom but a blessing.

A smile found my lips too, William was my salvation too... he was the reason I still got to exist in this world, he was the only light I have... and the thought of being just a nuisance to him hurts me so deep that I felt like crying, my fist clenched on my nightgown. I want to be more than a nuisance to him. I don’t want to be the girl who was in desperate need of help in everything...

I want to support him as best as I can and be good to him, it was the least I could do. No, I shake my head, it is what I WANT to do. I have never had a purpose in life, I never thought the need to for I have never given much thought to my life before, but all that has changed for I need no longer long for death to take me but instead embrace life as William taught me, I want to be better, I want to build myself, half of my life I was never given the option to... But now I can do something.

I’m his bride and I shall become such and maybe more.

I heard the door spread open and I turned to it, my hair waving backward as I did. William walked through the doors just as I last saw him this morning, but he no longer had the bed hair. The moment he sauntered in and set his eyes on me I saw a greater light for my new purpose.

"Good evening, William," I said as a blush tainted my cheeks.

"Evening Ava," he said back to me. There were no affections to it but I have come to understand it.

"William" I began as I raised my gaze to his, he narrowed his eyes at me almost like he could sense something and I blushed, I slightly felt like an open book.

"Will you teach me to assist you better?"

He tilted his head to the side.

"I-I want to be a better bride to you"

"Where is this coming from?"

"Nowhere," I said looking to the side, having no intention of giving out why. "I’m just really grateful that you saved my life that’s all"

"I do not need appreciation for that Ava, I only did what needed to be done, I cannot see you suffer"

I turned my gaze back to him, it was the little things that matter... William might have thought he only said what his intentions were, but he had no idea his words were like a blessing to me, it was the best part about everything, so I smiled.

He blinked at my actions.

I cleared my throat as I walked to the bed, I could feel his eyes all over me as he watched my every move, and for a certain reason, it wasn’t all that uncomfortable. I slipped into the covers and opened a space and tapped it. "It’s late we should go to bed"

There was a pause, a long pause.

"Ava you’re acting strange,"

"No, I’m not"

"You should know this... I do not need sleep"

"Oh" I made a sound downhearted, there were so many things I didn’t know about him and it hurt but I knew I had to be patient if I needed to understand him.

"But you do feel tired"

"If necessary"

"You had used your aura to calm mine down... so that means you are, I can see your eyes look tired," I said, it was the first thing I noticed when he stepped in, no matter how he wanted to hide it I could see right through it, I could even sense his aura was slightly dim but it still stood out as powerful.

"Even if you do not need sleep, you can still sleep if you want to right?"

There was a minute of silence before he answered me. "Yes"

I grinned widely at him. "Then I think that answers it all" I tapped the space again. "Will you join me to bed William?"

He opened his mouth but for the first time ever no words came from him and I knew I got him right.

"You’re persistent"

"I want you to get your rest that’s all"

A sigh left him as he strode to the bed.

"I could maintain a space if you like... I know you might not want to be close for personal reasons" I said shifting further away. "But that doesn’t mean we can’t share the same bed right?"

He said nothing as he slowly undid the rope of his robe and took it off. I gasped, I truly thought he intended to sleep with it on but I guess not. I was once again blessed with his sinful bare chest, broad and flawlessly sculpted, I was gaping now, unable to take my eyes away.

"Do you still wish for us to sleep on the same bed?"

I trailed my eyes away from his chest to his face and there was clearly amusement there.

"I-I-If that is what makes you comfortable" I mumbled.

"Yes, it does," he said only as he slipped into the covers, the movement caused his long silver hair to move in all places, over his shoulder, falling on his chest and even spreading to the bed, it was a wonderful movement all at once, even as his muscles flexed too. Dear gods and I gulped loud enough for even him to hear.

"Ava?"

"Yes?" I snapped my eyes back to him, my heartbeat was pulsating as he stared at me quite intensely and I was suddenly feeling hot again.

"G-Good night William!" I panicked as I turned and laid down trying to calm my breathing, I noticed the lights in the room dimmed, and I knew it was William’s doing. I pulled the covers to my body and froze at that spot, not moving an inch. My body was reacting oddly and I had no idea why, this was not fear, this was something else.

I felt his hand hold my waist suddenly in a delicate manner and I flinched as that odd feeling overwhelmed me again.

"Your aura is getting too hot again," he says.

"I-"

"I shall cool you off"

I gasped as with a swift pull my back pressed against his chest and his arm gripped my waist tightly, I could feel his hold right under my nightgown where I wore nothing beneath.

"W-William," I said softly.

"Are you afraid, Ava? Your heart is thumping too fast"

He can hear my heartbeat?

"N-No I’m not" I admitted. "It’s just..." I gulped. "... Whenever you touch me I feel odd"

"It’s not an odd feeling, Ava"

He leaned to me and a sigh left me when I felt his breath against my neck.

"Your body is attracted to mine"

My heart slammed a heartbeat and I bit my bottom lip. "A-Are you attracted to me, William?"

There was silence but then he pressed his back against my body more and I felt his knee poking my back.

"This is what you’re doing to me"

"Y-Your knee?"

"That is not my knee"