Destroy Me Gently:Ex-Enemy Becomes My Lover!
Chapter 42: A new villain

Chapter 42: A new villain

Chapter FORTY TWO

**Kieran Morrison**

’... But you already lost that little boy, Kieran...’

Although his voice sounded no more than a faint whisper, the effect of it was like a million knives slashed across my heart.

It was all me.

I had been the one who drove the spear of hate straight into the heart of my childhood best friend.

He had always been so carefree, so optimistic and joyous, so, I had always assumed it was just me that was left to wallow in grief and loneliness after my sister’s death.

I thought it was just me suffering.

The anguish in those green eyes that threatened tears amounted to the heaviness that settled in my heart.

I wanted to say so many things to him, I wanted to apologize for everything, but the words were stuck in my throat.

Of what use would it be?

A simple apology would never erase all the anger, hate, and abuse that had been dished out to him by me over the years.

"I’m sorry, Ollie." The words finally managed to pour out from my mouth.

His gaze widened as though he hadn’t expected it.

Our gaze locked in silence and the prolonged quiet drilled at my insides.

I was growing desperate because I badly wanted him to say anything, even a ’go to hell’ would be better than nothing.

"Y-you are sorry?" he choked out, staring at me in disbelief.

I inhaled deeply, running my fingers through my hair raggedly because I didn’t know what to say, I didn’t have any idea on how to make anything better.

I guess it was always easier to ruin things than to fix them back once broken.

But even as I stood there, something darker was stirring inside me because the thought of him walking away, of losing him completely, made my chest tighten with a possessiveness I couldn’t control.

He was mine to protect, mine to hurt, mine to fix, and I wasn’t ready to let him go.

He clasped his fingers together, that nervous habit he’d developed over the years and for a moment he looked like the scared little boy I used to know.

"Even if you don’t hate me anymore, we can never go back to how we used to be. We aren’t kids anymore and we will never regain our lost childhood. We also cannot ever be friends again, not after everything, but can I please request something from you, Kieran?"

My jaw clenched because I could already sense where this was going and something dark flashed through me.

"Just leave me alone, Kieran. Whatever you are doing, just stop it. It’s getting so suffocating and uncomfortable. I don’t like you, and you are not wired to like me either, so from now on, can I ask you to just ignore me? It would make things easier for me if you do so."

As simple as his soft-spoken words sounded, I knew leaving him alone was going to be impossible.

Leave him alone?

Be it in friendship or hate, he had always taken a huge part of my life and I could never ignore him, not even if I tried to.

’I don’t like you, Kieran.’

Why did those words leave a sour taste in my mouth? Of course, he fucking wouldn’t like me considering our relationship, but why did hearing him say it aloud suddenly feel like a hard punch to my guts?

The silence that followed was deafening and I watched him take a step back when something inside of me snapped.

"You want me to leave you alone?" I said slowly, even though everything within me was vibrating towards an explosion.

He nodded, the certainty in his eyes cutting deep.

"After everything we’ve been through, after I just apologized to you, you want me to pretend you don’t exist?"

Just thinking about it was spiraling my head out of control.

"I can’t do that, Oliver," I said, stepping closer until he could feel the heat radiating from my body. "You’re mine. You’ve always been mine, whether you like it or not."

"I’m not yours," he whispered, his voice shaking.

I tilted my head down at him, but his eyes widened in alarm as he turned his head to the other side of the wall. Probably not wanting a repeat of earlier, but his slender neck was now turned to me, every instinct in my body wanted to mar the perfect skin, I pushed back the thoughts because I wanted to do more, If he knew some of my secret fantasies, he would probably file a restraining order against me

"I’ve spent eight years of my life thinking about you, hating you, wanting to hurt you. Do you really think I can just switch that off?"

"You don’t want to ignore me because you care about me," He spoke, staring at me once again as he whispered "You want to keep me close because I’m part of your revenge. You can hurt me, Kieran, but behaving this horribly and acting this strange because you know I’m gay is a new kind of low, even for you!"

His eyes were filled with disgust as he regarded me. Before I could fully grasp the meaning of his statement, he turned and ran, and I just stood there watching him disappear.

He thought this was a new game I was playing?

**OLIVER WEST**

I sniffed aloud, wiping off my face with the tissue William continuously provided because why was I always such a crybaby? But these damn tears just wouldn’t stop.

Why was I crying?

This was supposed to be what I wanted, wasn’t it? For him to finally acknowledge what he’d done to me?

He had apologized to me but why hadn’t it felt genuine? Why did it feel like he was just saying what he thought I wanted to hear? Because this was another game to him. Did he hate my sexuality so much that he was taking his revenge in this direction?

The more I thought about it, the more confused I was.

What exactly did Kieran want from me now?

And the way he had looked at me when I asked him to leave me alone, like I was something that belonged to him that he wasn’t willing to give up.

He hadn’t denied it when I told him he wanted to keep me close for his revenge, that silence had been answer enough.

So what did Kieran want?!

This whole charade of pretending to be gay. Was he doing this only to mock me? But wasn’t it damaging to his reputation? If everyone thought he was dating the gay loser guy, it would do more harm to him than me, the more I thought about it.

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh! I screamed inwardly.

The confusion was eating me alive.

William shot me a sympathetic look after he had practically forced everything from my mouth.

Well, not literally everything because I left out the part about Ginny which was the reason Kieran hated me.

The bell rang, signaling the end of break period and I threw the last of my tissues into the nearest trash can.

"You like him," his voice sounded from behind me and I whirled around to meet his gaze which appeared to be thinking hard about something.

"What?" The strangled word left my mouth even though I knew what he was talking about.

"Your bully for years finally apologized to you, but you’ve been crying ever since then. You are not happy or angry at him, you are confused and hurt, which means you have feelings for him," he said slowly.

My ears rang in denial, "I don’t have feelings for him! I hate him. Besides, he’s not even gay remember? He simply wants to torment my life!" I ranted but William simply continued as though I’d not spoken.

"Who knows? He might be secretly gay. The most homophobic guys are usually the ones in the closet. Oh shit. Don’t tell me this is about to turn into one of those cliche bully falls in love with victim stories,"

"William! This is not a joke," I glared hard at him.

"Who said I was joking? I saw him watching you today, throughout all the classes, he kept staring after you like you were the only person in the world. Maybe your bully has feelings for you too."

"IMPOSSIBLE!" I eyed him with pure disbelief, I couldn’t even allow myself to indulge the idea.

"Why is it not possible? My best friend is so hot that even straight guys are turning gay for him." William laughed and I knocked his head, earning a yelp from him.

"Stop with the nonsense!"

"It’s not nonsense! I think we are about to have a villain in our special love story." He grabbed my neck, his eyes turning nearly evil as he smooched my cheek with a loud sound "As the protagonist, I can’t let the villain take you away from me. Don’t be scared, I’ll fight for your love,"

"William!" I screamed playfully, taking a quick glance around just in time hear the shutter sound of a picture being taken.

My eyes dropped from their sockets as I saw Raya giggling away after mouthing what sounded like ’Fighting!’

WHAT THE HELL!!