Reborn as a Mind-Reading Empress
Chapter 215: I Realized How Selfish I Had Been

Chapter 215: I Realized How Selfish I Had Been

Who would have thought hearing those words directly from his lips felt so nice?

She knew from the revelation in her dream that he loved her. And in this life, she first learned from Alwin and Raymond, that Ferdinand loved and cherished her.

Ferdinand and his thoughts and actions soon confirmed it. He did admit he liked her very much too. But didn’t directly say he loved her.

There was a difference between just liking someone compared to loving someone.

Arabella would have been fine with any of the two. But Ferdinand felt both of the two for her.

And he said it to her so directly today.

That he loved her.

Arabella felt heat rise to her face as his words repeated themselves over and over again inside her head.

It was embarrassing but Arabella did feel so delighted at hearing Ferdinand say those words to her.

She wanted to be able to respond to his feelings. But she wasn’t sure what she was feeling yet.

She knew she was beginning to like him, but she doesn’t know if she loves him already or not yet. She didn’t want to raise his hopes up only to not be able to be true to her words.

There were already things she could not tell him so she at least wanted to be honest in this matter so she would not hurt Ferdinand again.

Thus, she could only thank him now. Once she feels the same way too and she was sure about it, she would also tell him.

. . .

"It’s your turn to ask now," Arabella smiled at her husband.

Ferdinand hesitated for a bit before asking. He was apparently triggered by something after listening to her retell the story of the founding myth to Dimo.

He wanted to prove his love, be a good person to her, and try his best to make her love and accept him too like how it was in the founding myth.

Thus, there was something he wanted to tell her.

"Did you hate our wedding?" Ferdinand asked.

"Hate?"

Arabella blinked repeatedly and thought about it. She did not expect this question. But there was indeed a lot to be said about their wedding.

It was the day she suddenly realized she was reborn.

She glanced at her husband and he gulped nervously as he waited for her reply.

"I don’t think I hated the wedding itself. It was grand and all. But I can’t say I enjoyed it," she honestly replied and Ferdinand flinched.

"I mean, at that time, I was still scared of you. Your eyes were as cold as ice. You did not smile at me even once. And you seemed disinterested and bored in your own wedding. How could I possibly enjoy a wedding when not even my husband who proposed out of nowhere didn’t seem to enjoy it at all? There was not even the slightest bit of happiness in how you were behaving then," Arabella ended up blabbering.

Her head was still in the clouds and she didn’t think about her reply more deeply and just ranted about their wedding. But her words were honest.

"Oops. I’m so sorry," she covered her mouth when she realized Ferdinand turned pale.

"No. You were right. I should have tried speaking with you before our wedding. No, even before that," Ferdinand bit his lower lip. His eyes were filled with regret.

"Because royalty usually had political marriages, I thought it would be fine to just have you marry me that way without telling you about my feelings or talking to you at all. All I wanted was to make you mine as soon as possible," her husband admitted.

"I had been too rash and wanted a wedding so soon when we had not even spoken with each other alone. I only realized I may have made a mistake when I heard you eloped with someone else. And even then, what I wanted to do the most was kill him to ensure no one got in my way, instead of reflecting on my actions."

Arabella gulped. She did not expect Ferdinand would admit this now. It was indeed true that how their relationship began highly affected how she perceived him, especially in her past life since she did not know him at all.

She was able to accept him much easier now because of truth she learned about their past.

But if she hadn’t known that, she would have already parted ways with Ferdinand by now due to all the misconceptions and misunderstandings they had before.

Arabella gasped when Ferdinand kneeled all of a sudden and held both of her hands.

"F-Ferdinand, what are you doing? Go back to your seat."

"Ever since I realized how wrong I was, I had been wanting to say this. I’m so sorry I made you go through all that pain and suffering due to my selfishness," Ferdinand lowered his head.

He’s the Emperor. He shouldn’t be bowing and kneeling like this but he still did.

Ah, it was because for now, they were just another lady and gentleman.

Ferdinand looked up and searched her eyes when he did not here a reply.

"I’m truly sorry for everything I made you go through. It must have been hard having to accept it all regardless of what you wanted," he apologized yet again.

His eyes were so sincere.

Arabella gulped. She felt a lump in her throat and her chest tightened.

"After you spoke with Raymond and Alwin about divorce last time, I finally realized all the mistakes I had done. You were right to have wanted a divorce right from the start since you never wanted a marriage with me in the first place."

’I said those because I still didn’t know about the truth. Why did I go and say all those?!’ Arabella was at a loss for words.

"After Alwin and Raymond told me about the words you said, I realized now how selfish I had been. I did not even consider your feelings in the slightest. All I thought about was myself. I wanted to possess you just like everyone else was and ensure no one else got you. I did not consider what you wanted nor give you a choice at all."

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