Reborn as a Mind-Reading Empress
Chapter 84: Please Believe Me

Chapter 84: Please Believe Me

’My bad. He’s getting jealous and depressed.’

Since she was someone who had been in love twice in her life, she understood how much not being able to see your beloved makes you lonely.

She felt guilty for not feeling the same for Ferdinand yet, but she can’t force her own feelings.

’Did I act too coldly the other day?’

She realized she had to up her acting skills. She doesn’t have feelings for him yet, but she does see him in a better light now. And he had been so considerate to her.

’Should I kiss him back to make him feel better?’

But they were in her room, sitting on her bed. If she kissed him back now, Ferdinand would want to go all the way.

[If only it was so easy to hold back even when she’s so close to me, I would stay in the palace and kiss her like this every single day. At least she would remember I’m the one with her now and not think of her former lover all the time.]

’I’m not thinking of Andrew all the time!’

How would she make him understand that Andrew was no longer important to her?

She didn’t want to lie to him about this sort of thing and say she was already in love with him when she didn’t have the feelings yet. He would only get hurt more once he realizes she just lied.

"Arabella..." he cupped her face and gazed deep into her eyes.

"I know it must be hard to believe. Especially with the kind of reputation I have. I didn’t want to believe it at first either. But please believe me," he lightly hit his forehead to hers and stared at her even more closely.

’W-wait... What’s this? What’s he going to say?’

He was so close to her and his eyes were filled with so much emotion that her heart drummed so loudly like it wanted to get out of her chest.

"I have never felt this kind of emotion before. I’ve never yearned for someone so strongly. I just want to be by your side all the time. Day and night, you are all I could think about."

’Is he confessing right now?!’

Arabella couldn’t stop the heat from rising to her face. She never got to hear these words from Ferdinand before so hearing it now made her feel all sorts of emotions.

She tried to calm herself down but her heart kept beating so wildly.

[She’s so adorable with her cheeks flushed!]

Ferdinand kissed her again and got more intense. She had to wrap her arms around his neck or she would lose her balance and fall lying on the bed.

It would be a dangerous position if he was on top of her.

[!!!]

Ferdinand wrapped his arms around her tighter because of her actions.

He misunderstood it when she was just doing it to avoid getting pushed down on the bed.

[She’s not stopping me. Does this mean I can keep going?]

’I didn’t say that.’

He was just so depressed earlier but look at him now.

Ferdinand just said earlier that he would wait for her until she was ready but look at him kissing her so eagerly and strongly.

It was like he was asking her to consummate with him right now.

But she does understand him a bit better now to know he was just elated that she was willing to have children with him and that she was blushing after he said how he felt about her.

This was just the way he kisses. Always too earnest.

She barely had any experience in her previous life so she didn’t know much about kissing. And she fell for Ferdinand so soon so for her at that time, all his kisses were good.

But now, she knew he truly does need to improve how he kisses. He did lose in this aspect not only to Icarus but to Andrew as well and her other paramours in her previous life.

She was blushing madly at his confession earlier but his kissing ruined it.

Or her memories of the past did?

Even if she doesn’t think badly of Ferdinand anymore, her previous thought that Icarus was better in bed and a better kisser still holds true.

She cannot help but compare due to her memories of the past. It was a double-edged sword.

Moreover, the more Ferdinand kisses her not so skillfully, the more she thinks he never had intimate relationships before or they didn’t last.

She didn’t want to be so full of herself to conclude she was the only one he ever fancied though.

Ferdinand was an outstanding man after all.

He was much more open to change than she thought too.

All he needed were some pieces of advice ad lectures from Raymond to make him change his ways and try to communicate with her better.

He was no longer as cold as the Ferdinand in her previous life.

Once he was with her, he tried speaking out what he thought instead of just thinking about it silently.

And she couldn’t say she hated Ferdinand’s kisses either.

He doesn’t know how to kiss her gently and tenderly, but his kisses were always filled with raw desire.

It was charming and alluring how he was kissing her as if he was so desperate.

Like she was the only one he could see and feel every time he kissed her and nothing else mattered.

It was a wonderful feeling. She felt wanted and desired. But she wanted to go slow for now since they cannot consummate yet.

Moreover, Raymond would probably lecture him if he knew that Ferdinand only ever kissed her so needily.

Ferdinand’s kisses were for consummation.

It would be hot during or before sex but it wouldn’t be good if he only ever knew to kiss her like this as if they would be in bed shortly after.

He should at least know how to give pecks and light sweet kisses for when they were just showing affection without the plan to go further.

She still does need to teach him.

She can’t be receiving kisses like this all the time right?

’If he improved a bit...’ she blushed at the thought of Ferdinand kissing her much better than this.

’Should I make it his reward after everything was settled in Prudencia?’

She couldn’t just teach him how to kiss all of a sudden after all.

And the main problem when Ferdinand kisses her like this was this hard thing poking her right now.

He gets easily aroused to the point he would be getting terrible blue balls if she kept letting him kiss her like this all the time without going to the next step.

She couldn’t possibly just say, ’Let me help you.’

Ferdinand would be so shocked. She didn’t really mind helping him out since she had done so much more with him in her past life but it wouldn’t be good to break Ferdinand’s image of her so soon.

She had to at least spend a bit more time with him before she could help him with such things or he would think she was just forcing herself to do it because he was impatient.

And she was supposed to be an innocent princess. He might go to the wrong conclusions if she acted too knowledgeable in this matter.

"!!!"

Ferdinand gasped when he realized he had been kissing her too much and he had a raging arousal right now.

"I, I’m so sorry! I think I should go. I’ll see you later," he said and rushed out of her room and shut the door before she could even reply.

She could still hear his thoughts though since he stood right outside her door brooding over what he had done.

[What the hell was I doing again?! I just said I would wait until she’s ready but I... Why do I always end up losing my mind? I need to meditate. I have been lacking self-control lately.]

He had all sorts of thoughts before finally leaving to take care of himself.

Arabella sighed deeply and lie down on her bed. It felt so warm where his arms held her. She still had butterflies in her stomach from all his kissing.

He wasn’t skillful but he wasn’t that bad either.

’I’m not blushing at all!’ she tried to deny but the heat of her body couldn’t lie.

She wasn’t so innocent anymore to not know she was shaken. She was no stranger to bodily desires.

If he had continued and tried to consummate with her, she might have drowned and consummated with him.

’No! What am I thinking about?! I have to think of Fermin.’

She scolded herself repeatedly to not be swayed even if Ferdinand wants to do it soon.

She let her body cool down from all the heat from Ferdinand. She soon needed to wrap herself with her blankets though.

It was so warm in Ferdinand’s arms that she doesn’t even need the covers when he was sleeping beside her. But when she’s alone, she even has to add another layer to her blankets.

Still, she fell asleep again feeling so much better this time. And she dreamed of being on a date with Ferdinand in a place filled with amber-colored flowers. A place Ferdinand once thought he wanted to show her and she had a glimpse through his thoughts.