Fortunate to Have You This Lifetime
Chapter 1196 Good-for-nothing Good Guy_1

Chapter 1196: Chapter 1196 Good-for-nothing Good Guy_1

What does it feel like to drown?

Purple Summers thought back and spoke slowly, "Your body becomes very heavy... Water rushes in from all directions, your nose and throat burn with pain, and it feels like your lungs are about to tear apart... Lack of oxygen in the brain causes dizziness and blurred vision, and when all that pain ends, everything in front of you turns black, the whole world becomes so peaceful, as if nothing exists anymore..."

Nathaniel Summers was listening intently.

Listening to the woman before him describe the experience of death, bit by bit.

The feeling made him feel bewildered and confused, and he almost unconsciously asked her, "If you hadn’t died that day, what would we be like now?"

Purple Summers was stunned, her eyes empty as she stared at him, "I don’t know..."

It seemed she had never considered, if she had been safe that night on the yacht, how different the ending might have been?

Would she have discovered Nathaniel Summers and Jade Carlson’s ambiguous relationship?

Would she have accepted Alexander Summers’s pursuit?

"There are no ’ifs’..."Purple Summers said softly, "In this world, there are never any ’ifs’..."

Don’t think about the ifs, don’t dwell on them, because all they bring is confusion, nothing but confusion.

"When you died back then, I was in so much pain, but I never thought that when you came back to life, I would be in even more pain," Nathaniel Summers said with a self-deprecating laugh, "Compared to the pain later... I really wished you had truly died back then... so I could miss you, reminisce, and then move on with beautiful memories to start a new life, a fresh start in my career or marriage, not like this..."

Purple Summers smiled faintly, her lips stiff with cold, "I’ve disappointed you..."

Nathaniel Summers looked at her, wanting to say that he wasn’t really disappointed.

Rebirth brought new vitality, it was a surprise.

He was just disappointed that after her rebirth, she was overly carefree as if having passed through life and death, she decisively and cleanly abandoned all past loves, with no baggage, no burden, and lightly fell in love with someone else.

How unfair.

She had moved on so far, while he was still trapped in the same place.

If she had died, he might have been able to pull himself together.

But she lived, bringing a series of humiliations and injuries to his life, inescapable, unavoidable, unshakable. He could only live in the past, becoming stagnant water.

Nathaniel Summers thought a lot, a great deal...

He was not noble, nor selfless, even though he had once loved, that love had long been stretched thin by hatred, and this thinness was destined to dissipate with time.

How much love was left?

Unknown.

However, even if he no longer loved, he did not wish to see her die again.

From beginning to end, he just wanted to keep her by his side, for the sake of the obsession he lost, and for that sliver of remaining dignity.

In the icy water, with nowhere to rely on, body heat was swiftly lost.

He and Purple Summers were on a shaky piece of ice below, sinking lower and lower. If they continued like this, maybe they wouldn’t need to wait to freeze to death; they would drown first?

"Suzanne Saunders, don’t sleep, Alexander Summers will come to save you." Nathaniel Summers’s smile was bitter, "Although that guy is a bastard, he really treats you well."

Purple Summers’s eyelids grew heavier, and with eyes half open, she gave him a faint smile.

Nathaniel Summers stared at her without blinking, trying to clearly see that trace of a smile.

He moved a little closer, as if he wanted to kiss her.

Purple Summers lay on the ice, her body completely frozen, unable to move.

However, as his lips drew near, he stopped, perhaps because he had no more strength, or maybe for some other reason... He was so close, his eyes dark against the shimmering water, as if he had a thousand words to say, but in the end, he only said one sentence, "I truly wish I had never loved you..."

Purple Summers vaguely realized something.

At that moment, Nathaniel Summers let go of his hands.

"Spare Cherry’s life, it was me who made her do all that killing, she didn’t understand anything..."

He murmured as his body slowly sank, falling into the bottomless darkness, allowing the cold river water to engulf him completely.

Purple Summers stared blankly, tears streaming down unconsciously, her cheeks cold.

"Good for nothing." She whispered.