Help! I'm in Another World and the Dragon Man Want Me To Get Pregnant!
Chapter 48: Confessions and Promises

Chapter 48: Confessions and Promises

With Ignatius’s hand gently cradling him and Shen Xinghui made the journey back to the mansion.

The two-hour trip had taken him days before.

Upon their return to the mansion, many people surrounded Shen Xinghui, expressing their joy at his safe return.

He could see how much he had worried them.

As it turned out, as soon as they had realized Shen Xinghui was missing, they began searching for him.

They wondered if he’d been attacked by bandits, left the country, or perhaps gotten into an accident.

They considered many possibilities and searched tirelessly.

Even after not finding him, they posted signs across the territory of the black dragons.

Shen Xinghui felt incredibly guilty, though no one blamed him.

He shrank back, feeling apologetic but relieved that no one scolded him.

That night, Shen Xinghui found himself in Ignatius’s room.

The soft light from a small lamp illuminated the space as he sat near the edge of the bed, only a few inches away from Ignatius’s body.

His heart was pounding loudly in his chest, already racing in anticipation.

He was so nervous that it felt like something might slip out of his mouth, but he was too scared to say it.

"Xinghui, you don’t need to be so nervous," Ignatius said, noticing his tension. "I won’t do anything you don’t want."

"I-I know," Shen Xinghui stammered, embarrassed.

Why did he say it like a question?

He could feel Ignatius’s hand touch his back gently, rubbing it reassuringly.

Although he knew it was meant to comfort him, the sensation of the soft touch through his clothes was strangely unsettling.

"I’m sorry," Ignatius began softly. "I didn’t realize I had hurt you until after you ran out of the room. I really am sorry."

"No... it’s alright. I... I was at fault too," Shen Xinghui replied, his voice shaky.

If he truly loved him, that was the last thing he should have done.

However, at the time, he had been too desperate, unable to see his own feelings or understand the other person’s.

"Do you remember what happened when you were kidnapped?" Ignatius asked quietly.

"Eh? Ah, yes, I remember."

He couldn’t forget it.

On the way to the capital, if Ignatius hadn’t saved him, he would have been sold somewhere, and before that, he might have been assaulted by a stranger.

Well, things had been a little complicated afterward.

"That’s when I realized how I truly felt," Ignatius continued, his voice low. "After finishing the mission, when I returned to my room and discovered you weren’t there, the anguish was so intense I thought I might burn up from the emotion. I searched for you, and when I saw you being mistreated, I was consumed with anger so fierce that I couldn’t control myself."

His voice was steady, but those words hit Shen Xinghui deeply.

He felt a mixture of happiness and fear.

I’m happy to hear this... but isn’t that terrifying? he thought.

After that, Shen Xinghui was surprised by how deep his desire was when he touched the drugged Ignatius.

He had never been so desperate before.

It wasn’t out of duty or obligation, it was the first time he had touched someone out of pure desire.

"But even then, you didn’t go all the way."

In fact, Ignatius had only comforted Shen Xinghui, restraining himself.

It was Shen Xinghui who had forced the situation.

But Ignatius shook his head.

His expression full of regret.

"I felt like I had used up most of my rationality. The connection between us, even for someone with experience, would be painful and could cause harm. You’ve never been in such a relationship with a man, and honestly, you must have been scared, right?"

"...Yes."

"That’s why I was so desperate. But then, you... you accepted me, and I was surprised. I... I’m sorry."

No, Shen Xinghui thought, but it was his own decision to take and swallow.

There was no need for apologies.

"Please, look up. It’s what I wanted. There was no disgust or anything. I wanted you to feel good too, Ignatius."

Ignatius gave him a smile that melted his heart.

If this handsome man made such a face, Shen Xinghui felt like he might faint from it.

"I love you. I want you by my side. That’s when I started thinking that. But I didn’t know how to seduce you, since you can’t see men as romantic partners. I made up various reasons and brought you to the country. I thought maybe, if we spent time together at the mansion, your feelings might change. Maybe you’d accept me."

"But... we did something naughty at the inn?"

"That was partly because of the aphrodisiac, wasn’t it? But no, I truly wanted you to accept me. I wanted that time with you. I’m sorry for deceiving you like that."

Shen Xinghui gently cupped Ignatius’s face in both hands.

The skin he touched was warm.

Whether from nervousness or embarrassment, Ignatius’s skin had a faint blush.

"Please, don’t apologize anymore. I don’t resent you or feel angry."

"But..."

"If you think it’s cowardly, then I, too, am guilty for falling for it. I didn’t want to be apart from you, so I came with you. I hid things to stay with you. So, we’re both in the wrong."

In a world so unfamiliar, he had hesitated about clinging to it, but he still came along.

He didn’t want to separate, so he kept secrets to stay with Ignatius.

He couldn’t say he wasn’t being deceitful.

"Then, if that’s the case, why didn’t you sleep with me when I came on to you?"

Shen Xinghui suddenly thought to himself: If Ignatius had really loved him that much, it wouldn’t have been strange for them to have been intimate back then.

He had intended to, and wouldn’t have minded it either.

Ignatius’s beautiful black eyes were filled with sadness.

Seeing that, Shen Xinghui realized once again that it had been his mistake.

"I couldn’t. No, I was happy, and honestly, my desire was stirring. But if I had slept with you back then, I felt like I would have been using you to create children. I didn’t want to take advantage of you for your skills alone."