SIGNING IN: BEING SHOWERED BY HEAVENLY BLESSINGS FOR FIVE YEARS
Chapter 196 - 194: DIAMOND’S LIFE LESSONS

Chapter 196: Chapter 194: DIAMOND’S LIFE LESSONS

"I might have left behind a lot of things regarding my relationship with that man before but I can assure you that your sister wasn’t a saint," as she recalled how clumsy and idiotic when she was young back then, Diamond couldn’t help but feel embarrassed of herself.

"Sister ...."

"Just let me speak. You listen carefully. I will not repeat this story ever again!" Diamond instructed sternly as she looked at her little sister.

If she hadn’t seen that horror movie, there was no way she would be throwing herself in such a state. However, she didn’t want to live with any regrets, so she decided to just express herself.

"You should have noticed when you came to Srad that life there is on another level when compared to living in Taco."

"I left Taco and went to Frin, a major city where I believed I would achieve all my dreams no matter which path that I take."

"As you know, I wasn’t a very studious person. Even if I studied, it wasn’t just for me. Unlike you, my little sister, I wasn’t blessed at all. But I haven’t hated it. it’s not like I can change myself in that aspect. Sometimes acknowledging your weakness can free you," she smirked as she recalled the life of many years ago.

"Knowing that even if I graduated, I might not be able to land myself a good job and take care of myself the way I was raised."

"Accepting that fact about myself, I knew that I had to find a contingency plan to prepare a better future for myself."

"I knew that my brains weren’t perfect, but I was born with a good face, at least. I had seen plenty of guys looking at me, so I knew I had the capital as long as I was willing to make a move."

"Just like any other ambitious young girl, I finally made up my mind and decided to find a golden thigh for me to hold."

Listening up to this point, Ruby was frozen. She didn’t dare believe what her sister was going to say. She didn’t even want to accept that fact at all. There was no way her sister would do that. It just wouldn’t make sense at all.

"I found him and he was so handsome, rich and just suited my taste. I knew that he didn’t love me, but what did that matter to me? As long as he took care of me, raised my status and made me feel as if I was worth it, I gave my all."

"He didn’t love me, so the way he treated me wasn’t that good, but I accepted it all. When I knew that I was just a substitute for someone he loved and I somehow looked a tiny bit like that person, I felt my world-shattering."

"It was around that time I realized that I had fallen for him, but it was of no use. Our relationship started as a transaction and even if I were to confess my feelings for him, he would only think that I was trying to mooch more of his money, which I no longer cared about the most."

"When he humiliated me, scolded me names and treated me as if I was trash, I gritted my teeth, clenched my fists and tolerated it at all because I loved him. As long as I could spend another second, minute, or hour with him, I was satisfied."

"And that torment continued happening until after graduating, around four years ago, when my class held a party. I was one of the attendees and so was my boyfriend at that time."

"On that day, I finally knew the consequences of my greediness. I was greedy, but that didn’t mean that others weren’t!" she couldn’t help but scoff at her foolishness as she recalled the uneventful things that occurred on that day.

"They all ganged up on me. They humiliated me and made me feel as if I wasn’t worthy. They made me see myself as useless, money and power hungry and, above all, a whore!" Diamond clenched her fists while her eyes turned red with fury as she recalled the unfortunate moments of that day.

Ruby felt her body trembling with anger as she listened to her sister’s story.

After seeing her nine months ago, she never expected that her sister had gone through something so terrible like that. And to think that she had been bottling it inside without probably telling a soul, Ruby wanted to tear those bullies apart.

However, Diamond wasn’t done yet, so she had to listen even if the story was infuriating her.

"Humiliating me wasn’t even enough. I just had to witness and confirm finally that my friend, the one I stayed in the same room and shared everything with, had been hooking up with him behind my back."

"I was the only idiot who didn’t know. Everyone in my class knew and I, the foolish one, was played like a ball and people had fun because of it."

"On that day, I finally knew what it was like to be put into such a spot. The consequences of wanting an easy life, relying on others, trusting people and, above all, giving my heart."

"If I hadn’t given away my heart to that bastard, would I have tolerated all of his taunts and suffered the way I did that day?"

"If I hadn’t been greedy and wanted an easy life without working hard for myself, would I have been humiliated like that?"

"If I hadn’t been too trusting and acted as if the world revolved around me, would it have been easy?"

"I asked myself those questions as I left that place with my tail tucked between my legs. I could tell that he no longer wanted to have anything to do with me. My former friend hated me so much it wouldn’t be impossible if she tried something with me."

"Like a scaredy cat and a defeated opponent, I packed my things and ran away from Frin. That was how I settled in Srad. I didn’t even have a face to return home. How was I going to face Mom, Dad, and you?"

"Would I be able to explain truthfully what had truly transpired? If I confessed, how would you all look at me? Hehe, I just felt like an embarrassment and as if I had let all of you down."

"All of you had never pressured me into doing more that I couldn’t. mom and Dad both spoiled me despite being average and you, my dear little sister, tolerated me even when you were better than me."

"I was so ashamed of myself. I just wanted to die, but whenever I thought of leaving all of you because of the mistakes I made, I just wasn’t brave enough."

"Back then, while I was in grief and thinking of ways to avoid you, the skin rash came unexpectedly and it even cemented my resolution to not come by the house. At least with the illness, I now had a viable excuse for not returning."

"At that time, putting the illness aside, I vowed to never give up my heart ever again. I suffered too much because I did it once. Although I was wrong at the beginning, after all, my love wasn’t genuine, I still felt like I didn’t deserve what I got."

"They shouldn’t have betrayed me or humiliated me like that. If he no longer wanted anything to do with him, why didn’t he break up nicely? Why did he have to go to such great lengths and kill me deeply like that?"

At this moment, both sisters were tearing up.

Ruby was holding Diamond’s hand as she comforted her with a caress. She couldn’t say a word, as she felt like choking every single time. She opened her mouth.

"Sniff .... I vowed that if I ever got well and removed the rash one day, I was going to spread my wings and do whatever I wanted. Instead of relying on one man who can betray me in the future with anyone close to me, I dreamt of having many lovers by my side." A smile blossomed on her face as she said that.

"Although it was an unachievable dream for me as it was something that was going to end in my head, after all, who knew how long I needed to gather the money required for treatment?"

"I just wanted to have a dream, something that would steer me to live passionately despite the alienation and mocking of others. So, what if they mocked me and stayed clear away from me? That wouldn’t hurt as much as what those people did to me on that day."

"Instead of loving one man and relying on him as if my life depended on it. I wanted to be surrounded by them. Instead of me fighting for favor with some unknown girls out there, I would rather have them fight over me instead."

"Umph! Why should it be us girls doing all the hard work all the time? Is it a crime that I was born a female?" she harrumphed as she thought of the many traditions and cultures that limited girls.