If You Could Hear My Heart
Chapter 1252: Impossible to Be Together

Chapter 1252: Chapter 1252: Impossible to Be Together

"Heh," Xu Chaomu sneered.

"I heard she got married. I looked for her once, it was still a man’s ego, I just wanted to ask, ’You chose a countryman over me, Bai Xuan?’" Bai Xuan said, "I, Bai Xuan, would give up everything for you, ask for nothing in return, do you hate me that much?"

Bai Xuan became more and more agitated, and looking back after many years, it all seemed like a dream.

It wasn’t hatred; it was too much love.

Xu Chaomu was also choked up, unable to speak.

For a moment, the surroundings fell into a still silence.

After a long while, Bai Xuan sighed.

"Later on, I stopped looking for her, and, of course, I couldn’t find her," Bai Xuan said. "Until ten years later, I heard that your mother had an accident, and Aran adopted you back."

"Yes, there was an accident, a gas explosion, a fire that burned down my house," Xu Chaomu said with a grief-stricken expression.

"I never got to see her one last time; actually... the time we spent together was truly blissful, even just the period when I took her to the villa was my happiest. As long as I was with her, even if we fought, just seeing her made me feel blissful," Bai Xuan said.

"The days with her felt like truly living, and we felt more like a family," Bai Xuan’s tears fell again.

After many, many years, when these past events were brought up again, he cried like a child.

Shen Chi also sighed and couldn’t help but hold Xu Chaomu a bit tighter.

It turned out that in front of love, no one was an exception.

And wasn’t he the same? Any moment spent with Xu Chaomu felt blissful, even fights were just the struggles between spouses.

"But you didn’t trust her, you thought she was untrustworthy, you thought she had abandoned you, you thought she hated you," Xu Chaomu said.

Bai Xuan didn’t speak; he had realized it too late, far too late...

Meanwhile, Shen Chi whispered in her ear: "Young men are often arrogant, proud, especially those who fall in love, they often don’t think things through."

He was also a man, so he understood Bai Xuan.

Bai Xuan’s mistake was that he wasn’t strong enough to divorce Jiang Zhilan and marry Xu Mengxi.

Bai Xuan also erred by being too impulsive, never trying to truly understand a woman’s inner thoughts.

"Mengxi, I’m sorry..." Bai Xuan wept bitterly.

Only today did he learn that Xu Mengxi had been pregnant when she left him...

"My mom really loved you," Xu Chaomu’s eyes reddened, "If she hadn’t left you, you would never have achieved success in your career, you would have had to choose between your family and her, she didn’t want to see you suffer, so she chose to leave on her own."

"Mengxi..." Bai Xuan was too choked up to speak, tears wrenching his heart.

Xu Chaomu had just learned all these past misinterpretations, mistakes, and about love...

Even, some paths, she and her mother walked so similarly...

She still felt fortunate that she had met Shen Chi...

Bai Xuan clenched the paternity test report in his hands, and the image of Xu Mengxi surfaced before his eyes. Though more than twenty years had passed, her every frown and smile became increasingly vivid in his mind.

These past events had long been buried deep in his heart, but he never thought that after so many years, they would be recounted one by one.

Perhaps because he had spoken out, the oppression in his heart had lessened, but he felt a greater sense of regret.

"Was it that if I had persisted back then, my parents wouldn’t have pressured me? Was it that if I had sought her once more, perhaps I could have found her again..." Bai Xuan murmured softly.

Xu Chaomu’s eyes were red as she watched this elderly man with white hair confess, unsure what to feel.

"So many years have passed, there is no turning back." Shen Chi spoke indifferently, "You and Xu Mengxi could never have been together."

Whether in the past or in the future, Bai Xuan and Xu Mengxi were never right for each other.

"It was me not trusting her, it was me being too foolish. Why couldn’t I see through her small trickery? She was just deceiving me, just not wanting to hold me back," Bai Xuan, his hands buried in his hair, was in agony.

"Even if she wasn’t deceiving you, what then?" Xu Chaomu said, "You and she still couldn’t have been together."

Xu Chaomu’s thoughts aligned with Shen Chi’s; reality was far crueler than dreams.

But... often the parties involved couldn’t see clearly, couldn’t walk away.

"I owe her an apology. All these years, I always thought she was unfaithful, always thought she stopped loving me..." Bai Xuan was in pain.

The first time he voiced so many hidden thoughts, he felt much lighter.

Ever since Xu Mengxi had disappeared from his life, he had never mentioned Xu Mengxi’s name to anyone, but today was different.

Xu Chaomu was his daughter, and he and Xu Mengxi had also had a daughter.

"So many years have passed; she didn’t live to see your apology, and probably wouldn’t care now," Xu Chaomu said emotionlessly, her face somewhat cold.

"I’m sorry, I’m sorry..." Bai Xuan buried his head in his hands, repeatedly choking on his apologies.

Xu Chaomu couldn’t see his expression, but she knew he was truly upset.

Secrets buried deep in his heart for many years were unearthed, giving rise to a helpless feeling of being exposed to the light of day.

These frustrations ultimately turned into regrets that could never be mended...

Shen Chi held Xu Chaomu close, not saying much, just sighing.

Compared to Xu Chaomu, he understood Bai Xuan better.

Similar family backgrounds, even some experiences coincided, he understood Bai Xuan’s helplessness.

"How much do Shen Cexian and Zhou Ran know about you and my mother?" Xu Chaomu asked.

Bai Xuan shook his head: "I don’t know how much they really know. I hid Mengxi away; I don’t know if they know or not."

"What about Jiang Zhilan then? Does Jiang Zhilan know about your dealings with my mother?"

Bai Xuan shook his head again: "She knows I had someone I loved, but she doesn’t know where I hid Mengxi."

Shen Chi frowned; from the whole affair, it seemed Jiang Zhilan must have known about Xu Mengxi’s existence early on.

"Chaomu..." Bai Xuan raised his head, looking at her, "Why suddenly think of doing a paternity test?"

"What do you guess?" Xu Chaomu’s face was somewhat cold.

"I... I can’t guess..." Bai Xuan truly couldn’t guess; he had been cut off from the outside world, many things were beyond his control.

"Bai Xuan, Jiang Zhilan is much smarter than you," Shen Chi spoke coldly, his expression stern, "She suspected six years ago that Xu Chaomu was the daughter you had with Xu Mengxi, and you never doubted it."

There was a great shock on Bai Xuan’s face, and his eyes were full of astonishment.