Meteor Fall Master in the 'Starry Abyss'
Chapter 323 - 130. Of extraordinary significance

Chapter 323: 130. Of extraordinary significance

Li Aozi didn’t care about Nimotin’s distraught expression and hung up the phone, looking at the last person on the list.

"Um... if something happened, that wouldn’t be good."

Li Aozi hesitated for a moment but still decided to make the call.

"Dialing... Dialing... Hello, the subscriber you dialed is out of service area, please try again later."

Disconnected and redialing, Li Aozi now needed every bit of strength.

"Dialing... Dialing..."

The ringing went on for a long while without any change on the call screen.

Just when Li Aozi was about to give up, the call suddenly went through.

Click.

"... Mr. Leoz?"

Responding to him was a calm young woman’s voice.

"Sorry for calling you out of the blue and disturbing you."

Without seeing the video turned on, Li Aozi didn’t know whether it was inconvenient for the other party to start the video or if the terminal’s camera was damaged. Only hearing her voice made him feel a bit uneasy, but he still said:

"Although it’s a bit abrupt to ask, could you come over and help me, Miss Yawen?"

Yawen was silent for a moment before suddenly saying:

"... Are you saying, you need me right now?"

"Not exactly."

Li Aozi had just finished speaking when he suddenly noticed something strange in her tone.

It was as if she was harboring some ’expectation’.

So he quickly changed his approach:

"I mean, if you think it’s too much trouble or if you can’t do it, it’s okay to refuse."

"—What do you need me to do?"

Yawen’s voice was soft, which made Li Aozi a bit unused to it—most of the women he had met until now had been rather independent, strong, and resolute.

But Yawen was different, perhaps because he couldn’t see her, which added a sense of mystery, or perhaps because she had suffered some defeats lately, her voice sounded weak and tender.

Her voice was like heated marshmallows wrapping around Li Aozi’s ears all at once, warm and clingy, filled with dependence.

It had been a long time since Li Aozi had encountered someone so dependent on him, and he was somewhat embarrassed, so he simply said:

"Yawen, have you been alright recently? If you’ve run into any trouble, just talk to me, I still have time."

"I’m fine, I just..."

"Just what, Miss Yawen?"

"I just, when I hear that I’m needed by you, by someone else, especially when you say it like that... it makes me so happy."

Yawen’s voice seemed uncertain, as if she was walking in a place with strong winds. Li Aozi’s first thought was the Outer World.

"Have you gone to the Outer World?"

"Don’t worry about me, um, but if you genuinely worry about my safety, I would indeed be surprised..." Yawen seemed to move the terminal inside her cloak and whispered softly.

The soft voice was like a secret whisper in his ear, and the breathing of a woman clearly audible as if Yawen was resting her head on his shoulder, nibbling his earlobe while speaking.

"The way you say it, it’s like I’m wrong whether I worry or not."

Li Aozi spread his hands:

"Honestly, you don’t have to hide it, Yawen. If you harbor the thought that ’once you get familiar, you’ll be disliked,’ then you’ll never make friends."

"...Friends?" Yawen seemed slightly surprised: "You only see me as a friend?"

"That’s not exactly true, Yawen. You have a unique significance to me; on this planet, you are a singular existence."

Li Aozi said:

"You have a talent that surpasses others, which is of great importance to me."

"My existence is meaningful to others." Yawen murmured. "To you, Li Aozi, I have extraordinary significance... Great significance, huh..."

There seemed to be a hint of girlish glee in her tone.

"Yawen, don’t belittle yourself like that."

Li Aozi was no longer thinking of asking Yawen for help; he was worried that the girl was having mental health problems. If something tragic happened and she lost hope, where would he find his "object resonance"?

"Thank you for telling me this; I’m really happy." Yawen said, "Do I also mean something unique to you?"

"You are the most unique existence on this planet."

Li Aozi confessed candidly:

"It might take tens of thousands or even millions of years to find someone like you. In a way, you are a treasure bestowed by the heavens, the only one of your kind."

"...But I think, I’m not worthy of all that."

Yawen suddenly became despondent again:

"Mr. Leoz, I, I’m not as wonderful as you describe. I’m dumb and stupid, and because I can’t do anything, and I don’t want to die like that, I’ve made mistakes in the past that can never be forgiven. My existence is against moral principles, I’m a monster. I don’t even know what to do now, the whole world is rejecting me, abandoning me... I’m, I’m so scared."

There definitely was some psychological issue.

Li Aozi found a place to sit down. In fact, it wasn’t his place to give counsel.

But after all, Yawen’s mother had died, her father had been imprisoned, her brother had lost his job, and she herself was working against her own conscience—under such pressure, being able to maintain one’s sanity was already a good thing.

"Yawen."

