I am a Big Player
Chapter 91 - 90, The love I want_1

Chapter 91: 90, The love I want_1

The light beneath the surface of the river was dim, giving off a feeling of oppression, and many people would even experience a certain unknown fear in the water. Ren He felt no fear, yet he desperately wanted to break the surface for a breath of fresh air!

He was afraid he would freeze to death in these icy river waters!

In the brief moment before he hit the water, it was actually more thrilling than bungee jumping. Controlled by gravity, the human body free-falls downwards, a sensation close to death, but Ren He also felt an indescribable feeling—it was the pleasure of gaining freedom and burning with the fervor of life.

How many dare to take the plunge from a great height? Most are too scared, but Ren He dared. This feeling was simply exhilarating!

And when he executed a perfect entry into the water, that sense of achievement also excited him immensely. He did not want this sensation to end here; there was so much of life left to experience, Ren He felt he had to survive.

Indeed, those who pursue extreme sports do not do so out of a desire for death. Some enjoy the amazement of onlookers, others relish the challenge of pushing their limits.

But there are others, who engage in extreme sports not to court death, but to prove they are still alive.

How many people trudge through life in the Steel Forest of the city, not knowing why they live or where the future lies, as if going on like this isn’t so bad.

But there are those who begin to break free in this kind of life. When they put on their wingsuits to fly, when they climb snowy peaks with crampons, the moment they take off their goggles, they feel—truly and keenly—that they are alive! Not just alive, but living exuberantly!

That feeling could almost bring one to tears; it is an expression of a profound love for life.

In his previous life, Ren He had lost himself in the vast arena of fame and fortune, unsure of where to stand.

Now living again, he finally experienced that feeling, the one that gives you goosebumps and brings tears to your eyes!

Whoosh!

Ren He’s head finally broke the surface, and a large amount of fresh oxygen entered his chest through his gaping mouth; he breathed greedily, tasting the flavor of life.

He began to swim towards the shore with the freestyle stroke, moving as swiftly as a fish. The Divine Punishment System had not specified how long he needed to stay in the water, so of course, the sooner he got to shore, the better.

By the time he reached the shore, Little Fatty Xu Nuo hadn’t even made it to the riverbank, leaving Ren He so cold he wanted to curse. However, as he turned his head to look for Little Fatty’s position, he suddenly saw Yang Xi running toward him, holding his clothes in her arms.

And Little Fatty was panting heavily behind Yang Xi, almost unable to run anymore... Damn it, Ren He felt he had made a huge mistake, which was overestimating Xu Nuo’s physical fitness!

Who the hell would have thought he’d be gasping after just a bit of running!

Yang Xi approached Ren He, anxious, and said, "Quick, put on your clothes. Do you have a death wish?"

"Why are you here?" Ren He asked swiftly while putting on his clothes, recalling how he had chosen the weekend for this venture after speaking to Xu Nuo last time and had not informed Yang Xi of his whereabouts, but she had managed to find him anyway.

"Yesterday, Xu Nuo asked Duan Xiaolou and me in a mysterious tone what to do if someone insists on jumping into the water, and how to save someone from drowning... I knew right away you were going to jump in the river, so I followed you two quietly this morning," Yang Xi complained: "Why did you hide it from me?"

Xu Nuo... Damn, a genius at programming, but an idiot in this regard!

"I didn’t want to worry you," Ren He replied cheerfully after getting dressed and warming up: "I’m fine, really fine!"

"Tell me the truth, were you afraid I’d stop you?" Actually, Yang Xi understood Ren He’s thoughts all too well.

Ren He asked cheerfully, "What do you want to eat tonight? I’ll treat you and Xu Nuo to dinner."

"Don’t try to change the subject!" Yang Xi’s eyebrows shot up. "Ren He, you really have some nerve!"

"This is the lifestyle I’ve chosen, just like you chose to sing, even though you might not understand..." Ren He explained.

"Did you ever ask me to say that I don’t understand?" Yang Xi said calmly, "Yes, the things you do are very dangerous, and most people can’t accept them, but have you ever thought that those people don’t include me? I’ll worry, I’ll be scared something might happen to you, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to stop you because you’re not my possession. I won’t stop you, because your life belongs to you. I just don’t want you to hide things from me."

Ren He was stunned. He had longed for a certain kind of love in his past life, thinking the best kind was just to have each other’s company. No constraints, no entanglements, no possession, no desperate search for meaning in the other person—all destined to be futile.

So although he didn’t want Yang Xi to sing, he still supported her and personally wrote songs for her and planned the astounding challenge event.

He thought love should be about two people standing side by side, each with their own independent rooms, working in those rooms, eating dinner together at cozy restaurants, having lots to talk about while walking, feeling safe when hugging each other.

People often meet those who are selfishly alive and foolish. They love others only to prove that others can love them in return, or they cling so tight until the very thing in their grasp dies.

Mature relationships require time to wait for their fruit, but people always lack patience.

Although Ren He always felt that Yang Xi was sufficiently independent and had her own thoughts, he never dared to expect her to be so magnanimous. Yet, reality gave him a huge surprise.

Xu Nuo felt like he had just eaten a mouthful of dog food. Stunned, he asked, "You two..."

"Keep it a secret, got it?" Ren He thought it didn’t matter if Xu Nuo knew, since as best friends, there wasn’t much to hide anyway.

Xu Nuo nodded furiously, "Definitely, definitely a secret!" Although he didn’t know how the two of them got together, in this day and age it was rare for junior high students to date, and he subconsciously felt it should be kept secret.

At that moment, the voice of the Divine Punishment System rang in Ren He’s mind, "Host has completed mission, reward: 1.0 physical fitness!"

Another physical fitness reward! Ren He’s eyes lit up; up to now, he felt the most practical thing was the rewards related to physical fitness—after all, the better his physique, the more things he could do.

And now his physical fitness had reached 6.25, officially more than double the standard for adults!

With this, he felt even more confident about running next Wednesday’s marathon!

"Let’s go, let’s go, let’s go. I’ll take you out for dinner, to celebrate!"

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