If You Could Hear My Heart
Chapter 1250: I Am Irresponsible, I Am a Jerk

Chapter 1250: Chapter 1250: I Am Irresponsible, I Am a Jerk

Shen Chi wrapped his arms around Xu Chaomu’s waist, trying his best to calm her emotions.

But he knew that in such matters, no one could truly be calm, especially since Xu Chaomu was directly involved.

"So, because you didn’t find her, you think you did nothing wrong, and so you feel at peace?" Xu Chaomu retorted.

"After she left me, she disappeared without a trace, and I didn’t have any news about her. Only later did I vaguely hear that she married an ordinary man and was living a good life, so I never looked for her again," Bai Xuan said.

"Well, let me tell you, she didn’t marry anyone, and she did not have a good life either!" Xu Chaomu said, "If it weren’t for some jewelry she had, we would’ve starved to death a long time ago; she nearly changed her name and hid her identity. Do you know how much she suffered? Since you already had a wife, why did you mess with her in the first place? Did you see her as your mistress?"

Xu Chaomu was very upset, saying many things that were on her mind all in one breath.

Bai Man was older than her, which meant that Bai Xuan was still involved with her mother even after he married Jiang Zhilan.

"I never saw her as a mistress. In my heart, she was my life-long love. I met her long before I met Zhilan; if it wasn’t for some matters, she would be my wife now," Bai Xuan said indifferently, "But... she never gave me that chance."

"A man’s words are truly unreliable, a life-long love?" Xu Chaomu scoffed.

Shen Chi coughed lightly and reminded her by her ear, "Not all men."

Xu Chaomu elbowed him gently and gave Shen Chi a dirty look.

"When you married Jiang Zhilan, how could you not think of my mother?" Xu Chaomu pressed.

"My marriage to Zhilan was out of necessity," Bai Xuan said helplessly.

"Those are all excuses. Marriage by necessity, having someone you love on one side but not wanting to offend your family on the other, right? Men are always so greedy."

"Say whatever you want; I wronged Mengxi, and I won’t make excuses," Bai Xuan lowered his head.

His hands were trembling, and his heart was aching terribly.

So, Mengxi had been pregnant when she left him... Why had it taken so many years for him to find out...

Why didn’t she come to look for him back then...

He had always thought Xu Chaomu was the daughter she had "after getting married"; it never occurred to him that Xu Chaomu might be his own daughter.

"There’s no reason for you to make excuses! Do you know how difficult it was for her when she was pregnant? A woman raising a child alone, how could an irresponsible man like you ever understand," Xu Chaomu bit her teeth.

"Yes, I’m irresponsible; I’m a bastard," Bai Xuan didn’t deny it at all.

Xu Chaomu bit her teeth, her eyes red-rimmed.

The man in front of her, who admitted to being a bastard, was her father, an irresponsible father!

She would rather she didn’t have such a father!

"Chaomu, calm down." Shen Chi wrapped his arms around her waist and soothed.

"Bai Xuan, you explain to me clearly what exactly was going on between you and my mother!" Xu Chaomu called out his name directly.

"We were university classmates," Bai Xuan sighed lightly, "Maybe, we should have never met."

University classmates... Xu Chaomu fell silent; they did all know each other, including Shen Cexian and Zhou Ran.

Bai Xuan was trying to calm his emotions as he remembered the past, which felt as if it were a century away.

Back then, they were all still young.

Back then, they thought they could chase after their own love without a worry in the world, believing that to love was to be together forever.

However, they were too young, after all, unable to see how dark reality could be.

Bai Xuan’s face remained expressionless, but his eyes betrayed significant turmoil.

"Your mother came from a good family, and she was very beautiful, and because of that, in college, many people liked her, including me and Cexian," Bai Xuan slowly said.

A good family? Xu Chaomu didn’t immediately grasp the meaning of his words.

She didn’t interrupt Bai Xuan but silently listened to him speak.

"Back then, relationships between classmates weren’t as open as they are now. Both Cexian and I liked her, but neither of us had confessed. Mengxi and Aran were roommates and good friends, sharing similar interests and hobbies. Not long after starting college, we got to know each other."

"Our families were all well-off and got along well. I wanted to find the right moment to confess to Mengxi, but before doing that, I was always trying to figure out her feelings."

"But before I could confess, something happened that year. Mengxi’s family business went bankrupt, and her father... your maternal grandfather couldn’t bear such a blow and committed suicide. And her mother, your maternal grandmother, followed him."

As he spoke, Bai Xuan’s eyes grew increasingly moist.

Xu Chaomu felt a shock in her heart—so that was the story...

She had never met her maternal grandparents...

If her grandparents were still alive, they surely wouldn’t have allowed her mother to be treated so badly...

If her grandparents were still alive, they surely wouldn’t have let their daughter be left adrift...

But ’if’ is only ’if’; in reality, there are no hypotheticals.

"Every day, Mengxi washed her face with tears, suffering immensely. It was I who stayed by her side through that time, and I helped her parents’ funeral arrangements. That time, Mengxi nearly fell into depression, but Aran was also always there with her, cheering her up, and eventually, she slowly emerged from the shadows," said Bai Xuan.

Xu Chaomu, hearing Zhou Ran’s name, was taken aback. Zhou Ran comforted her mother?

Perhaps, back then, they were all innocent, and Zhou Ran’s relationship with her mother was also good...

"Eventually, when creditors came demanding repayment, Mengxi sold all her property, but it was in vain—her family still owed a huge debt. Left with no choice, she decided to drop out and work." Speaking of the past, tears fell from Bai Xuan’s eyes, "I disagreed. I offered to help her."

At this point, Bai Xuan paused, lost in the recollections of the past.

Xu Chaomu remained silent, listening to him speak.

"But because the Xu family’s debts were so great, my money was of no use. She wouldn’t accept dragging me down and ultimately chose to drop out," Bai Xuan said, "During this period, it wasn’t just me; Cexian and Aran both helped, but in the end, it was just a drop in the bucket."

"You were that close?" asked Xu Chaomu.

"Up until that point, our relationship had been very good, until I was the first one to confess to Mengxi." Bai Xuan sighed, "Cexian and I actually fought over her in secret, all for Mengxi, but in the end, Mengxi still chose me."

"Just like that, Mengxi and I secretly dated for a year. After that year, we both graduated. At graduation, because of arrangements by our families, Cexian and Aran entered into a business marriage, while my parents wanted me to marry the daughter of the Jiang family, Zhilan."

"Upon learning this news, Mengxi chose to let go. She didn’t want to hold me back, she even went as far as to pick a fight with me."