BLOOD LEGACIES
Chapter 255: Disarray Of Thoughts {1}

Chapter 255: Disarray Of Thoughts {1}

"I didn’t know you two were THAT close" I began before I could stop myself, it was really hard keeping my mind and body in check.

"We aren’t but for some reason, it doesn’t matter"

"Hmm I see... a Venator such as yourself wants to help Emma find her werelion, that has a nice ring to it" I mused and I noticed something in his eyes.

"Don’t call me that"

"What?"

"A Venator!" he snapped at me and I froze at his outburst. He sounded like he was in pain now and I was worried.

"Sorry, I..." he sighed, closing his eyes for a brief second. "I shouldn’t have snapped at you like that"

"N-No it’s okay" I placed my hand on his arm and he looked over at it but I was too clouded by worry to think of anything else. "Are you okay? You sound like you’re in pain" I said with the softest tone I could muster.

His eyes darted to mine and locked within my hazels, he was definitely in pang, like something was bothering him and I was eager to find out so that I would take it away.

"I’m fine Emilia and it’s not in your nature to be worried about me"

I couldn’t resist an eye roll right now. "Really?"

He moved away from my touch leaving me hanging, my chest twisted by his action but I just let it sink.

"Fine then, you don’t wanna talk about it"

"Who’s Dace to you?" he asked suddenly.

"I thought you weren’t talking"

"Well we’re now" he took a step closer to me closing the small space between us.

"He’s my brother," I said with my leveled gaze. "And because of me he’s in that state and separated from his Female, I wanna make it right and bring him back" I brought my eyes back to him and he looked puzzled now.

"Female?"

Shit! How could I let that slip???

"Yeah, Emma, she’s a female isn’t she?"I said with a smile. He lingered but then the curiosity was gone in his eyes and I almost sighed in relief.

"Anything to eat here?" he asked, changing the topic. "You cooked for only Emma, I thought I was your guest too" he mocked.

Of course, I thought of you! I had it in mind to cook for him but I didn’t know if he would like my cooking, I have never been conscious about it before but when it comes to him I found myself being all nervous.

"Emma is more important"

"Figured" He reached for the cupboard and saw a pack of bread, he grabbed it. "Fresh?"

"Yeah, we get restocks"

He opened the other cupboard and grabbed the peanut butter. I just observed his every action, from grabbing the plate and applying the peanut butter on the bread.

"That won’t fill you"

"It’s okay" he just mumbled.

The silence was awkward now and I just stood there like some fool mopping at him, I couldn’t help it as I kept betraying my body each time.

I noticed even after coating the bread with the peanut butter he had no intentions of eating.

"Thought of a plan of how to get your brother back?"

"Y-Yeah working on it," I said watching as he brought the coated bread to his lips and took a bite, I just studied his eating actions, unable to stop myself.

His eyes darted to me and he was still in the process of chewing until he swallowed.

"Don’t look at me like that," he warned.

I licked my lips before I answered him. "Like what?"

There was a strong enthusiastic silence after my question, my body could literally feel it but within me was a clash of storms reacting only to his stares.

"Like you wanna kiss me," he said in a soft tone, and my body betrays me.

"What if I want to" I admitted, something I shouldn’t say but I did.

He narrowed his eyes almost like he was trying to read me and I was too but I wasn’t so sure both of us would get the answer we needed not until I said something or perhaps acted to what was silently pulling us together.

He leaned toward me and I knew exactly what he was gonna do so I remained still.

My chest rose and fell slowly and my heartbeat quickened, I couldn’t take my eyes off him as he inched close to me in each passing second and I almost forgot to breathe, the very air was taken away from me, and the world spinning around me stayed still.

His breath washed upon my face and closed my eyes, allowing it to cloud my senses. I shuddered too from this wonderful closure and I was dying for his lips to press against mine. I wanted him to kiss me so badly.

"I will not fall for it" his sudden words caused me to flick my eyes open and then a gasp escaped me.

He pulled away and I saw it again... the apathy in his eyes.

"Emilia"

I turned at the sound of my name and I saw Emma descending the stairs. I darted my eyes back to Grayson who grabbed a drink from the fridge and walked upstairs with his plate of bread in silence.

My body shuddered once again as I tried to catch myself and handle the impossible pain in my chest, but nothing could make it better, guess I will have to bear it again.

"Emilia" Emma said once again and she came to me, dropping the plate in the sink before observing me.

I smiled hoping I would stop her from asking anything because I felt like breaking right now and I didn’t want her to see that, please let her not ask but this is Emma Adams.

"What’s going on between you and Grayson?"

"How long were you there?"

"L-Long enough" she bit her bottom lip. "Emilia... are you okay?"

"No, I’m not" I concede.

"Tell me what’s wrong... please"

"It’s complicated and..." I exhaled sharply. "I think I might have hurt someone to the point he would never forgive me"

"Grayson" she blinks. "Something happened between you two"

"Well yes... when I tried to stop Dace from killing him, I took the arrow he aimed for Dace. And then he nursed me back to health, well more like we spent a day in a house and things got... steamy"

I noticed she gulped. "Y-You two kissed?"

"No darling we had sex"

Her eyes went wide in shock.

"Hot steamy sex," I said breathlessly.

"Whoa"

"And..." I paused.

"W-What happened?"

"I saw..." I exhaled. "I saw my mark on him, Emma"

"WHAT?!" she yelled and I shh her. "He bears your mark?" She was quieter this time.

I just nod.

"B-But he’s not a werelion I mean-"

"Are you?"

She paused.

"Look it’s confusing I know and it took me by surprise but whatever connection Dace had with you the first time I think I do too with Grayson... but I can’t accept it, so I blew him off, I hurt him to the point he thinks I’m shit"

"C-Calm down" she pointed and I understood what she meant when I saw the sink I gripped, any further grip from me will cause it to collapse.

"Fuck!" I cursed. "Of all things Emma, he’s a Venator!"

I noticed she flinched, maybe it was from my outburst or something else but I was too lost in my anger or pain to think straight. I felt like I wanted to burst right now, my insides were fuming, and I knew I was getting pissed because he didn’t kiss me. Shocker, I know... do you know how badly I wanted to taste his lips? Very bad!

"Did you tell him... about the mark?"

"I couldn’t bring myself to, he doesn’t know what it means and I think it’s the best... I don’t want him to think he’s forever bonded to me, I mean he has his life and his ideologies, he’s a Venator like an enemy to my Clan, my parents won’t accept it and I don’t think my body will"

Spoiler alert! My body is betraying me! I don’t think even at this point I care about what my parents think. I was more scared about him looking me in the eye after I told him everything and then he just rejects me, which will literally destroy me.

"I don’t feel like I’m trapped with Dace and I admit at first I was super freaked out when I found out that I’m his Female and his future..." she paused with a blush and I knew she was still grasping that part, I don’t blame her though, she’s only 17. "Scratch that... I just focus on the present and I know the future will be okay as long as we work on the present. I try not to think further into it,"

"That works for you Emma, but I’m not sure it will work for me or Grayson,"

"You don’t know what he thinks, don’t make assumptions yet"

"Yeah but I do know he hates me after what I pulled off. You know how he is... will even accept me?"

"You can’t know until you tell him"