My Dear Duke(BL)
Chapter 88: Obsessed

Chapter 88: Obsessed

Lucas immediately left the room as he didn’t want to hear them talking. So, he let the two take their time and left to see Anne who might be still awake and waiting. As the physician there, his statement might convince Anne more than Felix’s. So he went to see Anne and said Brother Ash was fine and he was just too tired. That did finally convince her and she seemed to calm down. That’s good.

"Duke...I am fine."

Asher said and watched as the duke stared at him, full of worry.

"...It’s good. Did Lucas give you new pills?"

Felix looked at the bottle rolled in Asher’s palm and asked which startled him.

"Ah-h...Yes."

Asher said, quite flustered.

So...next the duke would ask about it, right?

Whether he is a real omega or not? Or about why he lied...

However, the duke didn’t ask anything related to that.

So, Asher decided to just confess about his lies as he was so bothered by his own feelings.

He was nervous but not because he is going to get exposed but because he didn’t want to make the duke upset by revealing he lied to the duke.

He was disappointed but not because he will get exposed but because he couldn’t trust the duke back then and avoid all this talk.

He was scared but not because he was going to get exposed but because he didn’t want to see the duke angry after he had lied to the duke.

Now Asher knows he might be a people pleaser.

He wants to please the duke as much as he can and not upset him even a bit.

He felt guilty even though he shouldn’t be as he did all this to protect himself.

Knowingly the duke...he felt like the duke would be very disappointed to know Asher lied.

The duke talked about something so personal with Asher.

But he still did not confess his secret to the duke.

Would the duke think the way he thinks?

Would he be upset?

"I am sorry I lied."

Asher started off apologising. He didn’t dare to look at the duke and seeing the duke did not give any response either, Asher definitely didn’t dare.

"I faked the whole childhood incident. I was born like this. I’m a real omega. I lied to you, duke."

Asher slightly raised his head to look at the duke who seemed to stare at the ground, hiding his expression from Asher’s sight.

Was...he mad?

Asher now started getting nervous but continued still. He must do this. There was no going back now.

"I hope the duke will forgive me for lying."

Asher said but the duke was still silent.

’He is definitely angry.’.

Asher thought and stopped saying anything else. He shouldn’t provoke him more by saying more if he is really angry...

Soon, the silence took over the room.

Asher felt terrible...

He didn’t think he would be in this situation this early.

But he still knew, one day he would get exposed... but definitely not this soon.

Because of those damn cheap pills! Shit!

He should have searched more about them before buying and consuming them recklessly.

Asher was on the verge of tears. The silence had never felt so scary.

However, then he saw the duke finally raise his head. But his response was nothing like what Asher imagined or expected.

"Asher...I am sorry. It’s my fault you are now like this."

That’s what the duke had to say first when he finally raised his head to respond. Asher leaned closer to the duke, shaking his hands around, trying to convince the duke he should be saying any of that.

What was he sorry for?

He shouldn’t be sorry.

"No! Nothing is the duke’s fault! I was too lazy to care more and got the cheapest one and ended up like this."

Well...now, it turned out that both of them were talking about two different things.

"If I had known you were a real omega, I...would have been more careful. I was never nice to you so it’s my own fault you didn’t feel like telling me. It’s my fault I didn’t think things through and put you through this to take care of yourself alone after I was the one that pushed you to this."

"Duke...It’s not your fault things are like this. You didn’t know anything... And, I hid this important matter myself. It’s not for any of the reasons the duke said. Alas, I am fine now. So...If we could put this behind us, I can feel reassured."

"...You really feel fine now?"

"Yes duke."

"That’s good."

The duke sighed and said.

"Aa...Duke is not upset with me, right? I didn’t want to lie ab-"

"I am not. I can understand you. We were total strangers and I was no good anyway. Let’s just forget it."

"Thank you duke."

Asher said with a shaky voice. Thank god! He was so glad.

Soon, Asher found himself in a warm embrace, very pleasant to stay in as he closed his eyes, inhaling the familiar scent he seemed to feel excited about.

"I am glad it’s nothing serious. And...please don’t be scared to talk with me. I can be...nice too."

Asher heard the duke mumble and couldn’t help but smile, feeling a sense of satisfaction.

"Okay duke. I will definitely tell you if something is a problem."

The duke had been worrying about him...

It’s good to know someone was worrying about him.

It’s even more satisfying when he recalls this man is someone unreachable to him.

"Ah...Duke...but we have another problem."

Asher hesitantly said, but his arms still around the other’s waist and him still in the other’s embrace.

"What is it?"

The duke also didn’t move and asked.

"Aa...Sir Lucas said he is going to charge the duke for these pills. I don’t know if these are expensive. Tell him I can pay h-"

"No need. I will pay for them. This is all because of me anyway."

"No...They are for me so..."

"I will pay for them. Don’t worry about it anymore. I can afford to pay him, do you not trust me?"

"Haa...I know the duke is rich. Bu-"

"If you know I am rich, then why are you even worrying about this?"

Asher in the end, realised both sir Lucas and the duke seemed to have the same opinion about who should pay. So, feeling defeated, he closed his eyes as the man’s breath fell on his neck, making Asher feel he was not so lonely anymore.

This noble man was there, hugging him.

It’s good to have attention.

This... Asher couldn’t describe the gratitude he felt at that moment.

He wants to be like this forever.

Close to the duke, worrying about each other and helping each other.

It’s a selfish thought.

But he felt no guilty about it anymoe.

He knew now.

He finally knows what it feels to be close to someone other than his mother and uncle.

He never had another person to care about him this much. Even hugging him like this.

This must be what it means to have friends.

He never had friends before and had no idea what it felt like to have one.

But it must be what he is feeling right now.

He wants to keep this man close to him like this. He wants to get hugged like this without asking, having to feel this sense of gratitude, wanting to keep holding onto him...forever.

He wants to be worthy and good in his eyes.

He wants attention, he wants caring words, he wants his touch and he wants this whole man.

’This must be how having a friend feels since I now see him as a close person. I like him alot.’

Asher felt his stomach tingle, his heart beating like crazy, his eyes tearing, his nose following the duke’s scent, his mind lost in his feelings...

He was obsessed.

He was so happy.

Like never...