It's Just A Picture (BL)
Chapter 161: Yes, it’s selfish thoughts indeed but ...

Chapter 161: Yes, it’s selfish thoughts indeed but ...

"Hyung, every time I see you smiling and laughing at others, I just want to take you home, lock you up, and fuck you raw and deep till all you can think of is nothing but my cock. Morning, noon, and night in every place in my apartment. That’s just all I can think of when you pick up the camera. I don’t want you to stare or look at anyone. Just me."

Those were the words Seojun whispered in Dongwoo’s ears, which made him flush heavily.

"Those are just naughty thoughts." Dongwoo claimed. "Those aren’t selfish thoughts, they’re just n-naughty thoughts."

"And they can also be classified as ’awful and selfish’ to some extent because it’s what interests me and I may not have your best interest at heart." Seojun said and folded his legs, grinning at him. "So, how’s that? Do you think those thoughts are enough to hate me?" He asked but Dongwoo shook his head. "Exactly. That is exactly how we feel about what you said."

Dongwoo went silent. Why couldn’t he get the picture? He was practically saying he didn’t want them to progress in their career just so they could spend more time with him and never leave him.

Wasn’t that selfish enough?

Would a normal person wish such a thing for their lover?

"You... You don’t understand." He said and the twins peered at him, wondering what more he was going to say.

"What is it we don’t understand, Hyung?" Seojin asked, folding his arms.

"My thoughts. I’m thinking of never letting you go around the world and be famous just to keep you to myself. You have such a bright future in modeling yet I have those thoughts that could restrain you. It’s awful." He clenched his fists.

"And why do you think you have those thoughts?" Seojin asked and Dongwoo raised his head.

"Huh?"

"Hyung," Seojin leaned closer and dropped his chin on his palm. "I don’t know why Matteo told you but I have a few thoughts of my own, which by your standard is awful." He smirked. "Wanna hear them?"

"What..." Dongwoo gulped, feeling he would hear something similar to what Seojun said but decided to take the chance and asked, "What are your thoughts?"

"Hyung, I want to cuff you to my bed and never let you hold up a camera." He said with a smile that made the things he said seem like innocent words whereas they weren’t. "I’ll blindfold you and never let you look at anyone else. I’ll mark you all over with my teeth and leave not a trace free from my ’love’."

Dongwoo pursed his lips, speechless. How could he say such things with a straight face and with that smile as well? How was he doing it?

He felt his legs quiver at the thought of them actually carrying out their thoughts.

It was... Crazy.

"Do you want me to continue, Hyung?" Seojin asked, smiling brightly.

"Ah, stop talking." Dongwoo said. "Why do you have such thoughts? You don’t... You don’t want me to leave your sight and won’t even let me hold a camera. Doesn’t that sound weird?"

"That’s why we said it was completely normal, Hyung." Seojun said. "It’s normal to have such selfish and canal thoughts. It’s just up to you to contain yourself and not hurt your partner."

"Ah!" Dongwoo exclaimed and covered a part of his face, confused.

"It’s normal... When you love that person?" He asked and they nodded. "Isn’t it just being selfish, not having the other person’s interest at heart?"

"Yes, it’s selfish thoughts indeed but... It can’t be helped. The stronger the love, the stronger the feeling to Monopolize your lover grows. It’s just up to you if you want to keep your lover’s interest at heart and ignore those thoughts or hurt them by succumbing to those thoughts."

"At the end of the day, it’s your choice." Seojun concluded.

But Dongwoo still couldn’t grasp the situation fully. He just... He just couldn’t understand how they felt it was normal.

The thoughts made him feel like a horrible person. They made him feel like he was against the twins’ prosperity.

They made him feel like a hateful human and he gritted his teeth.

"I should be happy beyond words that you’re finally going somewhere big." He suddenly said in a low voice. "...but I can’t help but think of ways on how to keep you with me. How to stick close with you like a leech. Like a burden. I can’t stop these thoughts, and here you say it’s normal?" He squeezed his chest. "I don’t want to have these thoughts. I don’t want to be your burden either, sticking to you for the longest time when you’re suns standing high above the ground. I... I don’t want to hold you back either. I..."

"Hyung," Dongwoo flinched feeling Seojin caress his face.

He raised his gaze to meet his eyes and saw him smiling softly.

"And why do you think you’re feeling this way, Hyung?" He asked and Dongwoo blinked, confused.

Why was he feeling this way? Because he wasn’t a good person? Because he sought out his own interest above theirs?

"I... I don’t know," he said. "Be-because I’m selfish?"

Seojin shook his head and leaned in to kiss his cheek.

"Is that what you really think, Hyung?" He asked and whispered in his ear. "Try again. You can do better."

Getting whispered directly into his ear made him shudder. He felt sensitive but tried to wrap his head around what he wanted him to guess.

"Hyung," Seojun called and Dongwoo looked past Seojin. He has the same soft smile, staring with loving eyes at him. "Why do you think you’re feeling that way? Why do you want to be with us and stick around for the longest time? It’s not just lust now... Is it?"

"You feel something else... in your heart." Seojin tapped his chest with his index finger

Dongwoo looked down at his chest. His heart was beating fast. It was so fat like it was giving him the hint to the answer. It was telling him that the answer was deep inside his heart but he couldn’t understand clearly.

A feeling that made one’s heart beat ever so sweetly that it reminded him of strawberries.

A feeling that made him long for the smiles and laughs of the ones in front of him. Longing to be with them for the longest time possible.

Was it lov...?

He gasped as his eyes widened, having realized it, and looked up at them shocked.

As if knowing he had figured it out, they nodded and Seojin said,

"That’s it, Hyung. We can tell from here that your heartbeats resonate with ours in the loveliest way." He held his hand, interlocking his fingers in his right hand while Seojun took his left hand and kissed it. "The answer you wanted to know all along, you finally got it."

"R-really?" Dongwoo asked, touching his own chest. His face filled with relief as tears gathered in his eyes from the realization. "Is it really that? Am I really a person capable of having such feelings?" He looked up at them and smiled. "I’m glad. So glad that I can’t control the tears. Please, bear with me." He said and closed his eyes. "Let the tears fall this last time, please. My heart is just so full of joy that I cannot contain it."

"It’s alright, Hyung." Seojin said and hugged him. "Let it all out."

"I love you." Dongwoo suddenly said and their eyes widened.

Seojin pulled back and looked at him with startled eyes. Seojun, too, stared as if he had heard the most shocking news of his life.

But in reality, they were just so stunned to hear Dongwoo profess like that and it made their heart warm.

"Please, say it one more time, Hyung. We... We need to hear it again." Seojun said, and Dongwoo, though embarrassed, swiped the tears from the corner of his eyelid and, with a hearty smile, confessed.

"Seojin, Seojun, thank you." He said. "...for helping me realize my feelings. And... I love you."