BLOOD LEGACIES
Chapter 493: What Was Given

Chapter 493: What Was Given

I sniffled, sluggishly walked to the toilet seat, and sat, pulling the strands of my hair behind my ears. I heard his footsteps and found him squatting in front of me. Watching me intensely like I was the only breathing being in the world, it was things like this that made my heart flutter but instead, it made my chest cram in pain, knowing I was the only one who would get to see this side of him.

Emilia deserved to see this too, right? I’m not a selfish person to take all his world, his world should revolve around the people he cares about... that makes him human.

"Talk to me baby" he urged softly.

"You know what I mean, you just don’t want to tell me" I gulped, quakes taking over my body. "Let me in," I whispered, my eyes pleading.

He looked to the side not meeting my eyes anymore, but I wasn’t stopping there.

"Let me in"

"Emma..." he closed his eyes and then flicked them to me, golden hazels that could see inside my soul and remind me where they had come from, it was like I could see his beast and him simultaneously, it was a strange feeling. "I can’t"

"Why? Because I would find out, well spoiler alert I know"

"Then say it!" he growled, suddenly frustrated with me or him. I couldn’t tell.

My lip quivered. "I want to feel it" My voice was more of a whisper. His eyes softened and then like a wall was being dropped I felt every corner of his mind and we shared a soul.

My heart slammed a hard beat and my eyes trembled, he was empty, a hollow feeling that sent quakes to my body. This was wrong.

"Y-Your emotions..." I said terrified, this wasn’t like before, when did it happen? How could I’ve missed this? Was it when he usually zoned out for hours or when I couldn’t feel his emotions back then? Is it when Hayden broke Cassius’ blessing? What could possibly cause this?

"Why can’t I feel them?" I muttered while still trying to comprehend.

"They are there..." he replied. "For you"

My lip trembled as I slowly shook my head. "This is a side effect" I declared. "It has to be"

"It still doesn’t change anything does this? We both know something like this could happen" he said before shutting me out again, the wall closing up.

"No no no!" I buried my face in my hands. Why was this happening? To me, to us? Why does the universe keep taking from us? I finally have it back but like payment, I lost a part of him too.

"I’m still your Dace, Emma, you make it sound as if you lost me"

I removed my hands from my face and he smiled at me. I should melt by the sight of it but I can’t. I’m only more heartbroken and angry.

"Then why did you lie to me and do this? Why did you break my mom’s heart? I didn’t want her to find out this way. It was my choice, not yours"

"Hmm" he made a sound only and I narrowed my eyes wondering what was going through his head right now. "I guessed even if she didn’t find out she wouldn’t have accepted our relationship. Truth or not she’s not happy you’re with me. She loves you too much"

I frowned. "That’s what being a mother is and we can’t fault her. In the end, it is still my choice"

"What is your choice then? Them or me?" he suddenly asked.

I hoped to avoid this with every fiber of my being because it took me back to five years ago when I was torn between choosing. It was scary, especially for a teenager. Even now it still scares me, to be put in a position where you have to choose between two things I hold dear. The last person I thought would put me in this position was Dace.

"You can’t make me choose, that’s unfair" My voice choked with emotions and my eyes turned glassy, I’m suddenly so overwhelmed that I can’t control a simple tear.

Gently he wipes them away and rises, pressing a kiss on my forehead. "You will," he said like a promise, it made me wonder what plan he had again. He won’t hurt my family, right? Why would you think that way, Emma? But I couldn’t help it, his calm composure was scaring me, I preferred him to shout or explode about it but he’s not doing that.

"Dace, please..." I begged as I held his hand against my cheek, staring up at him with pleading eyes.

His jaw clenched and his body tensed. "Don’t look at me like that, you know I hate it when you cry"

"D-Don’t do this"

He narrowed his eyes. "Everything I do is for you"

Frustrated I looked away, he had already decided it for my sake but was it really? Ignoring the chaotic waves in my head and my dizziness I rose to my feet.

"I choose both. You want a choice there you have it" My body froze when he wrapped his hand around my throat, for a minute I thought he would snap my neck instead it was just a firm grip that displayed his authority. The hotness spreading over my body, got my cheeks flushed.

"Challenge me more baby, we give me an excuse to do more destruction for you"

Shit! I think I just egged him more instead of stopping his delusions. He leaned to me and I hoped for a kiss but his lips were to my ear, he nibbed the helix of my ear and I gripped his shirt for some support, feeling those hard muscles beneath. The clothes were getting in the way and I desperately needed skin-to-skin contact.

It’s because we’re still in heat that’s why.

I mentally told myself but I knew it was a lie. I crave Dace like I need to breathe the air.