"The whole world hates me, I’m so scared, but I don’t want to be hated by them, I don’t want to be hated by anyone, yet I know myself, I should not be forgiven..."

"Yawen!"

"I have seen some terrifying things, but those things, no matter how horrifying, are not as terrible as the mistakes I once made. If other people are hell, then I must at least be a demon king. I should die, but I’m afraid to die... I’m scared of death."

"Yawen, you idiot, can you shut up and listen to me!"

Li Aozi couldn’t stand it any longer; Yawen’s remarks were getting more and more dangerous, and anything could happen next; he directly swore at her:

"You said, you are hated by the entire world—am I, Li Aozi, not part of this world? Am I just some insignificant speck of dust?"

"I didn’t mean that, Mr. Leoz, what I meant was I—"

"I don’t hate you, Yawen."

Li Aozi said:

"You are kind, and you have ideas. Although sometimes you are too naive, more often than not, you know when you have done something wrong and stop yourself in time."

"But I, the things I have done in the past—"

"Has anyone hated you because of your past mistakes?"

"She, Sijia, Jiajia... She died because of me and became a ghost..."

"Does she hate you?"

"... I, she’s always haunting me."

"I don’t care about that, Yawen. I mean, that ’Sijia’, the one you caused the death of, does she hate you?"

"... She said she loves me."

Yawen said painfully:

"She traded her life for mine, for all these years. She didn’t harm me, nor did she hate me, but she loved me and protected me... I’m so scared, I’m in so much pain, I should not be enjoying this, yet I feel a heavy guilt, and she has forgiven me... Love, it’s just love. Why doesn’t she hate me? Such pure love only tortures me more."

"Yawen, a life for a life is the most fundamental sentiment in the world."

Li Aozi said:

"But the person who sacrificed, didn’t choose to do so for you to live in guilt."

"But she shouldn’t have had to sacrifice—"

"You have no right to decide a sacrificer’s will; that was someone else’s choice. You have fantasies of living on, and others have the courage to choose death."

Li Aozi said:

"Miss Yawen, I don’t know what happened between you two. But I do know one thing, since you feel guilty and remorseful for your past mistakes, that means you are still human, and that’s a good thing."

"I am... human?"

"I’m not talking about species; I mean you still have the conscience of a person, and that’s all that counts."

Li Aozi said:

"I have seen evil humans who betrayed their own kind for personal gain. I have also seen noble aliens who sacrificed their lives to protect a planet—trust me, some things are not absolute."

"In the past, people liked to use various labels to make distinctions, but in front of cosmic years, you all are dust."

"I don’t know what mistakes you have made, but as long as you haven’t brought pain and harm to others, and you’ve arrived here today through the sacrifice of another, then I feel, your life is no longer just your own."

Li Aozi lifted his hand, a flame ignited at his fingertips, reflecting the figures of two girls.

"So Li Aozi, what should I do?"

Yawen asked confusedly:

"I know it might make me seem pitiful, but I really don’t know; everything I do now seems strange, and I’m no longer myself, I don’t know what will become of my life, everything is getting worse. The world hates me... I think, the only one I can trust is you. Only you won’t hate me."

"Live."

Li Aozi said.

"Live?"

Yawen mulled over the word.

"Yawen, Nomi died in Mingji Humanity’s Laboratory, leaving nothing behind; Qiu Ran died on the train going home, her ashes scattered into the snow. I took their Arcane Energy, if I die, then there would be no trace of them in this world."

Li Aozi said:

"If you are free of burdens, carefree, then even if you die, nobody would care, your death would be selfish and yet free. But when you carry the lives of others, your life is no longer your own."

"If you have a good friend who knows you died, they would feel sorrow and grief."

"If there are people who love you, their world would collapse with your death."

"If there are people who believe and support you, your departure would cause them immense pain and they would miss you forever."

"Yawen, it might seem outrageous coming from me, but in reality, humans are not beasts. Beasts live for survival and procreation; humans are social animals. For some, their death is celebrated, and for others, it is mourned. Humans live for themselves, but people, people live for others."

"Oz... I... If I died, would you—"

"I told you, Yawen," Li Aozi said: "You mean a great deal to me, you have family, you have someone who sacrificed their own life to let you live... From that moment on, you ceased to be just Yawen, but instead, Yawen whom we like, want to be around, are willing to pay a price for."

"That’s why you can’t die. You must keep living with everyone’s expectations, that is the ’Redemption’ for the mistakes you’ve made in the past."

"Then—"

Yawen’s tone rose, she asked urgently:

"Mr. Leoz, would you like someone like me?"

"Didn’t I already say I don’t hate you?" Li Aozi smiled: "I don’t hate you, but whether I can like you will depend on you."

"Thank you." Yawen said: "I love you."

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