BLOOD LEGACIES
Chapter 160: Obstreperous Feelings

Chapter 160: Obstreperous Feelings

"What do you mean you aren’t gonna sleep here?" He asked with a look of worry and confusion and I also hinted a bit of anger. "Where else will you sleep?"

I leveled my gaze, biting my bottom lip. I shouldn’t have said that out loud and I shouldn’t have brought this up, but I can’t ignore the feeling within me like a fresh wound was reopened and the mark was stinging so badly that fueled my emotions further. My mind was circling with thoughts and the talk of that day felt like yesterday and made my feelings fresher.

"Emma"

"I don’t want to, okay?!" I snapped at him and I regretted it the moment I did. I was stunned that the outburst came from me and I was certain my features convey it all. So I leveled my gaze.

"Would you at least tell me why?" He didn’t seem bothered by my actions but more by finding out my reason. He looked like he was battling with himself right now just to try to tell what I was thinking, desperate and also slightly angry.

"Emma, talk to me"

"It’s because of the bed!"

"The bed?" he was more confused now.

"Y-Yes"

"Why?"

I huffed, do I even need to explain further? "Forget it"

His hands on my waist pinned me down before I could even move, I tried to move away but I couldn’t, his grip was too strong, like a way of saying I’m not going anywhere until I say something, until I further explain what was making me act this way.

"You can’t just walk away like that" he seemed hurt now and I was too. I placed my hand on his chest and gave a pull. I knew it was not by my strength but because he let me go. I gave the small space I needed so that I could find my words, I started the conversation so I should at least end it, although it hurt speaking about it and I didn’t want him to blame Emilia for telling me, it was my curiosity that got me here.

"D-Doing your hunt..." I began. "Emilia and I... Look I was the one who urged this because I was worried, you told me five days but you were gone for a week. So we talked about something, it was just me asking questions" I moved my eyes to his and he seemed patient to hear about it. "She told me what happens doing your heat"

"Wha-"

"About the she-lions!"

He paused.

"How you settle your heat b-because you can’t control it and..." I paused because saying this hurts more, so much that I was hurting the first time I heard about this, it was like a grenade exploded within me. And when I locked gaze with him I saw the state he was in right now, slightly pale and the regret swirling in his orbs and it only hurt me further and I couldn’t stop myself.

"I can’t believe I slept on that bed" I mumbled as the sting got worse. Yet another word I shouldn’t have said but it was really hard keeping my emotions in check, especially when I had to think about it.

"Em-"

"You brought them here right? To your room, to your bed, and..." I paused I shouldn’t blame him for his sexual desires but I can’t help it, I felt like I would explode, I was exploding right now, and the thought of another girl being in this bed and doing things I don’t wanna talk about fueled me, made my inwards turn, made me angry, jealous. It agitated me to the point I felt my own blood boiling. I thought the first time we kissed I was his first, I was the first he touched but yet I wasn’t. Even though it was under the circumstance of Heat and because he was Alpha blood or whatever, it still got me angry.

"Tell me" I began in a low tone, my voice sounded off and I didn’t know why.

"Emma," he said softly and I forced my eyes to meet his. They were heartbreaking, with a mix of emotions, and the one that lay present and made my head spin was regret. "I promise you I haven’t..." his jaw clenched. "... brought any of them here ever since I met you that day" It was almost like he was having a struggle with himself now. Silence followed next and I couldn’t be more thankful about it because the next words he will say will probably be more about it and I didn’t want that.

"I’m so sorry Emma, it didn’t sit well with me whenever it happens and I promise you it was nothing more than taming my urges, I won’t blame it on my Alpha blood because that will be a stupid excuse. I’m a fool okay? For not waiting... fuck Emma, please just don’t cry, it’s breaking me"

I’m crying? At my thought, I finally felt the cold water on my cheeks, I was crying! That was why my voice sounded off.

"Baby, I promise you there were no strings attached. I made sure of it, and..." he paused again. "I shouldn’t have gone that far and I shouldn’t have brought them here... look I will change the bed, please don’t cry"

"I-I don’t blame you Dace it just..." I exhaled sharply. "I understand but it just hurts and-" My words hung when he closed the distance between us and he cupped my cheeks so I did nothing but look at him.

"It’s the stupidest thing I have ever done and you have every right to be angry with me, I hurt you, my Female, I swear it wasn’t intentional" He closed his eyes he looked like he was still brawling with himself, still hating himself for it and I regretted ever bringing this up because it seemed now he was hurting far worse than me.

"You’re the only living being on this earth I desire, baby, no one else just you"